next stop: el savador

~ I am melting here ... melting away fast .. crap ... today's hottest temperature hits a humid 34 celcius .. oh no .. gotta get my sweat towels ready now .. wakakkakakaka .. eniwei here's one awesome song for u guys out there wherever u are .. enjoy the simmering hot summer y'all .. hohoho .. it's finalle here peeps .. wooohoooooo .. chill out .. me out now .. "Yo where's my f***king frappucino?!?! Eh yo .. WHAT?!? A HOT CHOCOLATE?!^+&^%$# ... shit!" ~ cheers

turn off the stars ...

~ Pheeeeeew, managed to finally get here ... all shenks to me room mates .. ^^ .. good good people indeed .. hihihi .. eniwei i think i am going to have to apologize for making such a big fuzz bout my previous post .. however can't help myself .. wakakkakaa .. so here's the bits n pieces of my bitter-sweet story .. last weekend i decided to pack me bags n head south to windsor .. *yeah yeah yeah* .. emotions were high n i was extremely xcited bout my trip .. hihihi .. windsor is same old same old .. nothing ever really changes there ... hehehe .. yet coming back always starts with a happy tone ... wakakakkakaa .. at least for me ^^ .. i wasn't planning to leave until friday nite .. at the usual greyhound bus schedule, which is around 12 midnite, departing from the Toronto downtown bus terminal .. aside from the pricey round trip fare *bloody $80 canadian bucks .. can't u feel the drain in ur pocket?!?* i personally like this schedule ... i can sleep during the journey plus it takes only about 4 hours to get there *express mode ^^* ... hahaha .. eniwei this time around, it's different .. got this carpool number from me bro last week .. so i decided to try me luck .. for the record, i happened to have some really bad experience travelling with carpools .. n tat's basically why i started taking buses on my recent trips ... but like i said, this time it's different .. hihihi .. well, actually i kinda need to save the cash .. wakakkakakaa .. eniwei i called the lady with the intention of booking a seat for my trip back to toronto cause i know i wasnt gonna make it on friday ... since carpools usually leave for windsor by 5 pm latest .. but i gotta work til 5 on fridays .. bad luck .. LOL .. she seems nice over the phone .. n so i asked her when she's leaving for windsor tat friday .. she said about 5 pm after she gets off work too ... as i expected .. but wat i didnt expect was this ... she asked me where do i work .. n guess what .. naah, we dont work in the same building .. tat'll be crazy yo .. wakakkakaa .. but we're close enuf .. at least by car .. hahhahahhaa .. and as soon as tat conversation ended, she tried to plan my whole trip at tat very moment on the phone .. she said "why dont you bring ur stuff to work tomorrow n i can pick u up n we can go together?" ... just so you know i've already made up me mind to take the bus .. but she changed me in a split second .. why the hell am i so friggin dumb?!?! obviously this will work out .. she's happy n my wallet is happy .. LOL .. so without hesitation, i confirmed our meeting time n venue to begin our adventure .. wakakaka .. n as soon as tat call ended, i ran downstairs n begin my chores .. packing n laundry .. LOL .. before i went to bed, i smiled .. knowing tat everything was working out just fine .. hahahhaa .. shenks to the instant-noodle planning by the carpool lady .. hihihihihi ~

