the end of a neverending story

~ Here i am rite back in Markham all by myself ... sighs .. came back last nite from windsor with a really mellow heart ... can't help but shed a tear ... i really really really miss all my friends .. all those fun, giggles, laughters, jokes, food, drinks, stories, games, smiles ... i never am a big fan of goodbyes and i will never be .. i hate it so damn much for the mere fact that i always *well, most of the time* cry whenever parting with people who i've come to grow close with in my life .. *btw this is a confession i've been waiting to make for a really long time* .. as much as i can, i always try to hold it simply because it's sooo darn embarassing to burst in front of my crowd .. especially when you are a boy .. *crap* .. they say BOYS DON'T CRY .. but hell with it .. after all, i am still a friggin' living, breathing person with all the fragile emotions God has invested in me ... i can't even remember how many times my mom has reminded me to quit crying like a baby .. sighs .. sorry mom, but i am just sad/emotional .. for most of you, probably this is a new side of me u've never come to know all this while .. hihihi .. so consider yourself lucky .. wakakkakakakka .. and perhaps, this is one of my best talents, which only a few people (my family and si apple gal) know 'bout .. it's a secret ... :p .. neway enough about me pathetic habit .. let's move on to some other topic .. hopefully it's not as mellow as my feeling rite now ~

~ A weekend in windsor is never dry and never wasted ... it's always fun and happy .. filled with lots of love .. wakakakakkaa .. even when there is nothing to celebrate, we make things happen just for the sake of celebration .. how 'bout tat? .. to be short, feasting is our fave hobby ... ^^ .. but last weekend was an exceptional one .. besides the convocation party, it is finally time for some of my friends to depart back to Indonesia for good .. hixs hixs .. sob sob .. i will truly miss 'em for all the times we shared together .. so i wish Suriany and Adwin all the best in their lives .. may we meet again in the future and may the good wind always be with you ... ^^ .. it's been a real pleasure hanging out with you guys .. so shenks for the memories dudes .. to good health and to our friendship .. cheers .. *shit, dun burst now .. DANG!?$@^%#* ~

~ Perhaps wat makes me even sadder *does this word exist?!?* .. is the fact tat i dunno when will i be able to drop back in windsor again .. as far as i know, there's no more long weekends for the rest of the year from here onwards (Christmas is still too long) .. crap .. so maybe tat's the last celebration WITH EVERYBODY in it .. hixs hixs .. sighs .. they say "There's always a beginning to everything and there must be an ending to every beginning" .. tat's just the circle of life ... hihihi .. and one day .. one day, it will be time for my ending as well ... hohoho .. ~

~ The Toronto sky is so gloomy .. makes my heart even more mellow .. dark clouds moving slowly across the sad sky without a promising sign of the warm sunshine .. i guess, even God knows how i am all down and gloomy .. sighs .. leaves falling and withering as the chilly wind blows against my face .. making my steps harder each day as i walk out to catch my ride to work .. in the morning, the grasses are wet, following the cold, lonely rains drizzling last night ... and as i breathe in the fresh morning scent, often seen up in this sky is a flock of geese flying south, migrating away from the coming winter ...... and that's when i know that the fun summer is over and the shades of autumn is here to stay ...... hmmmmmmm .. wat a life ~

~ Tonite i'll be escorting Suriany and Adwin at the airport ... it is the last good thing to look forward to .. well, at least, in the near future .. *hope i don't burst into flames .. shit* .. in the mean time, i'll have to adapt back to my lonely habitat .. been having too much fun lately ... ^^ .. me out now ~ cheers

"Finally ... and this is important ... when a goose gets sick or is wounded by gunshot, and falls out of formation, two other geese fall out with that goose and follow it down to lend help and protection. They stay with the fallen goose until it is able to fly or until it dies, and only then do they launch out on their own, or with another formation to catch up with their group."

"If we have the sense of a goose, we will stand by each other like that."