.:: ThE FiFTh AvenuE CaFé ::.

waiting for yesterday ...

2007-05-02T15:48:00.000+07:00

how would you describe your first day at work in one word? bad? boring? frustrating? sad? lazy? well, let me tell you this is how i had expected mine to be yesterday and all the days before yesterday. that is until today came, of course. and so the question remains: how would you describe yours? mine was all but everything that could have possibly gone wrong! in other ~~words~~ word, it was G.R.E.A.T to say the least. wooohoooo.

the alarm clock went off at exactly 5:50 am, and .... and took off at 6:45 am with monchi for what supposed to be another hard day at work. halfway on the trip, put on my brand-new headset with "Formulae" by JJ72 on my grandpa ipod. *n you shouldnt ask me why the label* reached destination at about 20 minutes to 9, got locked outside with no key. with no choice, patiently waited for my new colleague. from there onwards it just got better and better. apparently there was a power outage on the whole floor, which means no body can get to their work. *thats how dependent we are on electricity today and thank god it made my day and everybody else's. hahahahaha* all we could practically do was hung out at the common area and do nothing. they are all very friendly. well i cant possibly include everyone. but most of them were. i am never good with introduction anyways so i dont n shouldnt blame them. hehe. tick tock tick tock. after reading some outdated newspapers, i got bored and so i grabbed my reading book. gone through a few chapters and its already time for some early lunch. all this while electricity was still out. woohoooooo. oh yeah everytime somebody walked into the room, i crossed my fingers that he/she wasnt the "evil" messenger. hahahaha. anyways they decided to go for a brazilian buffet for lunch. apparently there is this on-going dine "1-for-1" promotion. i was basically following the pack on this. though honestly i wouldnt want to spend the money. sighs. in other words, i was a victim of ill democracy. blah whatever. lunch took about 2-and-a-half hours. by the time we got back everyone was on their way home. half day for the staff since the CEO had announced the decision earlier during our grande lunch. lights out and off we go. a friend asked: "how was your first day?" and i replied: "oh it was great!" and we shared a laugh all around. haha. what a first day. and oh, i was crowned the lucky man of the day since this sort of thing never happened before until i set foot today. yeah yeah yeah!

champions league corner: liverpool is going to athens people! they have beaten chelsea for the title race in last night's match. what a come back indeed. and lemme say this: "F*** Mourinho!" hahahaha. that felt real goooood off my chest. wakakakakaka. on a serious note, man utd is going to face ac milan in tonight's match up in san siro. i really hope the red devils will pull this off. kaka's wrath has to be taken seriously and they got to pull them sleeves alrite. unfortunately i cant possibly risk tomorrow's work for tonite's match so i'll miss this one but my fingers will be crossed tight. man united unite! me out now. Cheers.

pictures in the papers ...

2007-04-20T14:44:00.000+07:00

BACK! before it's too late. i soon figured that the longer i stop blogging, the harder it is to get it back on track. i mean dont take me wrong here. i like writing n i wish i can do much more during the period of my hiatus. or perhaps, im just being a lazy dog all this while. hehehe. frankly, i must admit that im getting "rusty" in this. sighs. anyways, bare with me peeps. so, the BIG Q is "what happened?" well, those who have the connections shouldnt face any problems getting the answer. thanks again n again to the magic of msn and friendster. yeah thats right. nevertheless, i still care to share. these past months have been a really emotional roller coaster for the most part. a lot happened and a lot did not. but im glad everything worked out just nice. phewwww. the best thing i must say is that im staying together with my girlfriend. she's been a pillar of support whenever i need her to be and i am so grateful for her presence. thanks monchi! hihihi. and finally the long-awaited reunion came true here in singapore. woohooooooooo! its awesome to be around with your best buddies again after so many years has passed by. and now i am actually living with them, which is hard to believe, yet it's real. picking up from where i left off last time, i checked in to the lion city in mid-march and as soon as i got things to settle down for a bit, i began trying my luck in nailing a job. like always, it started real slow. i was at a point where i literally became paranoid and anxious, having panic attacks at night and finding it hard to fall asleep. things can really get into your head and screw you from within. but she was there for me. and for that, i am so blessed to find her again. as days switched into nights, things slowly picked up a step at a time and i kept my faith that things are going to be better. fortunately i had the support of my family, which is so comforting in times like this. and somehow i've always believe that the way out will open itself, no matter how hard life grinds on you. ultimately it's only a matter of time. and again, it has proven me right this one chance. after all the hard work and sweat, my perseverance paid off and it all happened just a phone call away. in three weeks time, i will be on my way to work. one more time.

i hope i didnt bore you guys with this, and hope i will be back soon. in the mean time, i've been reading this book "Life of Pi" which is said to be a great one to follow through. i came across these lines of script and would like to share it with you guys. honestly, i never saw it this way ever before.

"... The reason death sticks so closely to life isn't biological necessity - it's envy. Life is so beautiful that death has fallen in love with it, a jealous, possessive love that grabs at what it can. ..."

and finally enjoy this great number by Rivermaya. have a great one. me out now. Cheers.

far and near ...

2007-03-03T14:30:00.000+07:00

if i was to be a product, i bet i would have a lil' note at the back of my packaging, on top of the barcode, that says: "Designed in Jakarta - Indonesia. Made in International." i think it precisely describes me. although i was born and did spend my early childhood years in the city, i find myself wandering in it now with absolutely no recognition of its identity being my hometown, a place where i began. and i am pretty sure i am as blur and "green" as a tourist visiting the city, no more no less. i hardly know places around the city - in fact i would probably need a map to travel, or perhaps the taxi's would cure my loss of direction - and i hardly have any friends from yesteryears. it is just so frustrating. and with the poor delivery of public transportation services - though they are available - you need to be able to operate your own vehicle to move around, be it a car or a motorbike. it's like a survival skill for your social life in jakarta, which i hardly have right now. sighs. consequently the enormous number of cars traveling on the roads give rise to the increased volume of traffic congestion in the city. everywhere you go is jammed. it's a culture thing over here. double sighs. anyways just wanna share this with you peeps. i mean my frustration. hahahaha. apparently there are many many more. but they'll pass. i am sure. in the mean time, i'm looking forward to the EPL clash between Man. United "The Red Devils" and Liverpool "The Reds" tonite at Anfield. GO MAN-U GO!!! be sure to catch all the actions eh! have a good weekend mates! me out now. Cheers.

while you were out ...

2007-02-20T17:42:00.000+07:00

another day, another struggle. the sun just set as the young night begins to fall. the city lights up along with the towering street lights, bringing everyone home after a long tiring day. some things went as planned and some might not. but there's always tomorrow. a new day, a new spirit. now its time to relax and stuff yourself with some self-fulfilling dinner with friends or family. so enjoy it! to those who work hard for themselves and their loved ones. Cheers.

P.S. im heading out of town for a bit. will be back soon. have a great one like always ;p

X O X O X O ...

2007-02-14T17:37:00.000+07:00

wow. here i am. at home at last. pheeeewwwww. miss me or miss me not? hahaha. things are slowly beginning to return to normal here in jakarta. the city is still recovering from the aftermath of the recent serious weather conditions, which i am sure you guys had read or heard of lately. if not, then read between the lines again. LOL. anyways i wouldnt wanna waste my time over the disastrous phenomenon (note: that's what the government referred it to. and that's what i call some serious bullshit!) *crap!!* how sad yet how true. sighs. now let's move on. been spending my time mostly at home, relaxing. just taking the time of my life if that's what you wanna call it. hahahaha. i can see new malls around the city but the rest still remains indifferent for the most parts. especially the food. they are still as good as they were ten years back. and i am sure they will always be :) on top of that, the long awaited family reunion finally materialized. it's definitely good to be back! woooohooooooo. anyways i just wanna say happy valentine's day to my family and friends wherever they are. wishing you guys a super lovely day and thank you for being the world to me! without you peeps, i am nothing =) aite then. im gonna sign off quick. have a good one y'all! lots of hugs n kisses. me out now. Cheers.

journey to the east ...

2007-01-30T22:29:00.000+07:00

life is a string of interwoven stories and likewise, an end to one story is only the beginning of another. i am writing this while looking through a small window in my humble little basement room, which i am leaving behind soon enough. dont exactly know how to feel. a little scared, a little excited, a little sad, a little worried, a little anxious, a little happy, a little bit of everything into one i guess. i almost have everything packed and ready. a few more things and i'll be set to go. and i promise myself not to weep this time around cause i am telling you i am the biggest, major weeper you can find. believe me! no kidding here. hahaha.

i must admit that this chapter of my life has been enjoyable in many different ways, to say the least. i met a lot of great friends and people in general, who i think i will try to be in touch with for as long as i can. i've also managed to fill up my photo albums with as many pictures as i can, for which i guess i should give myself a pat on the back. hihihi. though i now have to pay a price in terms of my excessive baggage carry. sighs. but all in all, the juice was worth the squeeze; and i am extremely grateful to have had this wonderful experience and to have you people share it with me. i do certainly wish more of my friends would come and visit this very blog of mine. to me, it's one way of keeping touch. even a quick hi-and-bye would be nice every now and then. while on the subject, i'd also like to apologize in advance to u heap for i dont know how much blogging i can afford during my stay in jakarta; but i'll try my best i promise. so yeah, thanks again for everything mates!

looking forward, i guess i'll just have to continue paddling against the strong currents in the open water. i am psyched for what's to come in the future ahead and yet i fear for the unknown. fear that everything will go wrong, fear that i will be disappointed, fear that i wont make it to the finish line, fear that life will screw up on me. but i am prepared for all of those to happen. after all life itself is a risk; so why so scared? we are all screwed up in our own little ways; and we should be glad for that cause they make us who we are. as for the future, it will remain a mystery as always. just let it flow. okie then peeps. that's it for my last post in canada. i'll see you lot soon at the place where it all began. peace out n stay cool. me out now. Cheers.

singapore + english = sing-lish

2007-01-28T03:18:00.000+07:00

found this super hilarious clip @ youtube and i tot i should share it with all u peeps here. it's a recording of a lengthy conversation between a chinese customer and an indian dude working at some indian restaurant (read: we call it 'mamak stall' or 'coffee shop' back in singapore). for those who have little or no experience of the singaporean lifestyle, this clip may seem rather offensive and rude. but actually it is not since that's pretty much the way things are in the lion city. LOL. aite now. enjoy n remember: you've been warned! me out now. Cheers.

sing me my lullaby ...

