anger management needed ...

~ Sitting here on my bed with my guitar ... i wish i can talk with him .... n share the things i wish i can share with myself .. just a thought .. hihihi .. the truth is i have so many things in my head these couple days ... it's been rough lately and especially this week ... prolly u guys figured it out since "tat" post .. hahahhaha .. been seeking peace from wat i call "the bus therapy" ... and i think it's working somehow .. i feel like i can release all these burdens in the bus .. if it ever makes sense to u guys ... sitting there with my pal, the cd walkman ... hahahhaa .. listening to some music ... or perhaps reading the news ... well, not exactly ... i mean i hardly read the news .. instead i spent my time on the horoscopes, the weather outlook, the big headline aka the frontpage, some interesting columns, and last but not least, the celebrity gossips ... wakakakakkakakka .. they're pretty much my morning breakfast since i began my job .. eniwei back to the therapy .. u can find my different kinds of people aboard ... and they are pretty much random every single day, except for one or two regular-ees like myself .. hahaha .. but tat makes it fun .. it's like meeting new strangers everyday, who i think live a life not tat distinguished from mine ... and u can sort of categorize these people into distinctive clusters like the troubled ones, the desperate ones, the i-can't-make-the-date-line ones, the i-love-my-job ones (rarely), the wat-am-i-doing-here ones, the it's-just-another-day ones, the am-i-on-the-rite-bus ones .. and finally the i-hate-my-boss ones, which i think i am a big fan of .. hahahhahaa .. not surprisingly these clusters have a somewhat negative genre ... well, blame the working world for being such a pain in the ass .. and blame the writer of this script for being so negative about his life and for being such a loser ..... sighs .. but let's not sway from the original topic here .. i can seriously whine about my pathetic life n me for all i know .. but i'll spare u the torture .. maybe next time ... wakakkakakakka .. i mean seriously! .. hahahahaha .. eniwei, seeing these people allows me to reflect upon my past actions or ponder upon my life situations .. and as strange as it may sound, it kinda provides me with some sort of emotional/psychological state of peacefulness ... perhaps it's the long journey from/to home .. but i'm not really sure ... i guess knowing tat i am not alone having this dilemma and tat there are others out there still like u is one heck of a remedy for my soul .. at least it keeps me subtle and away from having my worst nightmares or creating them myself as far as these nightmares are concerned ... hihihi .. plus the long walk home out in the vicious evening blizzard gives me a spiritual inner strength and hope tat i can still and will be here tomorrow and the next and the next and the next ..... as i said to myself, bad things may come and go, but i am still here for more ....... and i dont intend to run, but rather to stay ... and tat's how i think i've managed to survive this far in this impetuous journey of mine ......... me out now ~ cheers