~ During the entire weekend, all i really did was eat n eat n eat n eat n ...... eat .... geeezz dunno how many pounds i put on last week .. it's just madness .. seriously ... Went to catch "The DaVinci Code" and "Over The Hedge" last saturday ... n here again i wasnt planning for a movie marathon tat day either ... but it happened yo ... wakakkakakaka ... i would give D-Code a lenient 4/10 rating ... watching the movie was like being chased by a speeding bullet behind ur back .. i bet many peeps who didnt get a chance to read the book find themselves lost at the beginning of the flick .. but tat's understandable ... i personally would have been, if i didnt read the book .. hehehehe ... tom hanks is tom hanks ... i admired his acting .. however sophie neveu was just okay .. but she is gorgeous .. ^^ .. wakakkakakkaka .. on the other hand, i'd give OTH a fair 7/10 rating ... funny, yet not so funny .. but it was worth the 4.50 i paid .. hahahhaa .. it was a fun day after all ... hihihi ... on another not-so-beautiful note, i had a terrible accident last saturday .. ^^ .. u know me ... big, reckless, n careless .. wakakkakaka .. wat a combo .. hihihi .. i was chasing after a football on high speed when i wasnt wearing the proper pair of shoes .. *btw my basketball shoes were on* .. when suddenly i lost my footing before i lost my balance, and i guess u can figure the rest of the story .. wakakkakakaka .. *n apparently i still think it's bloody funny* .. but the worst part was tat i landed directly on my right shoulder when i hit the ground *ground = running track* .. trust me, i landed harsh n hard .. since i was running at full speed ... *for a fat guy tat is* .. as soon as i crashed, i rolled over a couple of times on the ground before immediately raising up on my foot .. i can feel the pain on my shoulder .. i can't describe the pain but it hurts badly ... the next thing i know Nacho Libre and Satria came running to approach me .. while the pain keeps getting worse .. i tried moving my shoulder/arm .. but i couldnt .. so i decided to feel my right shoulder using my left hand .. i was shocked .. i can feel a huge bump over the shoulder cap .. n it feels like a piece of bone was sticking out .. i was terribly scared yet in deep pain ... after tat, i began to lose my consciousness ... i can hear their voices calling out my name, asking how i was feeling .. "Noe, noe, noe ..." but i started losing my hearing too .. it's like somebody was holding a remote control to my ear n lowering the volume .. the voices were weakening by the second .. by tat time, i almost completely fainted ... until Nacho Libre sit me down on the ground n gave me a bottle of H2O to gag down .. they told me my face turned pale white during the incident .. n i felt my whole body extremely weak .. the pain remained there for a long time .. but the critical time has passed as soon as tat water reached the end of my throat ... phewww ... slowly i regained my hearing and my strength ... Mr. Neng2 also grabbed me a bag of ice to put on the shoulder ... but still i couldnt move my shoulder ... and i thought it was dislocated; not until the doctor said the joint was okay on the following morning .. yupe tat's rite, i endured the entire painful evening .. hihihihi .. n guess wat i wrote my last post in the morning before going to the chinese doctor .. when i thought my shoulder would have to be "fixed" like in those Jet Li kungfu movies ... just the thought of it makes me sick .. but i guess i was exaggerating way too much ... wakakkakakkakaka ... *Ouchh!$#%^& .. my shoulder* .. yeah it still hurts quite bad .. even now .. but it's healing over slowly .. it's gonna be a while before normal comes back ... sighs ... so i officially ruined our entire basketball/football reunion .. sighs .. wat a bad day .. sorry guys .. will make it up to you hommies as soon as this shoulder is fixed a'ite ... hehehehehe .. n i really hope i can make it before Nacho Libre had to fly away .. ^^ .. gonna miss him man ... wat a guy .. wakkakakkakaa ... so yeah there goes my entire beautiful weekend in windsor ... no surprises eh? hahahhahaha .. the one thing i take away from this weekend is that the best place to be in the world is where your friends are .. even the gruesome pain was subsided by the fun i had last weekend .. hihihi .. shenks guys ^^ .. for the first-aid help n the good times .. like always ~

~ Tomorrow herrotzky is leaving the USA .. the time has arrived buddy ... i know tat u may be scared of wat's to come ... but believe in yourself dude .. just like everybody around you does ... including me ^^ .. we can all make it if we try ... maybe this is for the best ... n sometimes the worst of things turns out to make the best outcomes out of it all in the end .. so be brave yach .. n like always ... tek it izzi .. hihihi n kalo situ sedang lost, inget semboyan gw "tak usah kita pikirkan ujung perjalanan ini" .. let it flow .. let it go .. n keep tat smile on ur face .. then u'll never go wrong .. hahahhahahhaa .. bon voyage n all the best in your future endeavours ahead .. btw dun forget to keep in touch dink .. u know where to find me .. this cafe is open 24/7 for friends .. wakakakkakakaka .. enjoy dude n hev a safe trip back home! ^^ .. did u hear tat??? HOME man HOME! yiihaaaaaaaaa ... tekker mate .. *i hope u can read this before u go .. otherwise the whole thing will sound so stew-pid .. crap* .. oh yah, dun forget to update ur blog too dude .. hihihi .. n last but not least, this one is dedicated especially for ya .. Never Know by Jack Johnson .. hope it will give u strength n comfort .. ^^ .. MERDEKA! .. peace out .. me out now ~ cheers

P.S. to herrotzky: Say Hi to Poppy for me please! wakakkakakakkaa .. hev a good one!

fight the future, fight the pain ...

~ Eventually this happened .. couldn't help it, u know, being reckless and careless on the field ... sighs .. i can't really write much for now .. i am scared .. frightened of the unbearable pain i am about to be put through ... i hope i can fight it .. it's kinda serious peeps .. perhaps the most serious so far in my life .. trust me .. but i'll smile anyways .. will surely get back to you guys with the details soon ... hev a good one y'all .. me out now ~ cheers

conversing with butterflies and the bees ...

~ Another week is done .. pheww .. hope everybody is chillin' for the nite a'ite .. hihihi .. as for me, i had an awesome weekend .. tiring but it was all good y'all .. hahahahaa .. Went to watch M:I III today .. gotta give TomKat three thumbs up ... wakakakakkaa .. he was just perfect for the role, the conspiracy, the whole sex appeal thing *btw i am straight! this is a man-to-man thing called respect*, and the full-packed action stunts .. yeah yeah yeah .. i say it was worth my 13 bucks for sure .. LOL .. just kiddin' guys .. as long as a good company is around, everything is gooooood ... ^^ .. btw was introduced to this chinese BBQ house in the old China Town too .. i'll tell this much, if u want to save, then this is the right place for yaaa ... wakakakkaakkaka .. a super saver meal indeed .. can't beat this for sure .. LOL .. here it goes .. 3 kind of BBQ meat on rice (LARGE) costs u about 5 bucks .. plus if u speak chinese, then it's a brother-to-brother price deal as usual .. 4.50 for tat very same meal .. AND if u are lucky *enuf*, u might earn urself another hot bowl of soup .. FREE!!! .. damn chun lah! .. best deal i've heard so far in canada ... LOL .. wakakkakakaa .. there u go .. another damn cool place to visit in Toronto on my list .. yeah yeah yeah .. ;P .. *oh boy .. i'm going nuts here peeps .. so mind the language pal* ~