2007-01-17T04:52:00.000+07:00

an icy hail stormed across toronto yesterday and the city finally frosted white. yupe, this marks the first snow day for this season. some people are glad and others are not. i guess i'd rather fall into the former since this is going to be my last winter here; not ever, just so you know. hihihi. today isnt so bad *yeah rite!* but that's the thing about me - i love the cold. well, maybe more like i need the cold if you ask me again. hihihi. other people will be like: "dammit! it's cold" whereas i'll be going like: "sweeeeet!". LOL. and this fact might come as a surprise to some people given my origin. i come from a tropical country where winter ceases to exist simply cause the temperature is just too darn humid. hahaha. anyways my point is that i am definitely going to miss the canadian winter and that i have no clue how i am gonna survive back home (tho i will for my sake). and with every winter there's always a memory to treasure along with a good sport of humour among friends. however the humour turns sour when the joke is at your expense. HA! one particular case happened to me in my first winter ever. i was walking to class towards a major road intersection with my buddies. we stopped by a red light and began crossing as the pedestrian sign turned green. WHOOOOP! i slipped and the rest went down in history. it happened so fast and the next thing i know i was sitting there in the middle of road; my butt was in pain and my friends (instead of offering a hand) were cracking up right behind me like they'd never seen a real good winter plunge - yupe, it's a plunge alrite. sighs. it was so darn embarassing and i think i caught a glimpse of the driver of the car to my right getting a little entertained by the scene. it's just one of those moments when your embarassment overwhelms the pain. and it's never a good thing cause the pain haunts you still after. hahaha. crap. but it's all good cause we shared a laugh together (which means i ended up laughing myself at my own clumsiness) and i wouldnt change a thing about it even if i could. well, maybe it would be nice if someone would have taken that fall instead of me. hahahahaha.

another unforgettable winter reminiscence is my ski trip at blue mountain. i could remember i was so psyched about the whole trip though i wouldnt call myself a good skier since that was my first time ever! but psyched nonetheless. there are two particular incidents to tell: one is funny and the other is funny/serious. i still find it hard to believe the former cause how can they not find a size for my pair of ski boots!?!? i mean, come on man!! do i look like a gigantor or something? i first took it as a light joke but apparently it wasnt. i was excited as hell and when my turn came up, they told me they didnt have my size. well, not exactly. i managed to try on some pairs, the bigger ones that is. but all to no avail. on some, my foot couldnt even fit into the boot opening; on others, the series of boot locks wouldnt latch. sighs. frustrating? yes. embarassing? hell yes! crap. dejavu-like, i could see the bootkeeper chuckling lightly behind the bar as i handed over the last pair i tried on. sighs. nonetheless i finally ended up with no other choice but to take on snowboarding, which somehow leads right to the next story. *how nice innit? phhffffftttttttttttt* at first i thought: "yeah, i can do this shit! i saw those people and it doesnt look too hard to master". plus i cant stop picturing myself with my super big ski goggle and my foot on the board; you know, gliding down the snowhill, swerving around corners, jumping over snow humps and all. by the end of the third day, i will be a pro, or so i thought. well, at least it was this cool in the back of my mind. by the end of my third run, there i was lying on my back in the middle of the beginner course and this was not cool. i couldnt move, let alone helping myself up. i was so close to getting unconcious i remembered and i didnt have anymore gas in me. the thought of getting wrecked by a speeding skier/boarder hit my mind for a moment but i didnt move as if my body was paralyzed. afraid i was, yet i was laid helpless. it wasnt until then i realized that snowboarding isnt prolly my thing after all. yupe, no no. i finally managed to collect enough energy to bring myself up and standing after a minute or so. with my body feeling like i had 3 broken cage ribs and a slight concussion on my head, i continued my journey downhill to the base, walking that is. *knock yourself out guys. i know i know. its very funny* from the base, i headed straight back to the motel and by nightfall, i returned my snowboard. in the end, it wasnt going to be a 3-day fun outdoor experience but more like a 1-day outdoor accident + a 2-day boring indoor experience. crap. so much for my wild imagination. sighs. hey, at least i gotta snowboard for once in my life! hihihihi. though i am not so sure if i want to do it again. blah! life's too short rite? hohoho.

fortunately i havent got all my winter memories filled of me making a mockery out of myself. LOL. i remembered one night a couple of friends, my brother, and i made our first snowman ever! or at least we tried. hahahahhaa. it turned out that it isnt easy at all. the condition of the snow definitely makes all the difference; and it takes skills and a good meal before you are successful simply because you need lots n lots of energy just to make a good round snowman's head, let alone the fat body figure. sighs. we ended up with a couple pairs of tired hands and a distortedly mashed snowman head. LOL. we made a couple snow angels in place of the snowman. hihihi.

well, i guess that's it then for now. with this i officially close my winter wonderland chapter. hehehehe. and the countdown has begun people! woohooooo. me out now. Cheers.

P.S. check out some new additions to the main course! ;P

kid me not, kid u not ...

2007-01-10T23:14:00.000+07:00

R U IN 4 A SURPRISE?
i know. it's just that cool, innit?

you and my dancing silhouette ...

2007-01-05T02:29:00.000+07:00

i find it quite a pleasant surprise that my last canadian winter is spring-like. and i am thankful for it. hihihi. well, maybe i am a lil disappointed but given my everlasting flu streak, i think im good with a mild 9⁰ celcius. LOL. apparently i am trying to enjoy my last coupla weeks of stay here in toronto before heading south-east. hehehe. wanted to fly over to vancouver but conditions forbid. so i guess it will have to wait for now. keep the dream alive so to say. LOL. anyways the new year is here. everyone is back from the holidays. at least physically i hope. wakakaka. the mind lingers on everything that happened during the past few weeks in the mean time i suppose. if not, no worries at all. prolly one had a few drinks too many. the favourite of them all. LOL. despite the spirit of the celebration, however, some people (including myself) didnt even get a chance to celebrate. and that is why i am taking you people on a challenge: who can beat my NYE's party? (the unparty-ed edition). wooohooooooooo. so what did i do on new year eve? i was slayed on my bed with an infectious cold and flu. did practically nothing special during the day whatsoever. and i was back in bed by 9PM later in the evening. absolutely the worst new year celebration i've ever had. wait a minute. NO countdown, NO booze, NO memories, and NO recollection of what went on around the globe that fateful night. i'd say they all add up to NO celebration! and yeah, its already recorded in my history book aite. sighs. sad indeed. so here i am now asking you heaps out there to beat this record of mine. so i can at least leave myself some shred of dignity and peace. LOL. if i can pick a soundtrack for this part, it would be that begging song "what's left of me" by nick lachey. wakakakkakakaa. leave the dude alone man. hihihihi. anyways i am certainly looking forward to a smooth, peaceful stay during my remaining days in canada. maybe a recovery would be nice as well *please god please*. LOL. before i head out, a quick fix for ms.bubbly who's drowning in misery these days: sometimes we need to let go, just to let it come back. but i guess this is no fix for ya eh? sighs. well, hope the days day faster and the nights night faster then. LOL. okie dokie. have a good one y'all! me out now. Cheers.

the afterglow ...

2006-12-20T00:52:00.000+07:00

HO HO HO. here we are at the brink of a new year. it's that time of year again when everyone is busy. extremely busy i suppose. christmas dinner to attend to, extra gift shopping for those you missed out (which includes the extra wrapping fiesta), planes/buses/trains to catch, cards to send, special meals to prepare, christmas tree to set, pretty decors to put up, and the list goes on. and oh yeah, not to forget the fun at work *PHFFTTTT. yes, i am being sarcastic* not surprisingly, i dont find myself tied up and all. just taking things easy up here. hihihi. believe it or not, it's the first and the last green christmas for me in canada. i guess the whole fuzz is true. you know, about global warming and what not. i bet santa's home is flooded rite now. cross your fingers he still makes it down your chimney tho. hihihi. anyways it's all good yo, besides for the quiet blogger world. sighs. thankfully theMel's been busy posting up her pixies. hihihihi. so i can indulge myself in some short intermezzo here at work. LOL. what's new with me? well, the first priority on my to-do list is to catch all the latest from the hollywood land aka the movies. hohoho. here's a glimpse of the manifest: happy feet, rocky balboa, the good shepperd, babel, apocalypto, snow cake, the pursuit of happyness, we are marshall, children of men, and night @ the museum. SEE WHAT I MEAN! how in the world am i gonna watch all these?!?!?! crap. i wish i own one of the cineplex chain. hahahhaa. on the same note, i highly recommend, if not urge, you peeps to see the blood diamond. dicaprio is on the hunt for the best actor award yo. the storyline is good. very touching, lots of action, and a lil dose of romance to cap it all off. all n all it's a good watch. go see it people!

i'm gonna be off work next week. pheww. boxing day is just around the corner. n that calls for a hunting season. wakakkaka. for good deals of cuz. who knows what i may come across of. hihihihi. before i go, however, me gonna do the tag yo. and i'd like to wish all you good good people a very merry warm christmas and a happy new year celebration! all the best for whatever's to come in the year of 2007 and keep it simple k. including ur resolutions for next year. wakakaka. as for moi, dont have any. wooohooooo. see what i mean. LOL. alritey. gonna leave you heaps with this cool song, cash machine. get those dancing shoes rocking and your belly shaking like the jelly! ^^ see you next year. me out now. like always. Cheers.

Part 1: On the Outside
Name: "If you really know me, you should know!" says TheMel. "Exactly!" says me.
Date of Birth: "If you believe you know me, you should know this too!" says TheMel. "Second that!" says me.
Current status: "SO. damn. tired." says TheMel. "Errr, isnt this supposed to be one of those 'Single/In a relationship' kinda question?" says me.
Eye Colour: Dark.
Righty or Lefty: Righty. Lefty only when I try real hard.
Zodiac Sign: The Bow & Arrow.

Part 2: On the Inside
Your Heritage: "Ape ni???" says TheMel. "..." says me.
Your Fear: Insects with wings. MAJOR!
Your Weakness: Too many.
Your Perfect Pizza: One with toppings n cheese.

Part 3: Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up today: What should I do for Christmas?
Your bedtime: Between 9PM and 11PM. I'm an early sleeper.
Your most missed memory: This year is swimming at Singing Sand Beach last summer.

Part 4: Your pick!
Pepsi or Coke: "Coke. It's unbeatable!" says TheMel. "RITE ON!" says me.
McD or Burger King: "Fillet-o-Fish or Swiss Mush?" Hmm. A tough one this is. It's a tie people.
Single or Group Dates: Single though I hardly find one.
Adidas or Nike: "Nikeee..doh!" says TheMel. "Tell me you kidding rite?" says me.
Lipton Tea or Nestea: Aren't they the same? Confused now.
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla forever!
Cappucino or Coffee: "Frappucino!" says TheMel. "Same same" says me.

Part 5: Do you...
Smoke: A-Ah. Not in a zillion years.
Curse: Unfortunately most of the time.

Part 6: In the past month...
Drank alcohol: Yes if you include cooking wine. Nope otherwise.
Gone to the mall: "D-OH. I live there." says TheMel. "How cool is this gal?" says me.
Been on stage: Nope.
Eaten Sushi: Nope but planned to.
Dyed your hair: NOPE! Why is my life so bland? Sighs.

Part 7: Have you ever...
Played a stripping game: Is anyone interested?

Part 8: The Future
Age you're hoping to be married: Not anytime soon for sure.

Part 9: In a guy / girl
Best Eye Colour: Not too particular as long as it is normal.
Hair colour: Brunette, blond for girls. Black for guys.
Short or long hair: Long for girls. Short for guys.

Part 10: What were you doing...
1 minute ago: "I was prolly still in part 7 or something." says TheMel. "D-OH!" says me.
1 hour ago: Eyes on the monitor at work. Mind? Running wild.
1/2 hour ago: Same as the above. What you expect from a programmer?
1 month ago: Thinking about today I guess. Haha.
1 year ago: Too lazy to think back since I most prolly did nothing.

Part 11: Finish the sentence...
I love: to travel the world. see new places.
I feel: loved. blessed. fortunate.
I hate: dealing with customers. any type of customers!
I hide: my dirty little secrets. D-OH!
I need: a vacation. seriously!

Part 12: Tag 5 people.
Bho, Bubble, Huan, Pooch, Winnie, Jessica, .. Everyone lah!

intermezzo ...

2006-12-02T03:39:00.000+07:00

stormy weather at the dawn of december. grey and cold. its a perfect time to stay at home with a cup of hot chocolate and a good book to read. to top it all off, i could use some quality time in the kitchen by myself. and maybe a quick acoustic session with my guitar. how i wish. well, christmas break is nearing and i am so thankful that i can finally get loose for at least a week or so. hihihi. nothing special in particular, perhaps some dinner with friends for the new year. maybe not. hehehe. soon enough, the snow will fall. speaking of winter, i was conversing with the guys in the office a few days ago. the topic? what else if not about the ever so popular i-hate-winter-so-darn-much theme. strangely enough, we all agreed on a common wish for christmas: a magic weather calendar. what? you think i am kidding? well, i am not.

the blogger world has been kinda quiet lately. well, at least my blog circle has, if not dead. hahahaha. and i dont blame them though. the girls are probably out shopping whereas the guys are still stuck in the office. LOL. my story? work, work, work. and no worries there's plenty more to come since i'll be working my ass off non-stop til christmas. woohoooo. love my enthusiasm. wakakaka. so wat brings me here on this wet day in toronto? well, i decided to take on blogging today since i am feeling a lil blue. unexpected happenings taking place. i wouldnt say it's a bad thing. it's a process of change and i can only let nature takes its course. i hope i have the endurance and wisdom to steer the outcome. being the eldest child, responsibility obviously comes with the territory. i wish i can share more of this with you peeps. but i think i'll be fine. hihihi. anyways, let's talk about other stuff, shall we? lighter stuff if i may choose. hehehe. did you guys know that oasis was performing a concert in paris early this week and the whole acoustic session was streamed LIVE by msn for free? i felt my blood surge within me when i saw the news. but too bad, it just wasnt my luck. dammit! my home internet connection was so friggin slow from the excessive downloading fiesta. obviously. nonetheless i managed to listen to noel g. and his forever number 'wonderwall'. man, let me tell you this now. i can still picture myself in my deathbed listening to this tune. its the thing about oasis. they are forever heard. 10 years into the future, people will still be listening to their numbers. anyways, in case you missed it, i think you can still check out the clips on msn video. or try google 'control room, oasis live in paris'. and if you still cant get enough, their best-of cd 'stop the clocks' was released last month and will feature 18 great songs off their entire discography. there goes my music update, which i am sure you all know already.

well, i guess im off again then. hev yourself a happy lil season yo! tekkie mates. me out now. Cheers.

and so the story goes ...

