sleepless in willowdale ...

~ Final : Man Utd 1 - Liverpool 0 ... wooohooooo .. time to celebrate people .. hahahhahaha .. time n time again, they twist the tale .. once again they have proven worthy of the challenge ... always capable of casting that magical spell on their opponents .. unbelievably superb header from Rio Ferdinand 1 minute after the official time definitely sent their rivals stunned and packing while Man Utd remains strong in second place, right behind Chelsea in the EPL .. and there is absolutely no question about that .. yeah yeah yeah .. sunday bloody sunday .. hihihi ~

~ Anyways it's been 12 days since i last checked in ... hihihi .. wat can i say .. things have been running pretty wild around here while i'm gone .. a lot of things have changed for the worse, if not otherwise .. hehehehe ... but as i said, bring it on pal! ... u think u've got me all figured out but actually u dont have any clue of what i'm capable of .. hihihi .. *evil grin mode is on* .. after much tot, i am especially made for this kind of conditions .. crush me down n i'll be back on my feet in no time ... wakakkakakakkaa .. enuf said now .. so u wonder : what's up? well, first off .. as some of u may have heard, i am once again an ACTIVE job seeker ... lost my job last thursday just like tat .. dun wanna elaborate on the details coz - let's just say - it's not worth ur time at all .. hahahaha .. *save u guys another painful ear torture here* ... all n all i was dismissed due to no fault of my own .. hihihi .. next up is the masterplan .. since i've been laid off, a lot of stuff have been boggling my mind .. i tried to push it away but desperation seems to overrule my body and soul .. so i can't help but to think about it all .. what should i do next in my agenda? i wish i can have the luxury of time .. but unfortunately time is all i need .. badly so to say .. hahahaha .. after spending much time contemplating about my situation and weighing the options on hands, i've came up with a single yet life-changing decision to make .. guess what the question is : should i stay or should i go? .. wakakakakkaa .. tat shouldn't take me long and hard to figure out now that i come to realize .. but heck, the time's gone ... sighs .. so far i still couldn't make my mind ... it's so darn tough, considering the things at stake .. i mean my decision will not only affect my personal life but the lives of the people around me as well .. with the amount of responsibility i carry, i can't just take a shot in the dark for this matter .. i seriously hope i have what it takes and i hope i will make the right choice at the end of the day .. ^^ .. *cross my fingers* .. in the mean time, i've got enuf on my plate for now ... n that is to look for a new job .. i've been sending out resumes all over Toronto this week and hopefully something comes back in the near future .. during this process, i realize that all one needs to get a job is continuous dedication .. sometimes i think i have sent enuf applications but the truth is it's never enuf .. especially if one lacks professional working experience like myself .. being a "green"-er is definitely a disadvantage .. and rarely, if not never, an employer will have the guts to hire a junior .. after all what they seek is immediate results 99% of the time .. sighs .. bottomline, all we (unexperienced jobseekers) need is just one chance to prove ourselves BUT it is extremely difficult to earn that one chance when the chances are that employers will toss your resumes off into the recycle bin as soon as the line reads "NO PROFESSIONAL EXPERIENCE" .. but i dun blame them .. tho sad to say this is the reality .. perhaps my version of it .. hehehe .. so some day when i come to a situation in which i have to recruit new employees, maybe i should remind myself of this .. that all we need is a shot .. in work, in relationship, and in life ... me out now ~ cheers

" ... So don't go away,
Say what you say,
Say that you'll stay,
Forever and a day,
In the time of my life,
Cause I need more time,
Yes, I need more time just to make things right ... "