~ Right out the cinema, this sudden uneasy feeling strikes me .. i realized it's the end of my weekend already .. sighs .. not quiet ready yet to brave another stressful work week .. hihihi ... but a man got to do what a man's got to do .. hehehehe .. i'll be fine .. no worries .. being the easy-go-breezy kinda dude is definitely good thing for me .. hahahahahha .. at least it keeps me smiling .. hohoho .. n tat's wat counts for me .. ^^ .. i also realized that it's almost a year i've been working in canada .. in another month or so, it'll all come full circle .. sighs .. and tat marks another year in my life .. and of course, the end of my working visa too .... honestly i've been avoiding this subject from poisoning my thoughts throughout the past few months .. tho i know i am gonna have to deal with it sooner or later .. n sad to say, that fear is still here to stay .. playing tricks with my mind ... trying to break me down .. sighs .. and time is, once again, running out for me .. the clock is ticking as i am hitting this keyboard and as you are reading this whole psychotic post .. but we'll never have enuf time anyways .. to do what we want to do .. to achieve what we want to achieve .. we are always haunted .. by our dreams, our past, our future ... by time ... so we might as well take everything slow and let it slide ... hehehe .. smile and let it sail .. while we enjoy the beautiful view and the exotic islands we encouter along the way .. all i know is tat my whole situation is going to get complicated soon .. and i dont want to make expectations .. because i am not ready to be disappointed just yet .. i am preparing myself for the worst to come .. and hopefully, by then, i'll be ready with a game plan .. the master plan, watever it is .. so for now, i'll have to stay calm .. hihihi .. besides, i have better things to look forward to .. another grand convocation is just around the corner .. and there's gonna be more sunny days ahead too .. wakkakakkakakaa .. but i am so not looking forward to saying goodbyes to a few of my friends at the same time .. or perhaps i, myself, will be waving goodbye ~

~ Geezz i think i wrote too much this time .. and mostly crap .. hohohoo .. hope u guys aren't bored or asleep by my melancholic topix .. hehehehe .. was planning to talk about light stuff but i think i failed myself .. LOL .. eniwei i'll cut it out here peeps .. i'll leave u guys with this tune by The Perishers .. one cool song for the nite before heading to bed .. hope y'all have a good week ahead .. ^^ .. take it easy yach .. n take care as always .. peace out ..... me out now ~ cheers

P.S. Loads of congratz to Karel aka Kambing for landing the job! Have fun and enjoy!

dancing under the april's shower

~ It's amazing how money grants us our mere existence and, more importantly, our own security in one too many ways .. each night we close our eyes, we try to take comfort knowing that tomorrow is going to be there and we pray that whatever problems to come, let them come and we hope that we have what it takes to overcome them ... we bend our backs 40 hours a week each week just to justify ends meet .. saving every penny we can for we not know what the future holds tomorrow .. once a while, we spend to reward ourselves for the efforts we invested so hard just to reassure our wandering hearts that we are doing the right thing we should be doing .. and we feel happy ... or are we really happy? ... the truth is that we are never happy ... coz we have never appreciate what we have and we crave for more .. as much as we try not to, we are what we are .. humans .. and like humans we shall live .. live to materialize that financial security we sought long before we are even here .. just because it runs in our blood .. our breed ... but at least we work for what we crave for, you may disagree .. yeah we do .. but are we all that fortunate? fortunate enough to feel rewarded for the things we do ... nope, we are not .. and we break down .. our world begins to shatter .. for justice is not served ... and we wonder why ... we suffer, we struggle, we endure .. hoping that tomorrow will be better .. and yet tomorrow never comes .. and we wonder why ... we suffer and we struggle even more .. but can we endure we ask .. can we survive on faith alone? ... i don't know .. we may think we can .. but our experiences make us think twice .. perhaps we should stop asking questions .. which i have already begun ... and to tell you the truth .. i am better off this way .. two boats can sail to the same destination; however, how each boat will get there is an entirely different story .. some people can get things easy in life, yet some people cannot .. everything in life is two-sided .. which brings about balance .. so for someone to be happy, some other one has to be sad .. it's just the way it is as sad as it may sound .. i believe we can live very simple lives .. but we make life itself more complicated at heart and in mind .. and when we want more than what we need, we simply suffer ........... me out now ~ cheers

We’re breaking and rebuilding and we’re growing, always guessing, never knowing

We’re shocking but we’re nothing

We’re just moments, we’re clever but we’re clueless

We’re just human, amusing but confusing

We’re trying, but where is this all leading?

We’ll never know ...

P.S. This song goes out especially to cookieapplegal .. hope u feel better soon ^^ .. and to all my friends struggling with problems of their own .. keep it simple peeps .. yeah yeah yeah .. last but not least .. to me and my own problems ;p .. hev a good one!