2006-11-21T01:54:00.000+07:00

how've my life been? lately it's been awful. i feel dreadful to say the least. well, unless your definition of getting sick reads the contrary. and be sure to let me know if it does. which i doubt it will. sighs. i must admit nasal congestion and dry cough have been my ultimate favourite combo when it comes to diseases. they are my worst nightmare. crap. and if you guess i rested during the weekend, guess what? you guessed wrong. hahahaha. i did not have a rest. i was at work making money trying to save as much as i can. well, the man has a plan, just like every other man. hohoho. i didn't feel right about calling in sick on such short notice although the truth is i did not have this sick plan set in mind ahead. hell no! i know they are short of hands during weekends and so i must fill in my duties. see how responsible a person i am. *i am one sick narcisist, aint i? LOL* anyways, apart from being under the weather, i guess everything else is okay. well, i hope so. i cant help but notice how unappreciative people can be. or we can be for this matter. at least tats how i felt spending my time at the resto. it makes me sad yet upset. well, more upset than sad if you ask me again. LOL. it's just so unfortunate that the so-called *friendship* we share at work doesn't extend beyond the workplace compound. it's not always a good thing anyways. sometimes i like to keep it just inside, and not outside. *unless you were friends before you work together, of course* too much bonding can be harmful. i, for one, doesnt really like to share my stuff with a lot of people. like to keep it small. coming back to my weekend *re-treat*, sometimes they even say "oh god, you guys are the best! you never complain and are always helpful." when they don't mean it at all. it was a fake and it deserves a fake return. hahahhaha. i gave it a happy smile and a thank you along. fake ones tat is. see how evil a person i am when a few lines above i was a responsible one. LOL. but i aint lying anybody. i aint no saint. neither is she. i am just being myself and she is just being herself. cant really blame anyone. we are all guilty of the crime. this makes me think how much of all the things we say we truly mean it? perhaps it's better to leave it untold. but i'll tell you this: at my resto, i find it hardly a question. it's a statement. everyone is there for a purpose and that is to make quick cash. so everything that happens within is fake or at least temporary. you are on your own and i am on my own. it's a sick world in there. but sadly tats how it is. or maybe i am just being harsh on everyone. me the sick jerk. hahahahhaa. but let me ask you this: would you rather have lots of friends who you hardly seem to know well at all since you have so many of them? or would you rather have a few trustworthy friends who you know will always stand by you no matter what? i feel so blessed that i'd rather pick the latter. i'll be damned if i dont. wakakakkakaa. well, i guess it's time for lunch now. later hommies. me out now. Cheers.

simplicity of the truth ...

2006-11-07T04:25:00.000+07:00

aloha mon amies! wat a dull monday today is. my eyes feel heavy and my brain .. oh my brain. perhaps i left it behind at home or something. LOL. yeah, like everyday! hahahaha. first thing's first, i think i owe someone loads of congratz here. hang on a sec, let's make tat a two. wooohoooo. the more the merrier innit? damn rite! Bho, good luck with the new job eh! n dont forget to slip in some of those non-decaf coffee sachets before burning them late midnite candles at work. wakakakaka. i am sure you gonna rawk the house yo. eniweis all the best mate. n Lia, errr .. u know wat? this nickname doesnt feel rite to me. no offense man but i think i'll stick with Huan. LOL. so yeah dude, check this out. heard tat u finally got your friggin' LPR approved eh? tat's sooo darn sweeeet man. hihihi. well, i guess the hunting season is about to begin for real. serious business here. i mean it all comes down to this, doesnt it? wish you good luck yo n i hope you'll land a good job so by the time i come back, we can feast by the riverside or clark quay or whatever shit you want to call that place with the view of a body of water or some sort. LOL. i am extremely glad that good things are happening for you guys my friends. sometimes you just have to wait for these moments to arrive because only then it will mean something to you or be of any value. i mean if good things happen to you everyday, we probably won't be calling them 'good' things anymore, will we? maybe we'll call them simply just things. no more no less. hahaha. yupe, i know i'm rambling here. and so i'll stop. on another much lighter note, i stumbled across these three topics today while browsing through today's headlines. they are all random discussions btw. first topic: saddam was sentenced to hang. lemme ask you this: how many of you guys truly believe he will be hanged? perhaps i should rephrase the question: how many of you guys truly believe he will allow himself to be hanged? he's too proud to be hanged in public that he'd rather put a bullet through his own brain if you ask me. nonetheless, the news is big. we'll wait and see the outcome sooner or later. second topic: beckham's moving to USA? this can only mean one thing: he has lost it. his sanity i mean. apparently he's not done making mistakes yet. if real madrid wasn't enough, this could be it you know. i hope i won't be seeing him making movies or some reality show anytime soon. "david beckham starring in 'my surreal life - season 10'". LOL. tat's definitely bigger than saddam's suicidal mind. hohoho. last topic: express condoms on sale in south africa. to summarize it: "Using an ordinary condom is a real pain. By the time the condom is on, the mood is halfway out the window." and here's the real deal: "If you're slow, it'll take you three seconds [to put it on]. You can really do it in one." amazing? well, it's an evolution. by the time our cars beat gravity, condoms don't exist anymore. why? coz they will be part of our underpants. so men will be walking around literally wearing a condom all time! LOL. and if tat's not enough, it'll be disposable AND "replaceable" instantly after use. wakakaka. hey, dont laugh now. who knows maybe some japanese geek working 24/7 in some high-end facility lab will invent this shit for real yo. we'll see who's laughing then. LOL. eniweis enough for today guys. if you are interested in reading more about the express condoms, read here. in the mean time, i'm checking out rite now. who knows when i'll be back here again. i'm a busy man these days *pffttttt, yeah rite*. hahaha. take care hommies and have a good one eh! me out now. Cheers.

morning stars and evening sun ...

2006-11-01T02:07:00.000+07:00

today is my bad hair day. well, let me correct that. everyday is a bad hair day! sighs. i've been reluctant/terrified to shave off my head simply cause my head's shape is a bit abnormal, to say the least. wakakakaka. yupe, you didnt misread that last part. and here goes a moment of truth. the back of my skull feels a lil flat, not round, unlike normal heads. thus, it aint a pretty scene when my head is naked. wakakakkakaka. i tried it once before a long time ago and i didnt really like it. confused what to do now. maybe i should just cut off my head. LOL. not a feasible option.

i dun have much to write for now. well, lack of personal time is definitely starting to get into my head. working 7 days a week is not easy. as much as i like doing my part time job, it can be very demanding at times. especially when a friggin long line up is building up at the front door! if there's one thing i should avoid when it comes to work, it must be to stay away from customers. people can be very nasty when they turn impatient. bottom line: dont like dealing with clients. some case applies to my full time routine. i may be stereotyping here but hey, a good portion of the entire consumer group is behaving this way. anyways, here we are again flipping the calendar forward to november. the weather has been somewhat warm around here for the past two days. sunday was crazy tho. viciously gusting winds all across town. one hell of a sunday it was for sure. dammit! i took me quite some time to finally figure out that the clock has been reset an hour back while waiting for the damn bus to come. i was not wearing much clothing as well when a sudden hail of cold icy rain came down upon me 7 in the morning. shit. and the wind was not any more friendly. i could literally feel endless blows of tiny ice crystals hitting my face. simply put: the weather wasnt having any mercy on me that day. a tragic sunday morning indeed. all because one stupid mistake by me. sighs. however i still managed to drag myself to a coffee shop to enjoy a medium cup of hot chocolate. pheeewwwwww. hehehehehe.

i guess i am taking off now. my colleague is already giving me *that* face. apparently he isnt too fond of me blogging while at work. hehehehehehe. hev a good one y'all! me out now. Cheers.

liars and lunatics ...

2006-10-25T00:30:00.000+07:00

the holy festivities of Ramadhan can be considered the most celebrated amongst other religiously divine celebrations especially in my home country. it being one of the largest Muslim nations in the world simply is self-explanatory. after a long full month of vasting, the Muslims nationwide indulge in prayer sessions in mosques and rejoice to celebrate their spiritual victories. and how do they celebrate? by gathering with families and close friends. they forgive one another and in return they ask for forgiveness for the wrong doings they have committed. it's very meaningful and sacred. not to forget of course, what good is a celebration without FOOD? hehehe. splendid presentations of exquisite Ramadhan cuisine will be served on the table just like the Queen's royal dinner. well, maybe not. nevertheless, royal or not, the spirit of the season is here for at least two days. the city aka the workplace should be desolated during this period, deserted from any sort/form of activities besides .. errr, celebrating? *i should probably start using a thesaurus by now. LOL* everybody is back in their home towns with their families, relatives, and friends. the only two things that remain busy are the telecommunication provider and the inter-provincial transportation service. hahahaha. the phones will be ringing alongside the buses, the trains, the planes, and the ferries for a common reason: connecting people. *if you are wondering whether i am paid to write this part of my post by NOKIA, unfortunately i am not! though i must say that the build-up was kinda gooood. LOL* with the tremendous volume of traffic, it eventually brings about an increase in the number of accidents occuring. how unfortunate. so for those who are travelling, please stay safe and sober. both on your way home and back! hihihi. having said all that, i just wanna say that i miss my family very much. i was on the phone with them last nite. although my family doesnt celebrate Ramadhan, they feel spirited to celebrate as well. hahahahha. how kiasu. LOL. it is a custom for my family and our relatives. everybody sleeps over at one home and just enjoy each other's company in spite of the very short period of time we have. i could literally sense everybody's presence yesterday on the phone. laughters, food, and good times. plus this year there's a bonus too. every single one of my close relatives whom i hung out with when i was a kiddo have gathered together! how rare a chance, since we are now living our own lives so to say. school and work basically. different places as well which makes it alot harder for us to meet up like that. sighs. well, i missed it. maybe next time tho. hihihi. and i am sure there'll be one in the future =) and after that, one with my old friends. wooohoooooooo. watch me fly home peeps! wakakaka. alritey then. hev a good one yo. 2007 is only 2 months and a week away! LOL. me out now. Cheers.

is it fate or random circumstance ...

2006-10-17T07:33:00.000+07:00

someone once wrote me: "it should start somewhere, it should start sometime. what better place than here, what better time than now". the following post you are about to read is indeed one of the best scripts ever written in my entire life. no kiddin! LOL. it would be such a waste of creativity and effort if it never gets published. procrastination is a sin. especially when something this gooooodie comes around your corner. wakakakaka. enjoy peeps. Cheers.

Chapter 7: The Colours of Love (Authored by: that guy KheBho)

It is nothing but only normal for two human beings to fall in love for each other. And for so many people, their first encounter with the bittersweet taste of love started as early as when they were still in high school. The story below tells the much-talked-about, the great and the UNIQUELY mind-blowing saga of love that happened right in this school Sri Utama back in the early days, made famous by the pioneer batch of Indonesian students enrolled at the school at that time.

It was funny, romantic, sad, resentful, passionate and in a few occasions, suicidal! Put it in one word, it is simply complicated, why? because there were just too many characters involved!

" B likes C, B confused and told D about it. D got friendly with C and it was only a matter of time before D fell in love with C. D was already going out with F at that time, he also got confused. E and I was D's closest friend, E and I knows everything about D.

