sleepless in willowdale ...

~ Final : Man Utd 1 - Liverpool 0 ... wooohooooo .. time to celebrate people .. hahahhahaha .. time n time again, they twist the tale .. once again they have proven worthy of the challenge ... always capable of casting that magical spell on their opponents .. unbelievably superb header from Rio Ferdinand 1 minute after the official time definitely sent their rivals stunned and packing while Man Utd remains strong in second place, right behind Chelsea in the EPL .. and there is absolutely no question about that .. yeah yeah yeah .. sunday bloody sunday .. hihihi ~

~ Anyways it's been 12 days since i last checked in ... hihihi .. wat can i say .. things have been running pretty wild around here while i'm gone .. a lot of things have changed for the worse, if not otherwise .. hehehehe ... but as i said, bring it on pal! ... u think u've got me all figured out but actually u dont have any clue of what i'm capable of .. hihihi .. *evil grin mode is on* .. after much tot, i am especially made for this kind of conditions .. crush me down n i'll be back on my feet in no time ... wakakkakakakkaa .. enuf said now .. so u wonder : what's up? well, first off .. as some of u may have heard, i am once again an ACTIVE job seeker ... lost my job last thursday just like tat .. dun wanna elaborate on the details coz - let's just say - it's not worth ur time at all .. hahahaha .. *save u guys another painful ear torture here* ... all n all i was dismissed due to no fault of my own .. hihihi .. next up is the masterplan .. since i've been laid off, a lot of stuff have been boggling my mind .. i tried to push it away but desperation seems to overrule my body and soul .. so i can't help but to think about it all .. what should i do next in my agenda? i wish i can have the luxury of time .. but unfortunately time is all i need .. badly so to say .. hahahaha .. after spending much time contemplating about my situation and weighing the options on hands, i've came up with a single yet life-changing decision to make .. guess what the question is : should i stay or should i go? .. wakakakakkaa .. tat shouldn't take me long and hard to figure out now that i come to realize .. but heck, the time's gone ... sighs .. so far i still couldn't make my mind ... it's so darn tough, considering the things at stake .. i mean my decision will not only affect my personal life but the lives of the people around me as well .. with the amount of responsibility i carry, i can't just take a shot in the dark for this matter .. i seriously hope i have what it takes and i hope i will make the right choice at the end of the day .. ^^ .. *cross my fingers* .. in the mean time, i've got enuf on my plate for now ... n that is to look for a new job .. i've been sending out resumes all over Toronto this week and hopefully something comes back in the near future .. during this process, i realize that all one needs to get a job is continuous dedication .. sometimes i think i have sent enuf applications but the truth is it's never enuf .. especially if one lacks professional working experience like myself .. being a "green"-er is definitely a disadvantage .. and rarely, if not never, an employer will have the guts to hire a junior .. after all what they seek is immediate results 99% of the time .. sighs .. bottomline, all we (unexperienced jobseekers) need is just one chance to prove ourselves BUT it is extremely difficult to earn that one chance when the chances are that employers will toss your resumes off into the recycle bin as soon as the line reads "NO PROFESSIONAL EXPERIENCE" .. but i dun blame them .. tho sad to say this is the reality .. perhaps my version of it .. hehehe .. so some day when i come to a situation in which i have to recruit new employees, maybe i should remind myself of this .. that all we need is a shot .. in work, in relationship, and in life ... me out now ~ cheers

" ... So don't go away,
Say what you say,
Say that you'll stay,
Forever and a day,
In the time of my life,
Cause I need more time,
Yes, I need more time just to make things right ... "