E was already with someone called G who was L's ex. L has a friend called M who once questioned L on what is so good about G that make L love G so much . I was also hooked up already with K. One day E broke up with G for some reasons, and not long after, D also called it an end with F for stupid reason. Suprisingly it didn't take long for F to get a new partner, it was L!

Seeing D got so close to C, B probably was angry and/or hopeless at that time. Then came into the picture is A, who then eventually hooked up with B. B was smiling again.

Without D's knowledge, E is having it on with C behind D's back. D found out, both C and E was sorry. The three of them became friends again.

Then came graduation, everyone's leaving and going to different direction. B was "playing" around with H (whom was then an object of affection/lust for many people like X, Y and Z) when A was not around, they called it an end. C and E also didn't quite make it far. Neither I and K.

I for some reasons turned out to be a self-acclaimed seeds planter. I was trying to get it on with just anybody within I's grab. With C, with A and it was to be believed that I was trying to get it on with F also. Only God knows how many people has fallen into I's trap."

and the story continues from year to year...

Some of you readers might questioned the integrity of the story above. It could be a myth, a fable, a fairy tale, a true account or whatever it is you want to believe. But the message that the author is trying to say is... It is only fair for you who have read this chapter to decide for yourself -young reader- whether you are ready to face all the ups and downs and sideways of the many colours of love at such a young high-school age? what will be your story like? how are you going to play your character? is it gonna be the lonely suicidal guy who slashes his skin with a pocket knife everytime he got rejected? the you-should-be-proud-that-I'm-actually-talking-to-you kind of ermm.... whore? or that goofy lovefool who is waiting to be saved in the name of love? But really, the one million dollar question is whether you and your friends can create even a more complicated saga of love in Sri utama with more twists and turns and drama? Please, no actual killing or getting someone pregnant should be involved in the making of your story.

Good luck, you are in a journey now.

It is sad to say that the author of this chapter has limited capability on keeping tracks of how this what-seems-to-be-a-never-ending tale of love continues, simply because "damn" (he said) ... too many characters and its all web-tangled everywhere.

Note: at the time this book is being published, the Author is still single and looking and he can't figured out why. Bless him.

Next Chapter: It's all Politic!
in this chapter you will learn how to abuse the power that is given to you if you are selected to become a class monitor or school prefect.

the last laughter ...

2006-10-13T00:49:00.000+07:00

let's write about something lite now. i had enough of the why-life-is-so-hard-on-me theme tat's been eating me away and misguiding y'all readers into thinking tat i am suicidal or something like that. LOL. if this is true, then i am not. no worries peeps; i can be anything but suicidal. wakakakakaka. we live only once, so why not have it all in this one? woooohoooooo. god knows when the next one comes around - if ever. hahahaha. last tuesday i went to hit the cinema. it's all day matinee so them tickets are only selling for 4 bucks. sweeett eh? well, that depends. and why? because it wouldnt be well if you happened to sit in the wrong theater, watching the wrong flick. HAH! tat's rite, tat's rite. crack up all you want now! coz god knows when i will ever be tat reckless again. LOL.

i went to the ticket booth and said "one for The Guardian please". she didnt say anything so i paid the cash and strolled straight into the cinema. apparently it was kinda full. the good rows at the rear were almost all seated already. i remembered i was wondering what's going on here for a sec. The Guardian has been showing for the third week now and yet still there are so many people. i thought the whole shit made sense coz today is cheapo day. so what the heck. found myself a really good spot in the center of one of the best rows at the back. it was just perfect. waited for about 10 minutes and the feature presentation began. the narrator's voice sounded strangely very familiar and i had a pretty good idea of his identity. i thought "what the hell?!?! this is old Jack Nicholson. he is not in this movie, is he?" i blotted out that thought as quick as i've gotten it. "no way man. no way" i confided myself. a few more scenes and that's it. the title materialized itself on the screen before my very eyes. The Departed. DANG!?#$%^&*-+!?#$%^&*. i was literally speechless and yet finding it was all very amusing. i ran my hand in my jacket's right pocket and grabbed the pass. it says: Cinema 1 - The Departed in big, bold letters. HAHAHAHAHAHA. very funny i thought. how can this happen? i dunno myself. i wanted to get out but as i said it was a full house - it's the premiere of The Departed this week - plus i was sitting right in the center. so what the hell. i sat there for the rest of the show. fortunately i haven't seen the english version of this movie (it's based on the infamous HongKong's Infernal Affairs) and i enjoyed it. it was a good watch for sure. hihihi. so there you go mates. i dont even have to try to be funny and yet the joke still finds me. wakakakakkaa. and for the last part, check this out! apparently even super heroes make jokes! LOL. enjoy peeps. Cheers.

it's too much to hope for ...

2006-10-09T20:44:00.000+07:00

It's too much to hope for a life without pain,
It's wrong to expect a life without pain,
For pain is our body's defense.
No matter how much we dislike it,
And nobody likes pain,
Pain is important,
And,
For pain we should be grateful!
How else would we know,
To move our hand from the fire?
Our finger from the blade?
Our foot from the thorn?
So pain is important,
And for pain we should be grateful!
Yet,
There's a type of pain that serves no purpose,
That's chronic pain,
It's that elite band of pain that's not for defense.
It's an attacking force.
An attacker from within
A destroyer of personal happiness
An aggressive assailant on personal ability
A ceaseless invader of personal peace
And,
A continuous harassment to life!
Chronic pain is the hardest hurdle for the mind to jump.
Sometimes it is almost impossible to jump,
Yet, we must keep trying,
And trying,
And trying.
Because if we don't it will destroy.
And,
From this battle will come some good,
The satisfaction of overcomig pain.
The achievement of happiness and peace, of life in spite of it.
This is quite an achievement,
An achievement very special, very personal,
A feeling of strength
Of inner strength
Which has to be experienced to be understood.
So, we all have to accept pain,
Even sometimes destructive pain.
For it is part of the scheme of things,
And the mind can manage it,
And the mind will become stronger for the practice.

-- Jonathan Wilson-Fuller (About)

"The reason for including this poem, with the kind permission of its author, is that it was written when Jonathan was only nine years old!" -- quoted from Who Ordered This Truckload of Dung by Ajahn Brahm, pg. 110/111.

in times of despair, all my troubles - in a funny way (more than anything else) - always brings me back to this poem, which i read a few months ago. somewhat, somehow it eases my heart and releases me from the burden. it is true yet ironic in a way. a life without pain is indeed too much to hope for ....

if we cannot see ...

2006-10-03T07:27:00.000+07:00

You were born with a heart that can never be filled
And a head like snow that can never be still
There are streets paved with gold that shine so bright
But you force yourself to look away
If we can’t see now we might never see
We only kill ourselves more slowly
If you can’t find love then you will finally see
How we kill ourselves slowly
The words that fall from your mouth
They crystallize and break on the ground
And everything you want you don’t have
But you force yourself to look away
If we can’t see now we might never see
We only kill ourselves more slowly
If you can’t find love than you will finally see
How we kill ourselves … slowly
If you can’t find love
Than you can’t find me
If you close your eyes
Than you will finally see
That you’re already here with me ..........

sonnet of the broken man ...

2006-09-29T02:25:00.000+07:00

i thought i was the only one who is running thin on my sanity but i was wrong. hahaha. i have been pretty depressed for the past week or so. really depressed; i should affirm. i realized that i have buried so much hatred and resentment within myself that i think it kinda overloads on me. i was angry with myself and i literally went mad to a point where i even yelled at myself. sounds dramatic and i kid you not. hahahahha. the problem spurs not from my mere pathetic job environment - i tried to make peace with this shit already. the most frustrating phase, however, is being able to come to terms with it myself because i really dont want to care about the least bit of it. nevertheless as many times as i tried to forget about my troubled heart, i cannot stop feeling sorry for myself being kicked/tossed around by my boss many many more times. this is wrong man! he is wrong! everytime i stood my ground, i always come out as the "stupid" one with all the crap. the only consolation i get is that this shit happens to everyone in my office space. hahahaha. we are all in the boat more or less. coming to work feels like entering the Seaworld. you get a potential winning ticket at the entrance and you waited for them to call your number as the door prize winner. the difference, alas, lies in the rewards. instead of the usual surprise, you get a complete package of shitload and a full workday to spend in hell. the fun still, however, lies in not knowing whether you are the *lucky winner* of the day. believe me, there's plenty to go around for everybody. hahahaha. sounds ironic and i kid you not. again! LOL. these so-called "boss" people seriously have issues man. and i realized that no matter how wrong they are, they can always twist things around and make you the real fool. what's worse is they never acknowledge the fact that they are inside the guilty zone most of the time. so what i'm saying is even if they do admit, they will try - and they can very easily - to get you back by any means! no kidding. sighs. i guess the message here is clear then: be grateful if you have a super good boss! and please reflect/correct yourself if you are this kind of boss!

tat was yesterday. today - believe it or not - i've gotten worse. the end of september is nearing and this means it's time to spend the money. not shopping, but more like paying rents, bills, and whatnot. sighs. u know what? things would have been better and i would be smiling right now if only my cheques were cleared by the bank. notice the pluralization applied there. i'm totally losing myself. i feel like killing whatever 'good' that remains in me and waltz into that room to confront this son of a gun. i did that. and as far as i can remember, it didnt go well. i feel really sorry for myself. sorry that things didnt work out for me. sorry that my life is a mess. sorry that i am fool. a fool who believes that good things happen to 'good' people. how naive. yet whatever happens, i will still believe i am a good person. simply because i have a good reason.

liebe ...

2006-09-25T06:07:00.000+07:00

for all i know, i've got everything to lose ...
so let this go, let me go
-- hanging on for hope

magical metamorphosis ...

2006-09-16T08:55:00.000+07:00

kang, aya durex?

2006-09-08T02:12:00.000+07:00

In my language, the word 'Jomblo' describes a male/female who is single (not-in-a-relationship). The movie to which i am about to intro you fine lads basically revolves around this genre. Titled "Jomblo", this movie tells about the story of a quartet of teenage boys and their pursuit of winning the up-hill battle against the fierce reality of love. Yes, love again it is. I personally like the main character whose name is Agus. He's helplessly funny aka kocak with his sweet Sunda-nese accent and on top of that, he's loyal to his friends as well. Perhaps the fact that I can relate very easily to the truth spoken through this movie makes it an enjoyable flick to watch. Now, i dun wanna spill all the good stuff here and instead, i recommend y'all indon peeps out there to check it out. It's a must-see! Definitely worth every millisecond of your time GUARANTEED! Hahahhahaa. Alrite, let me make things even merrier for those residing abroad aka not-in-indon like myself. You can use streaming to see this movie at YouTube.com and how sweet is this? It's damn friggin' sweeeeeet. Hahahahhaha. Shenks a bunch to whoever put this shit up there. Awesome job man! Hihihi. The full movie is divided into a total of 13 short clips, each running for about 10 minutes of film. With a high-speed internet connection, you should be okay. Bho, dun even think about this! Just get the VCD/DVD i suggest! LOL. Let me get things started over here by installing the last clip right here right now as a teaser. There lies a very good message within this clip, so keep your eyes wide and your ears even wider. Hahahaha. And now, it's time to do yourself a favour mate. Get those popcorns popping and smear that butter good! It's Jomblo time! Hope you enjoy it as much as I do. Me out now. Cheers.

P.S. A couple of things to mention:
1. Having problems looking for the movie? Simply click here.

2. Once you've seen the movie, please let me know your thoughts eh. Hihihihi.

3. Please help me find the song 'Dewi Malamku'! Asik abizzz euyyy.

the beautiful let down ...

2006-09-03T06:07:00.000+07:00

"Name gue Imam" he said when i first met him. At that time, i was still a guitar newbie. I can still remember the both of us sitting in one of the classroom in high school, listening to him strumming his guitar. He had a good one btw. Hihihi. Sure enough, it didn't take long for him to set up a band. I was excited as I was part of it alright. Hehehehe. I must say this was one of the greatest gifts of my life thus far. Mbut: vox/guitar; Uban: lead guitar; Pat2: our little drummer boy *he grew a'ite. LOL*; Kupeng: bass guitar; Me: guitar. I think we called ourselves a few names - Supernova, Coverspace (to name a few). I can safely say that loads of credits must be given to Mbut. He was the major vein of our musical body. There were times when we turned frustrated during practice, and he would be totally pissed off. Not so much of a leader eh? Hahahaha. But looking back, he really needed a break. Nonetheless, he did build our little empire back in Utama. All the gigs, all the parties, all the frustration, all the practice, all the memories.

It's over now. It's been over for a few years. Uban was a senior and so he had to go first. The rest of us, except for Pat2, were in the same year and shared the same classroom. During college, we still played together although we did go our separate ways - Mbut/Uban: Sunway, Kupeng: Inti Nilai, Me: Taylor's Subang, Pat2: Remains in high school. We had a couple of gigs here and there, but it all must come to an end when I had to leave for Canada. The rest stayed behind.

I've been waiting eagerly for so long to write this post, which I would like to share with the rest of the gang here. Hihihi. The following is a list of short highlights of our band during the time when it still existed. It was all sweet sweet sweet melodies that we played, and so were the memories.

1. We played our first gig *at least a successful one* during one of the BBQ dinner gatherings organized by the boarding house of Utama. I think it was by the poolside if I am right. We played "Dan" and "Creep" in acoustics. And since then, our "career" took off. Yeah!

2. There was this one incident when i almost had a panic attack. Actually, i did. We were already standing in front of the crowd. This was, by the way, held at one of those annual school events. We were in one of those big theater halls and all eyes were on us. Thanks to the spotlight. I picked up my guitar and had it strapped around my body. Everybody else was busy with their own instruments. I strummed my guitar and guess what? It was out of tune. Apparently the previous band before us pulled some cheap dirty tricks on us. I had no idea how to tune a guitar back then *i still struggle these days, believe me* and time was running out. Nevertheless, we managed to contain the situation alright. I couldn't remember exactly what happened but my best recollection is that there was another guitar around and I picked that one up. Pheeeewwwwww. Hahahaha. Back on track. We played "Big Me" and "Live Forever" @ the gig.

3. One of the best gigs i had was the one when we played "Pelukis Malam" unplugged. We were a three-piece set - Mbut: vox/guitar, Kupeng: bass, Me: guitar. I wish i had that gig on video. Dammit! Sighs. It was just that good to me. The crowd was into it especially when Kupeng pulled off this clapping stunt, asking them to clap along. Oh my God!!! He really did it man. Hahahaha. Everybody was definitely enjoying that sweet song.

4. The next three will personally involve Mbut himself. We played "J.A.P (Jadikanlah Aku Pacarmu)" by SO7 at one of the gigs at school. At that time, he was chasing after his love interest, bubble. P.S. I hope u don't me spilling the A-to-Z here girl! ^^

5. Now this one was romantic. Pat2, Andrew, and me were in the school studio messing around with the instruments. Trust me, we didn't plan this shit! And that's the beauty. We saw her walking up to him from the window and he suddenly pulled out this banquet of flowers out of this tree beside him. Ehem ehem ehem. Something's going on here. And so we decided to play "Kita" from within to spur the romance in the air. Hahahhahahaa.

6. The last romantic act involving the band was the one at Uban's graduation ceremony. I seriously hope this was the right event. "Yellow" was the song and yellow was the flower. It was yellow right? Blur recollections. She walked up to him and she handed him the flower. Wooohoooooo. When I saw that, I was like "What the hell? Did we have this during practice? I don't think so". Hahahaha. But it was cool yo. Btw the gig was a great success too.

7. Speaking of success, we had to taste some bad ones too. Among them, it's the one at our high school graduation ceremony. We didn't even finish our gig that night. The principal had to stop us in front of all the audience. What a prick! It was a total embarassment. Mbut lost his temper and walked off the stage. It was a bad night for the band.

8. Last but not least, our only achievement of the era was winning the battle of the bands at Inti Nilai. It wasn't the best we had, I personally think, but we still won. Hahahahha. In fact, we had some problems during the gig. Right after the performance, Kebho, who at that time was among the audience, told us that the drums were silent the whole time. The mic on the drums were apparently dead. Disastrous, we thought. And awestruck, we were when the host announced the winner. It was bloody f***ing us! Hahahahhaa. We jolted in joy as Mbut went on stage to receive the trophy. I have no idea where'd it end up now. Crap! We spent the night in one of those motels and I left the pack early morning even before they could open their eyes. It certainly felt good. Hihihi.

Well, there you go peeps. I hope you enjoyed that as much as I do. My band will always be a treasure of my life. I still wish at times that I am still in one right here right now. But circumstances change and I couldn't follow my dreams for some reasons. Maybe I'll do a solo later. Hahahahhahahhaa. Anyways this post is solely dedicated to the ex-cons of Coverspace. Thanks for all the memories guys! In addition, I would like to celebrate the debut album of Lightcraft, The Modern Seasons! Congratz Mbut, Pat2, and crew! Cheers to the many many many beautiful beginnings yet to come. Keep the passion alive y'all! Btw, this song was where it all began so let's hear it one more time. Hev a great one man!

Me out now. Cheers

trails of lumbini garden ...

2006-09-01T07:43:00.000+07:00

Grant yourself a moment of peace,
and you will understand
how foolishly you have scurried about.
Learn to be silent,
and you will notice that
you have talked too much.
Be kind,
and you will realize that
your judgment of others was too severe.

-- Ancient Chinese Proverb (quoted from Who Ordered This Truckload of Dung?)

day 01 : ashore

2006-08-26T08:20:00.000+07:00

-- another unexpected encounter, this time it's a poochie ^^ --

-- i took this shot while we were driving towards the lion's head --

-- welcome to the lion's head .. no beach this time around --

-- was expecting something more honestly .. but all we get is the distant lighthouse --

-- washed ashore --

-- our ancient clocks and watches: the sundial --

-- st. margaret's chapel : one of the oldest chapel still standing --

-- an angle different .. crap! this shot is blur --

wet under the tokyo rain ...

2006-08-24T03:44:00.000+07:00

~ Congratulations to Paris Hilton for being crowned as the most overrated star in Hollywood! wooohoooo .. i mean c'mon, tat's a no brainer man! hahahahahhaa .. this actually raises the question for myself: Would i like to be a star? .. hmmm, honestly i dont think i can manage .. all the huss huss and the hoohaas will definitely fry my braincells dead .. waakkakakakakakaa .. on the contrary, i wouldnt mind having endless cashflows into my bank account *who doesn't rite?*.. LOL ... but i think i'll pass .. i'd rather be a friend of a superstar ... yeeehaaaaaaaaaaa .. tat would be the best man .. wakakakkakakakakkaa .. eniweis enuf of this bull .. hihihi .. Havent heard from some of buddies since like .... a few months ago .. Yo Bho, where the heck are you bro? come out come out wherever you are dude .. give me something, anything k .. on the same note, da pooch has been extremely busy with his new job ... sighs .. i told ya: dont let the work kills you man! tek it izzi lah like me ... hahahahahahaa .. update ur blog too please .. btw anyone who has some info bout these two dudes, please fill me in eh! appreciate it guys .. Oh yeah, Rendy n I went to see this new flick: Step Up .. i think it's good yo .. the dancing is hot and so is the lead actress .. wakakakkakakakaka .. the story line is same old same old and so is the dead black dude *see it urself for more insights* .. eniweis speaking of dancing, the latest season of So You Think You Can Dance has ended last week ... i still wish Travis came out the winner of the competition but naaahhh, it was Benji, the West-coast swing-man ... sighs .. not to take away any credits from neither of them, they both deserve to be up there in the end .. it's my first time following this reality show and i think there's plenty more to come .. ahhahahahahhaa .. fall is here and it's time for new season series of everything on TV .. sweeeeeeeet ... gotta stock up my snacks bar real soon .. hihihihihi ... and finally, i had just received an email from an old friend and she's asking me when i will be back to indon ... in fact another buddy asked me the very same question recently as well .. so i told her not to get bored with my answer coz it's stil gonna be the same one .. i have to stay here at least until end of this year and i am going nowhere ... i miss home but tat's gotta wait .. just like the rest of me ... "i think it's better for me to not want anything at all. let things be what they are and go with the flow. this way i get what i see and tat's fine with me" .. peace out n me out now ~ cheers

conquering sauble land : the beach

2006-08-19T23:03:00.000+07:00

-- welcome to the sauble beach --

-- the windsor-ites, the waterloo-nies, and the toronto-ians --
(from left: hadi, sienny, andre, ang, and suan)

-- the beach under a clear sky .. any resemblence between the clouds and the tides? --

-- ko awi & ci herli : along the coastal line --

-- staring at the sun .. coooool --

-- another addition to my abandoned-sand-castle album .. LOL --

-- simply majestic .. hihihi --

-- a shadow of doubt? i dun think so .. more like a reflection of faith --

-- take me with you ... if only --

-- unexpectedly strolled into this shooting set of a hindi flick: kuch kuch hadi hai .. sweeeet--

-- i like this picture .. btw see tat T lying on the sand? hihi --

conquering sauble land : the falls

2006-08-19T21:49:00.000+07:00

-- welcome to the sauble falls --

-- camming with andre and geraldo --

-- rushing water on the rocks under a clear sky --

-- paparazzo mission: jen & vince making out by the falls .. oh crap!--

-- the sunflower gals: posing by the falls .. member count: 3 --

-- recruiting more members .. apparently this dude's lost from his pack --

-- when two become one: a view from the bridge --

-- and tat's it from the sauble land .. til next time, sayonara --

andai dia ...