DAMMIT = 4 more hours to go

~ As much as i hate to say this, the truth is men are wimps when it comes to speaking up about the reality of their relationships ... recently two of my friends had to taste the bittery of relationship-flops and it happens so that both are victims of the same typical "oh-please-believe-me" bullshit given by their boyfriends .. amongst the pile of overly common craps often -if not always- used by boys to call it quit involve parental and religious issues ... i mean COME ON DUDE! who are u kiddin' mate?!? and i have to say it's amazing what kinds of crap we can pull off to say goodbye to a relationship .. take this as an example .. "i'm sorry but i don't think it's gonna work out between us coz we both share different faith in God .. i mean i don't go to church on sundays" .. see wat i'm talking about here? and how lame is this bull? so then why the heck did u even think about putting urself n ur partner into this whole mess right from the beginning, morons? *chill out man .. dun get all upset dude* .. maybe we boys should try to rehearse the line before actually giving it all out .. ask a friend perhaps .. sighs .. personally i think watever reasons u plan to say, please make it up so tat it doesn't sound way too stupid to our ears, let alone ur partner herself ... at least give her the respect tat she deserves by letting her know the situation whether it be u falling in love with anyother gal, u just need a break, or watever .. just give her the truth .. and maybe u both can try to fix the problems together or even give it another shot .. as naive as i can be, i say she still deserves to get the truth from you .. i know it seems impossible to serve the reality .. given the circumstance that u might just earn urself a hard slap on ur face .. wakakakakaa .. *trust me it hurts so darn bad .. LOL* .. but at least u did tell the truth and it really proves alot about urself and being responsible as a man .. hihihi .. nonetheless either way the vic is still no doubt ur partner .. eventually it's only time before she will discover it for herself and hate u as much at the end of it all .. sighs .. it ain't easy but i think she will feel somewhat relieved, finding out the truth from you ... ^^ .. but tat's no guarantee .. she might even stab u rite through ur heart on the spot .. wakakakakaa .. in this case, u might wanna use those hard-to-believe lies instead .. wakakakakaka .. bottom line: forget about sparing ur partner's feelings by any means in the breakup coz the damage has already been done .. after all, we ain't no saints .. so quit trying to be one .. me out now ~ cheers

oh no ...

~ Goodness sake i miss blogging mate .. wakakakaka .. how long has it been? a week or so i guess .. well, not too long after all ... hihihi .. so wat's up with my life lately? errr .. i'm afraid there isn't much to write about .. NY's eve was blunt like never before .. no party no people no fun .. sighs .. in fact spent the entire holiday streak sleeping, eating, and breathing with no access watsoever to computers .. HAH! there u go .. the irony lies in the fact tat i do have access to the internet but i just dun have a computer .. CRAP! it's usually the other way round .. u know, no internet yet yes computer .. but my case is unique in its many own rights .. *watever* .. perhaps i should join forces with the Hanz .. he supplies the hardware while i supply the connection .. LOL .. then we can all enjoy the downloads .. wakakkakakaka .. eniwei it's just a tot which will never, in a zillion years, come true .. hihihi .. oh yes, there's this hillarious stunt which i pulled off on the first monday of 2006 .. it was a monday btw ... i think i mentioned tat, didnt i? *yes u did moron* .. oh well, thanx to my short-term memory lost ... hahaha .. eniwei it's one of those rare occasions when u just completely outwit yourself ... and in my case, things could have gone far worse .. it was an ordinary working day .. the first day of 2006 at work .. woohooo .. feeling normal if not otherwise .. took a fresh morning shower and i found myself standing on the rather-empty-for-a-monday-morning bus in no time .. apparently this wasn't enuf to stop my crazy mojo tat morning .. within 10 minutes or so, i got off the bus to make an interchange .. and so i waited there .. it seemed like there was no bus running north tat day after a long wait .. usually the bus will always be on time unless it was raining or snowing .. but tat monday was bloody clear .. and no later did i realized tat i wasn't gonna make it in time for work as i checked my watch striked 9:53am .. holy shit!@*&^%# .. while i continued my long awaited ride to come, i also came to realize tat i didn't see the other familiar faces around me .. and just before i began to sweat myself, i saw a figure in a distance and i knew tat he was one of the missing faces from the 25D .. boy, i was glad .. phew .. at least there's one ... hehehehehe .. "excuse me, did bus no 90 leave already?" asked a middle-eastern dude as he approached the bus schedule hanging on the outer wall of the bus shelter .. "Yeah i think so .. but i'm not sure myself coz i dont normally ride tat bus" i replied .. "Are you waiting for 25D?" he responded again .. "Yes" i nodded my head .. "That bus is not going to come .. Every bus follows the holiday schedule today .. and the next bus 90 will only arrive in another hour" ... conversation continued and he asked "Do you want to share a cab?" ... me thinking "Hang on .. let me call my friend first" ... then i spoke to James "... Is today holiday?" and he replied "Yes, i told you that last Friday right? ..." and there i was completely stunned by myself than ever before .. wat a shameful day to remember .. hohohoho .. but on the bright side, wat better way to begin the new year with such a classy act eh? wakakakakakkaka .. so much for a monday morning .. as i hung up my call, i simply smiled back at the mid-eastern dude and i said "i'm going home .. no work for me today" .. for a moment, i think the oxygen stopped flowing to his brain when he heard that ... his facial expression tells it all .. wakakakakakka .. eniwei here i am sitting by my office desk .. thinking what to do for yet another quiet weekend to come .. i hope it'll be alrite tho .. everything's gone up in flames .. wooohoooooo .. me out now ~ cheers