2006-08-19T00:40:00.000+07:00

~ 6:40AM "Teet Teet .. Teet Teet .. Teet Teet" alaram hp gw berbunyi .. mata masih sepet, badan pegel2, ranjang masih hangat, selimutpun nggak rela ditinggalin gw .. andai dia bisa bicara, gw rasa dia pasti nge-rengek2 dech suruh gw balik tidur .. hahhahhahaa .. Di depan kasur, si kipas angin masih setia berputar sejak tadi malam .. dia emank sobat sejati gw man .. andai dia bs bicara, gw rasa dia pasti tersenyum dan menyapa "Selamat pagi dude! Siap untuk memburu hari ini?" .. hihihi .. Suasana kamar gw nyaman dech pokoke .. sunyi tanpa suara, redup tanpa cahaya .. Sang mataharipun baru muncul di belahan dunia di mana gw berada .. dan seiring pagi menua, pancaran sinarnya sedikit demi sedikit masuk lewat jendela mungil ke sudut kamar gw, menerangi semua isinya .. Jam dinding menunjukkan pukul 6:45AM .. andai dia bs bicara, gw yakin pasti pandangannya melotot tertuju ke gw sambil berkata: "Oi oi oi, sudah waktunya mandi man. Entar telat lho!" .. hahahahaa .. Gw lipat selimut dan gw tata rapi ranjang gw, yg isinya cuman bantal+sarung dan yah si selimut .. LOL .. Akibat gw males, kasur gw terpaksa telanjang deh ... hahahahhaa .. andai dia bisa bicara, pasti deh dia ngomel2 gara2 soal kelalaian gw ini .. Lah, abis repot man .. apalagi soalnya nyucinya .. gw kan dibatesin jatah cuciannya .. eh, maksud gw jatah pake mesin pengeringnya .. kalo gw cuci bedcover + seprei, bisa2 gw yg telanjang dech minggu depannya .. hahahahahahhaa .. Handuk gw ambil dan juga celana dalem, baju dalem, sikat gigi, cukuran dkk ... gw buka pintu kamar dan langsung kutuju kamar mandi sebelum gw masuk angin gara2 kedinginan .. Rendy, tetangga gw, sepertinya masih lelap dalam mimpinya .. yg, btw, selalu aneh bin ajaib isinya .. wakakkakakakka .. Gw letakkan semua peralatan mandi dan untuk sesaat gw pandangin tuh kaca .. Seperti biasa, kutatapi sosok di dalamnya .. hampir tiap hari dia tersenyum lho! yah mau gk mau, gw senyum balik deh .. andai dia bisa bicara, pasti dia menyapa: "Masih ngantuk? Kok situ keliatannya loyo? Kurang tidur? Semangat donk!" ... Nah, kalo uda begini nih, kita bisa saling bertukar tawa man .. bayangin aja, penghuni yg laen masih tenggelam dalam tidur mereka masing2, sedangkan ini dua orang gila udah ketawa pagi2 buta ... hahahahhahahhaha .. Untung gw dikejar waktu, kalo nggak, bisa lama gw di dalem sana .. LOL .. 20 menit kemudian, gw keluar dari kamar mandi dengan handuk terikat sekeliling pinggang ... Kadang sambil lari2 lagi ... hahahahaha .. hanya buat ngeliat si jam dinding .. dan ternyata gw masih awal .. phewww .. andai dia bisa bicara, dia pasti udah terbahak2 ngeliat gw yg terbirit2 sendiri .. hihihii .. karena masih ada waktu, asikk bisa santei deh .. pake celana kerja, dan nggak lupa deodoran donk .. hehehhee .. ketek kiri, ketek kanan ... trus gw cium deh .. wangi lhooo .. wakakkakakaa .. berikutnya giliran si kemeja .. gw cium jg man ... testing testing man .. kalo uda B-A-U, gw tuker deh .. hihihi .. kalo belom begitu bau, errrr .. hajar aja deh .. kan masih ada si penolong sejati: parfum ... wakakakkakakakkaa .. tp kali ini beda triknya ^^ .. semprot kiri, semprot kanan, semprot depan ... cium cium .. semprot kiri lagi, semprot kanan lagi .. ahahahhahahahhaa ... nggak ketinggalan kaos kaki kiri dan dan kanan .. hihihi .. akhirnya gw siap menyongsong hari yg baru aja dimulai! berikutnya ada 2 pilihan: nonton tv ato maen gitar .. biasanya seh dua2nya yah .. gk mau rugi man .. LOL .. yg pasti cuaca dan kartun dicek dulu .. hihihihii .. begitu jam dinding tiba pada pukul 7:40AM, itu tandanya untuk gw berangkat .. tv gw matiin, gitar gw taruh balik .. dan sebelom gw cabut, gw ucapin selamat tinggal dulu ma sobat2 di kamar .. hahahahaha .. yah jelas dalam hati atuh .. kalo ngomong beneran, bisa2 gw gila muda lagi .. LOL .. gw kunci pintu kamar dan naik ke atas .. kalo ada bekal, gw ambil bekal .. bekal gw tuh paling simpel deh dari yg simpel .. roti 3 lapis tok! .. hahahhahahhaa ... setelah itu, pake sepatu, ngaca dulu, dan baru gw buka pintu rumah .. Suasana pagi emank paling nikmat deh .. embun2 pagi berkilauan seperti menari di atas dedaunan, burung2 berkicau di dahan pohon seperti melantunkan sebuah simfoni, sinar matahari mulai terasa menghangat, dan udara segar gw hirup dalem2 .. Sambil menikmati semua ini, gw berkata: "Thank you for today" dan gw lanjutin langkah gw ~ cheers

P.S. Check out this new indie band from my hometown, Jakarta! This tune is grezz abizzz pokoke! Many shenks to Kebho.

between infinity and me ...

2006-08-13T20:10:00.000+07:00

~ Phewwww .. tats how i begin this post ... body's aching like shit, mind's screwed with all kinds of empty unchained thoughts ... and the fact that tomorrow mr.monday will come back knocking on my door just disturbs me like nothing else can ... sighs .. this week was a total torment physically *mental agony has always been a daily diet for me* ... coming back from my recent trip to the Bruce Peninsula late sunday nite, i was literally exhausted yet satisfied ... hihihi .. we did soooo much walking and hiking across the dense woods tat i felt like my legs were falling off .. as soon as i hit the bed, i know i was home .. wakakkakaka .. there's no better feeling than that i can say, especially that nite .. to me, one of the downside of travelling is not having to bring ur own bed around .. honestly i dont feel comfortable sleeping on a *recycled* bed ... hahahaha .. but it's all good peeps .. ^^ ... anyways my buddy aka my d-camera *LOL* and i had a splendid time during the entire trip from start to end .. together we managed to shoot about 360 pictures .... yeah yeah yeah .. i mean i cant waste the opportunity to sharpen my kindergarten photography skills, can i? .. wakakkakaka .. the problem now is archiving these pictures ... sighs .. it's a pain in the arse .. totalllyyyyy .... i just cant commit my mind to doing it .. plus i dont have a laptop to touch up these pixies at my own free time ... ARGHHHH!!!!! .. seriously people should start thinking about having a picture resizing feature in digital cameras .. my pictures are like 1500-something pixels by 1100-something pixels in dimension .. crap .. i cant even preview them properly on screen .. sighs .. anyways i've got to spare some time these days just to resize these photos coz some people are waiting impatiently for 'em .. ^^ ... bare wif me guys! ... they'll be right out soon ... LOL ... i just hope they wont be disappointed wif the results .. i bet they will .. so please dont get your hopes up k peeps .. hihihihi ... i am an amateur a'ite ... lots to pick up and a lot more mistakes to make .. wakakkakakakaka .. btw i dont think i am going to talk about my trip in depth .. i guess i'll let my friends *da pictures* paint the thousand-word stories ... hihihihi ... save me the hassle .. overall it was a blast *how many times have i mentioned it? count yourself* .. to me personally, it was more of a spiritual journey more than anything else .. i get to sit down alone by myself at times and just let go of everything ... i am learning to be silent btw .. hihihihi .. at the same time, i also get a chance to observe the things that i have done and how my life has changed as an aftermath of this string of events ... i call it a self-introspection therapy .. wakkakakakaa .. obviously wat has happened cannot be undone ... the only question that remains is how to fix the future ... but then again, do we know the future? nope we dont .. so i have come to a conclusion that we shouldnt be afraid of the future ... i like to let things fall in places on its own ... it's just natural like those scenic places i set foot on ... i think about so many things while on the trip .. from friendship, family, love, relationship to personal stuff .. what mistakes did i do and what have i done to make things right ... one of the best spiritual experience has got to be the one at the Singing Sand ... i can remember i was floating on the surface of the water alone with no one around me ... i didnt know how far i was from the beach and i didnt care ... the sun was warm, the wind was gentle, the horizon was as far as your eyes can see like always .. the lake was glistening where the sunlight hits the cool water like diamonds scattered in front of you .. it was simply majestic ... and there i was in the middle of it all ... enjoying my own company .. i closed my eyes and offered a prayer at heart to nature, the almighty .. i feel so blessed for everything that i have tho i dont have much ... i simply feel full .. and it feels awesome .. ^^ ... coz when u feel full, u feel light ... it's like everything just goes free ... hehehehe .. *i am smiling again even when i am writing this* ... i've been cured ... after a moment, i went swimming back to shore .. still full .... wakakakkakaa .. anyways i just wanted to share this with you guys ... was supposed to post some pix along but .. i think i've got to run now .. gonna check out this Greek food festival .. hopefully it'll be fun .. ^^ .. hihihi .. so the pix have to wait again .. sighs .. sorry guys ... ok then .. hev a good sunday hommies ... me out now ~ cheers

take me out tonite ...

2006-08-05T07:35:00.000+07:00

~ Yellooww people .. it's me back again .. but this time just for a short run .. hihihi .. work was full of unprecedented collitions of stressful people today .. wakakakkaa .. watever tat means .. LOL .. yell here, yell there .. everyone was definitely breaking out a'ite ... but hey, today is TGIF-day .. Thank-God-It's-Friday day .. woooohoooooooo .. and and and it's the long weekend i've been waiting for .. yeah yeah yeah .. so yeah, bye bye blue monday .. see ya in 2 weeks .. ^^ .. btw i know i've mentioned this briefly before but i am so friggin' psyched tat i have to say this again ... I AM GOING AWAY THIS WEEKEND .. wakakkakakakkakaka .. the last time i went on a trip was like last summer .. and boy, i am soooooo glad tat i get this chance one more time ... hihihi .. i hope the weather is on our side this time around tho .. but anyways i think it's gonna be a blast for sure .. no matter wat happens .. hihihihi .. alritey then .. i think i have some packing to attend to .. ^^ .. u guys hev a good one too eh .. n pooch, will make sure to check out ur *premiere* when i get back safely .. wakakakkaka .. adios amigos ... me out now ~ cheers

being me, the foolish me

2006-08-02T00:52:00.000+07:00

~ Complications .. tat's what we are made of .. Had another tough time getting to bed last nite ... again .. sighs .. yesterday was okay ... and today is not any better, if not worse .. here comes the cycle one more time .. hahahahhahaha .. and i am not complaining .. just hung up from a phone conversation with my boss .. well, not exactly a conversation to tell u the truth ... hihihi .. it was more like an *anger-management* theraphy session for him .. LOL .. he's on his way to meeting a potential customer and i am guessing he needs some directions to get there .. he rang the office and asked for me .. somehow i knew this was going to get ugly .. hopelessly i picked up the handle and we began conversing .. "Can you pull up this site on your browser, go to their contact us page, and give me their phone number?" he questioned .. "Sure", i replied bravely .. tik tok tik tok .. "Errr .. it's asking me for authentication to enter the site", i went on .. "What?!? NO! NO! NO! ... *beep beep beep* .. and more *beep beep beep* .. Ask whoever did work on this site: Jason and Sam" he yelled aggravatingly at my poor left ear .. sighs .. i went to those guys but no one seemed to have the slightest clue to wat's going on .. everybody was like "i dont know man" .. and i stupidly answered to my boss, "No one did any work on this site" .. i know i am digging a grave spot for myself by now .. "OH F*** OFF! ..", again he came at me .. i was like "wat the hell?!!?! why is he screaming his lungs out at me yo?!?!" ... bad day bad day bad day .. however i didnt retaliate coz i'll only play fire with fire, which puts no end to the problem at hand .. i simply listened ... knowing tat he's going to stop eventually and he did .. once he did, we finally managed to find that bloody phone number and everyone's happy .. hahahahahaaha .. people deserve to get a break from time to time .. and more importantly we gotta give ourselves a break ... just cut loose and let it out ... hihihi .. btw once i hung up, only then somebody stepped up to the plate ... how often does this happen in my office? all the time .. wakakakkaa .. and i dont blame them .. it's just us being complicated .. hev a good one mates .. me out now ~ cheers

perfect imperfection ...

2006-07-29T06:55:00.000+07:00

~ Here you go peeps .. an insight into my recent escapade to the beach ... hihihihi .. a quick shoutout to the Mel: wat cha think dude? am i ready yet to take u on a photography challenge? i say bring it on man ... LOL .. and remember, there'll be plenty more to come .. wakakakakkaa .. enjoy eh .. hev a good one ... me out now ~ cheers

~ if life has a pattern, i guess it'll resemble something like this ~

~ how do i get there without getting myself wet .... ??? ~

~ a closer look at the beach: where the water meets the land ~

~ darn it! i totally forgot wat's the name of this beach ... $%&* ~

~ i still forgot .. sighs .. btw tat guy is definitely invading the privacy of those geese ~

~ i must say i am very delighted with the result of this pixie .. tat's me being an artsie LOL ~

~ these days parents can be very careless .. sighs ~

~ learn to live life like that floating bottle ... hihihi ~

~ apparently they are not the only one ... blame da advertising dept ~

~ wat a beautiful world we live in .. ^^ ~

~ where does the water meet the sky, i wonder ... ~

~ an abandoned castle .. shall we? ~

~ some *healthy* supper to close the nite .. woohooo ~

beneath a square moon ...

2006-07-26T21:55:00.000+07:00

~ Yes, it's monday .. *PPFFTTTTTT...!!!* the day all we employees do not look forward to .. well, this may be a wrong generalization but at least, it certainly applies to me .. sighs .. but on the other hand, i am glad that i still have a job to drag my arse to each and every morning ... ^^ .. hihihi .. Last nite, i finally had some excellent slumber time ... wakakakakakakaa ... i am pretty sure i almost slept the whole straight 10 hours .. went to bed at 9 and the rest of my nite was history ... LOL .. however despite the excessive sleeping i had, my body was still aching and my head was a lil dizzy when i got off bed in the morning .. i guess there's no such thing as enough when it comes to sleeping .. or perhaps i just had too much .. LOL .. apparently i was wasted from all the crazy, fun-packed walking i've been doing these past weekends .. but it was definitely so worth it .. woohoooooo *end of monday's write-up* ~

~ Today is wednesday, which means tat there are 2 more days til friday .. well, more like 3 but wat the heck .. i say we stick on the positive side of the street, shall we? hihihi .. first off, i would like to congratulate Rendy for landing his first official job yesterday .. keep up the hard work dude n u'll be fine man .. hehehe .. n dun forget the durian party u promised a'ite .. yihhaaaaaa .. ^^ .. moving on now .. got an email from Quenton back in KL .. i am glad tat he still managed to reply my email given his hectic conditions over there .. so shenks man *if u r reading this* .. i sincerely hope tat everything will start to settle down in the near future for ya .. n have no worries .. things are always like tat when u begin a new start on a new land .. be patient k hommie .. hehehhee .. u'll be just fine .. n please get well soon .. i cant wait for ur version of the oyster tragedy .. wakakkakakaka .. tell me all about it when u can find the time a'ite .. hihihihii ~

~ Into the third day of the work week n my boss is not around to grab me by the neck .. HALLELUJAH!! wakakakaka .. i feel like writing since monday but couldnt finish it up tat's why tat piece of blurb is hanging up there .. LOL .. i tot why waste my creativity .. might as well stick it on .. hehehehehe .. FYI, i havent lost my mind yet peeps .. well, almost but nahhh .. hihihihihi .. oh yeah, Kebho replied my email too .. i was like "IS THIS SHIT FOR REAL?!?!?!" ... coz i know emails are dead to him .. aint this rite brudder? wakakakaka .. i dunno bout y'all but i like emails .. to me, exchanging emails wif long-distance old friends is cool .. hohohoho .. plus it is inexpensive .. *tat's rite .. i am guilty of being such a cheapo* .. LOL .. eniweis he is still him in the many unique ways tat he is .. why? bcoz he'll always be merry no matter what .. situations can be like shit but inside he is a free man .. keep it tat way bro, will ya? .. ^^ .. he also managed to sneak it some words of wisdom for me in his email .. he wrote: "... work can be either a full of shite or lots of fun.... but hey, sometimes we can still have fun playin with shits ..." .. waakakakkakaa .. shenks for tat man .. so in exchange, i will put on this record especially for ya .. check it out n i bet those notoriously infamous pretty lips will start pulling up ur face .. wakakkakakakakkaa .. tell me if i am wrong .. n if, if, if tat doesnt do it, try this .. close ur eyes and lose urself in timeless spaces back to those boarding school days .. see urself strumming tat poor guitar, playing this song while singing ur lungs out to the chorus .. LOL .. i can still remember it bro .. wakakakakakaka .. i wish i had my cam back then .. it'll be priceless, simply pricelesss ... just like our friendship .. in fact, all of my friendships .. hihihihihi .. aighhh, what the heck .. this song goes out to u all then .. wakakakkakaka .. enjoy k .. a'ite then .. i guess i better get something done here before HE comes back n ... fill in the rest urself peeps .. LOL .. tekker n hev a great one .. me out now ~ cheers

from canton with love .. LOL

2006-07-20T02:15:00.000+07:00

~ Been anxious about composing my next posting but had troubles finding my own topics lately .. and here i am sitting on my office seat, staring into the monitor screen (like always), and reading an email from - let's just say - an old friend of mine .. wakakakakkaa .. as soon as tat msn mail alert came on, i was excited ... wooohooooo .. Being the curious george that i am, i was looking forward to his latest life updates and so i decided to send him a friendly email this morning .. it's been a while since we wrote each other .. and i tot he was busy with the job hunting ... surprisingly, he is NOT ... LOL .. anyways, he is doing pretty good down there in his colonies .. wakakkakakaka .. as usual, he always starts his emails with something, anything, that is soo hilarious .. i couldnt help but burst out laughing right in the middle of the office among my colleagues ... Ooopssss .. and those freaked-out/confused faces converge toward the center of the commotion, that is, me .. wakakakakkaa .. oh gosh, wat an afternoon .. hihihi .. all shenks to the joker for his stress-free email .. LOL .. i miss him tho .. he can be annoying at times .. but hey, we all can be a pretty good pain in the ass from time to time .. wakakakaa .. eniweis, good luck with ur "accidental mission" mate .. let me know the outcome k .. LOL ~

~ When i come to think of it again, maybe i should have known today is going to be somewhat wacky and different .. as per this morning, i yet again ran into another shocking incident in - guess what - the TTC (Toronto Transit Commission or sumthing like tat) bus ... so here's how it went down .. i was listening to Oasis in my earphones while sitting on one of the left window seats on the bus .. my eyes and mind were fully hooked on this new book tat i got .. btw loved it alot man .. ^^ .. maybe i'll tell u lads about it once i finished reading it k .. hihihihii .. anyways, there i was enjoying my long morning ride to work when the bus pulled to a smooth stop to pick up/drop off some passengers at one of the busy intersections .. out of a sudden, i heard this hard knock on the floor ... i thought it must some heavy bag dropped by some auntie or uncle or kid or u name it, we have it lah .. wakakakkakaa .. i couldnt see it properly at that time for it happened during the rush hour period when the clean oxygen begins to run out within as we, passengers, turn to potatoes in a sack .. sighs .. but tat's not the point here .. after a second or two, people started making some space right in the middle of the bus where a young female body lies passed out across the floor ... i was so close that i could vividly see her eyes rolling up ... "We have an emergency here! Excuse me!" said a lady .. i didnt know what to do .. i wanted to help her but i froze ... i was indeed in a state of shock .. "Leave her alone and dont touch her! She's passed out. But she's gonna be okay soon. Dont worry. ... It happens to me too sometimes." said a caucasian female passenger who came out of nowhere ... and she was right. The girl recovered less than 10 seconds later .. and apparently she didnt realize she dropped unconscious ... she sat down then the bus driver came up to her, making sure she was fine .. everybody was just staring and not doing anything during the entire incident .. sighs .. tat is so sad man .. more than anything, i am especially disappointed with myself .. i should have done something .. anything! sighs .. but wat's done is done .. today is such an interesting day tho .. oh yeah, tonite i am going for this cruise trip organized by my company .. hihihihi .. i am excited and i hope it can live up to my expectations .. yeah yeah yeah .. 4 more hours to go and i'll be cruising away .. wakakakakaka .. anyone care to join? LOL .. in the mean time, i can continue pondering on that last remark made by the lady hero-of-the-day: "It happens to me too sometimes" .. o_0 .. hev a good one peeps .. me out now ~ cheers

take a train in my head

2006-07-19T07:15:00.000+07:00

~ Gosh, this song brings back so many great memories of school in the Lion City .. hahahaha .. i wish i can turn back time ... i wish i can fly .. enjoy peeps ~ cheers

GOT TAG?

2006-07-08T21:44:00.000+07:00

~ For KebHo .. i finally managed to complete it dude .. LOL ~ cheers

4 Jobs I would SUCK at:
Teacher

Customer Service Support

Anything to do with sales (i suck BIG time at this)

Model (DUUHHH!!!!!)

4 Nicknames I'll go with:
Inu/Bonu (Family)

Babi (High school friends)

Beruang Kutub/Polar Bear (University friends)

Ray (don't even think about it!)

4 Movies I can watch over and over:
The Terminal

Jurassic Park 1 / Jumanji (can't decide)

Janji Joni

Love Actually

4 Things I love to do on weekend:
Catch a movie

Groceries

Hanging out with friends

Shopping

4 Alcoholic Beverages I enjoy from time to time:
Tasted a few but some forgotten, some never even asked

(Yo, dun look at me like tat! i was D-r-u-n-k!)

4 Places I would like to go before I pass out:
Tibet

Greece

Venice (and alot more)

4 Celebrities I would go for a date with:
Kate Beckinsale

Giada De Laurentiis (who is she? check urself)

Charlize Theron

Jessica Alba (am i still in the running here?!?!?)

4 Objects I could not live without:
My pay cheque (come on now)

Cellphone (tho i dont use it too much)

My cap

My only pair of walking shoes

4 Things I do not have which I would like to have:
My work permit extension

More money (the obvious)

A new cap

An international driving license

4 People tagged to do this:
Superman

Spiderman

Anyone who is interested in killing their time (like me)

The auntie sampling chinese snacks at T&T (?!?!?!)

5 bola kehidupan

2006-07-03T19:05:00.000+07:00

Bayangkan hidup sebagai suatu permainan ketangkasan, dimana kita harus memainkan keseimbangan 5 buah bola yang dilempar ke udara. Bola-bola tersebut bernama: Pekerjaan, Keluarga, Kesehatan, Teman dan Spirit. Kita harus menjaga agar ke-5 bola ini seimbang di udara. Kita akan segera mengerti bahwa ternyata "Pekerjaan" hanyalah sebuah bola karet. Jika kita menjatuhkannya maka ia akan dapat memantul kembali. Tetapi empat bola lainnya yaitu: Keluarga, Kesehatan, Teman, dan Spirit, terbuat dari gelas. Dan jika kita menjatuhkan salah satunya maka ia akan dapat terluka, tertandai, tergores, rusak atau bahkan hancur berkeping-keping. Dan ingatlah, mereka tidak akan pernah kembali seperti aslinya.

Kita harus memahaminya benar dan berusaha keras untuk menyeimbangkannya. Bagaimana caranya?

Jangan rusak nilai kita dengan membandingkannya dengan nilai orang lain. Perbedaan yang ada diciptakan untuk membuat masing-masing diri kita special.

Jangan menganggap remeh sesuatu yang dekat di hati kita, melekatlah padanya seakan-akan ia adalah bagian yang membuat kita hidup, dimana tanpanya, hidup menjadi kurang berarti.

Jangan biarkan hidup kita terpuruk di 'masa lampau' atau dalam mimpi masa depan. Satu hari hidup pada suatu waktu berarti hidup untuk seluruh waktu hidupmu.

Jangan menyerah ketika masih ada sesuatu yang dapat kita berikan. Tidak ada yang benar-benar kalah sampai kita berhenti berusaha.

Janganlah takut mengakui bahwa diri kita tidaklah sempurna. Ketidaksempurnaan inilah yang merupakan sulaman benang rapuh untuk mengikat kita satu sama lain.

Jangan takut menghadapi resiko. Anggaplah resiko sebagai kesempatan kita untuk belajar bagaimana menjadi berani.

Jangan berusaha untuk mengunci cinta dalam hidupmu dengan berkata "tidak mungkin saya temukan". Cara tercepat untuk mendapatkan cinta adalah dengan memberinya, cara tercepat untuk kehilangan cinta adalah dengan menggenggamnya sekencang mungkin, dan cara terbaik untuk menjaga agar cinta tetap tumbuh adalah dengan memberinya 'sayap'.

Jangan lupa bahwa kebutuhan emosi terbesar dari seseorang adalah kebutuhan untuk merasa dihargai.

Jangan takut untuk belajar sesuatu. Ilmu pengetahuan adalah harta karun yang selalu dapat kita bawa kemanapun tanpa membebani.

Dan akhirnya ...

MASA LALU adalah SEJARAH,
MASA DEPAN merupakan MISTERI,
dan SAAT INI adalah KARUNIA.

Itulah kenapa dalam bahasa Inggris, saat ini disebut "The Present".

the last dance

2006-06-29T07:32:00.000+07:00

"The more attached I become to something, as the Buddhists believe, the more I set myself up for misery, the more I become needy. June, my ex-wife, used to tell me I couldn't enjoy winning, but that wasn't true. I certainly did enjoy winning, except that like everything else in life, the feeling doesn't last. Everything decays. Tex, who is definitely no Buddhist, has a saying I've grown to love: "You are only a success at the moment that you do a successful act." You can't be a success the next moment because you have already moved on to do something else, even if it's accepting the award for the successful moment that just passed. That is why I've always told my players the glorification comes from the journey, not the outcome." -- Phil Jackson, The Last Season, p. 111-112

me and a shoebox of memories

2006-06-22T06:49:00.000+07:00

~ A lot has happened during the past weeks and it has been nothing but another roller-coaster ride ... i can't be more happier for my friends who celebrated their commencement day on june 11; and i must say that i am very proud of all of them and that i am glad to be a part of the entire experience .. just being there means a lot to me .. hihihi .. With that being said, as we all pretty well know by now, every graduation signifies another closure of an era to be written into our very own history book - at least for myself - .. and almost every ending comes with a bitter sweet farewell to our close ones .. like they say, the show must go on .. and so there goes another face in town, quoted by Quenton ... hehehehe .. thus, to all my friends who have embarked on a new journey wherever you are, i bid you farewell and good luck ... i hope time will allow us to meet again and til then, stay low .. ^^ .. cheers to y'all ~

~ Gotta to be honest here, work has not been - should i say - mentally pleasant down here .. it's taking so much outta me that i couldn't really enjoy a decent nite asleep .. sighs .. but wat the heck, it's a job .. gotta do wat one's gotta do sometimes .. hihihihi .. me = just trying to keep the positive energy alive every now and then .. and i think i am getting the hang of it a'ite .. ^^ .. hihihi .. besides tat, this work has kept me so far apart from the full packed actions of none other than the World Cup .. LOL .. but i know tat the second round is near n dear .. hohoho .. so yeah, definitely looking forward to it baby .. ^^ .. btw my recently injured shoulder hasnt really come full circle to being healed .. in fact, it's starting to nag me a lot these days .. sighs .. i hope it's gonna be a'ite in the long term tho .. it is gonna be a'ite! hahahaa .. just gotta keep pushing n pushing .. never let it rest .. phewww ~

~ There's been alot in my mind recently .. personal and not so personal .. personal being family n myself .. and everything else making up the not-so-personal category .. wakakakka .. tat's kinda obvious, isn't it? LOL .. *see wat i mean* .. Have you ever felt like you know everything about your future - well, at least, your own belief and imagination of your future - and suddenly you begin to lose your way through it? you feel like you know and you try to paint it, but wat you see within is not what you sketched .. sighs .. it's definitely not a good feeling .. and it's taking a major toll on me lately .. so rite now, i am trying to live it one day at a time .. hope this works .. but we'll see .. nothing is ever certain .. nothing is forever ..... ~

~ Alrite then .. just need a lil space to vent my inner tots ... which y'all dont need to be worried about .. hahahahahha ... btw lots of congratz to both Pooch and Sue for nailing the jobs .. yeah yeah yeah .. wishing u both a fresh start and hope everything goes smooth from here onwards .. hihihi .. oh yah Bho, didnt forget ur tag .. will make sure to do it in the next post a'ite .. hehehehe .. so watch out .. me = back to So You Think You Can Dance .. one of moi fave ... both on telly n personally .. LOL .. hev a good one peeps .. tekker n me out now ~ cheers

hooligans, injury time, and david beckham

2006-06-10T23:26:00.000+07:00

~ Woooohoooo .. the long wait is finally over peeps .. yupe that's rite ... it's HERE .. the World Cup 2006 in Germany ... me very ecstatic olredi ... hihihihi ... Bho, this should keep u busy for a couple of weeks .. n tat's a good thing rite? wakakkakakkaka .. then let me hear u sing ENGLAND ALL THE WAY! THE BRITS ARE COMING TO TAKE THE CROWN AND IT'S NOW OR NEVER .. woooohooooooo ... my heart is always with England .. they've got a very well-rounded arsenal of youngs and vets, strong teamwork, and most importantly the will to win .. hehehehe .. i believe they can perform well and i hope they can bring home the prize this time ... yeah yeah yeah ... but i will not say the trip will be izzi ... just looking at the other contenders like Brazil, Netherland, Argentina, Germany to name a few ... i think it'll be tough .. but i still believe .. ^^ .. n tat's all i need .. wakkakakakakakaka .. n the score board reads ENGLAND 1 - PARAGUAY 0 ... shenks to David again .. hihi ... n tat's just for starters peeps .. u gotta see the rest .. hahahahhaha .. a'ite then hommies .. reporting live from windsor .. JOGA BONITO .. me out now ~ cheers

a self-fulfilling prophecy? is this it?

2006-06-07T06:58:00.000+07:00

If I lay here ... if I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

~ If I could just start over, I would do a thousand things differently ... I hope u understand ~ cheers

next stop: el savador

2006-05-30T04:06:00.000+07:00

~ I am melting here ... melting away fast .. crap ... today's hottest temperature hits a humid 34 celcius .. oh no .. gotta get my sweat towels ready now .. wakakkakakaka .. eniwei here's one awesome song for u guys out there wherever u are .. enjoy the simmering hot summer y'all .. hohoho .. it's finalle here peeps .. wooohoooooo .. chill out .. me out now .. "Yo where's my f***king frappucino?!?! Eh yo .. WHAT?!? A HOT CHOCOLATE?!^+&^%$# ... shit!" ~ cheers

turn off the stars ...

2006-05-26T06:32:00.000+07:00

~ Pheeeeeew, managed to finally get here ... all shenks to me room mates .. ^^ .. good good people indeed .. hihihi .. eniwei i think i am going to have to apologize for making such a big fuzz bout my previous post .. however can't help myself .. wakakkakaa .. so here's the bits n pieces of my bitter-sweet story .. last weekend i decided to pack me bags n head south to windsor .. *yeah yeah yeah* .. emotions were high n i was extremely xcited bout my trip .. hihihi .. windsor is same old same old .. nothing ever really changes there ... hehehe .. yet coming back always starts with a happy tone ... wakakakkakaa .. at least for me ^^ .. i wasn't planning to leave until friday nite .. at the usual greyhound bus schedule, which is around 12 midnite, departing from the Toronto downtown bus terminal .. aside from the pricey round trip fare *bloody $80 canadian bucks .. can't u feel the drain in ur pocket?!?* i personally like this schedule ... i can sleep during the journey plus it takes only about 4 hours to get there *express mode ^^* ... hahaha .. eniwei this time around, it's different .. got this carpool number from me bro last week .. so i decided to try me luck .. for the record, i happened to have some really bad experience travelling with carpools .. n tat's basically why i started taking buses on my recent trips ... but like i said, this time it's different .. hihihi .. well, actually i kinda need to save the cash .. wakakkakakaa .. eniwei i called the lady with the intention of booking a seat for my trip back to toronto cause i know i wasnt gonna make it on friday ... since carpools usually leave for windsor by 5 pm latest .. but i gotta work til 5 on fridays .. bad luck .. LOL .. she seems nice over the phone .. n so i asked her when she's leaving for windsor tat friday .. she said about 5 pm after she gets off work too ... as i expected .. but wat i didnt expect was this ... she asked me where do i work .. n guess what .. naah, we dont work in the same building .. tat'll be crazy yo .. wakakkakaa .. but we're close enuf .. at least by car .. hahhahahhaa .. and as soon as tat conversation ended, she tried to plan my whole trip at tat very moment on the phone .. she said "why dont you bring ur stuff to work tomorrow n i can pick u up n we can go together?" ... just so you know i've already made up me mind to take the bus .. but she changed me in a split second .. why the hell am i so friggin dumb?!?! obviously this will work out .. she's happy n my wallet is happy .. LOL .. so without hesitation, i confirmed our meeting time n venue to begin our adventure .. wakakaka .. n as soon as tat call ended, i ran downstairs n begin my chores .. packing n laundry .. LOL .. before i went to bed, i smiled .. knowing tat everything was working out just fine .. hahahhaa .. shenks to the instant-noodle planning by the carpool lady .. hihihihihi ~

~ During the entire weekend, all i really did was eat n eat n eat n eat n ...... eat .... geeezz dunno how many pounds i put on last week .. it's just madness .. seriously ... Went to catch "The DaVinci Code" and "Over The Hedge" last saturday ... n here again i wasnt planning for a movie marathon tat day either ... but it happened yo ... wakakkakakaka ... i would give D-Code a lenient 4/10 rating ... watching the movie was like being chased by a speeding bullet behind ur back .. i bet many peeps who didnt get a chance to read the book find themselves lost at the beginning of the flick .. but tat's understandable ... i personally would have been, if i didnt read the book .. hehehehe ... tom hanks is tom hanks ... i admired his acting .. however sophie neveu was just okay .. but she is gorgeous .. ^^ .. wakakkakakkaka .. on the other hand, i'd give OTH a fair 7/10 rating ... funny, yet not so funny .. but it was worth the 4.50 i paid .. hahahhaa .. it was a fun day after all ... hihihi ... on another not-so-beautiful note, i had a terrible accident last saturday .. ^^ .. u know me ... big, reckless, n careless .. wakakkakaka .. wat a combo .. hihihi .. i was chasing after a football on high speed when i wasnt wearing the proper pair of shoes .. *btw my basketball shoes were on* .. when suddenly i lost my footing before i lost my balance, and i guess u can figure the rest of the story .. wakakkakakaka .. *n apparently i still think it's bloody funny* .. but the worst part was tat i landed directly on my right shoulder when i hit the ground *ground = running track* .. trust me, i landed harsh n hard .. since i was running at full speed ... *for a fat guy tat is* .. as soon as i crashed, i rolled over a couple of times on the ground before immediately raising up on my foot .. i can feel the pain on my shoulder .. i can't describe the pain but it hurts badly ... the next thing i know Nacho Libre and Satria came running to approach me .. while the pain keeps getting worse .. i tried moving my shoulder/arm .. but i couldnt .. so i decided to feel my right shoulder using my left hand .. i was shocked .. i can feel a huge bump over the shoulder cap .. n it feels like a piece of bone was sticking out .. i was terribly scared yet in deep pain ... after tat, i began to lose my consciousness ... i can hear their voices calling out my name, asking how i was feeling .. "Noe, noe, noe ..." but i started losing my hearing too .. it's like somebody was holding a remote control to my ear n lowering the volume .. the voices were weakening by the second .. by tat time, i almost completely fainted ... until Nacho Libre sit me down on the ground n gave me a bottle of H2O to gag down .. they told me my face turned pale white during the incident .. n i felt my whole body extremely weak .. the pain remained there for a long time .. but the critical time has passed as soon as tat water reached the end of my throat ... phewww ... slowly i regained my hearing and my strength ... Mr. Neng2 also grabbed me a bag of ice to put on the shoulder ... but still i couldnt move my shoulder ... and i thought it was dislocated; not until the doctor said the joint was okay on the following morning .. yupe tat's rite, i endured the entire painful evening .. hihihihi .. n guess wat i wrote my last post in the morning before going to the chinese doctor .. when i thought my shoulder would have to be "fixed" like in those Jet Li kungfu movies ... just the thought of it makes me sick .. but i guess i was exaggerating way too much ... wakakkakakkakaka ... *Ouchh!$#%^& .. my shoulder* .. yeah it still hurts quite bad .. even now .. but it's healing over slowly .. it's gonna be a while before normal comes back ... sighs ... so i officially ruined our entire basketball/football reunion .. sighs .. wat a bad day .. sorry guys .. will make it up to you hommies as soon as this shoulder is fixed a'ite ... hehehehehe .. n i really hope i can make it before Nacho Libre had to fly away .. ^^ .. gonna miss him man ... wat a guy .. wakkakakkakaa ... so yeah there goes my entire beautiful weekend in windsor ... no surprises eh? hahahhahaha .. the one thing i take away from this weekend is that the best place to be in the world is where your friends are .. even the gruesome pain was subsided by the fun i had last weekend .. hihihi .. shenks guys ^^ .. for the first-aid help n the good times .. like always ~

~ Tomorrow herrotzky is leaving the USA .. the time has arrived buddy ... i know tat u may be scared of wat's to come ... but believe in yourself dude .. just like everybody around you does ... including me ^^ .. we can all make it if we try ... maybe this is for the best ... n sometimes the worst of things turns out to make the best outcomes out of it all in the end .. so be brave yach .. n like always ... tek it izzi .. hihihi n kalo situ sedang lost, inget semboyan gw "tak usah kita pikirkan ujung perjalanan ini" .. let it flow .. let it go .. n keep tat smile on ur face .. then u'll never go wrong .. hahahhahahhaa .. bon voyage n all the best in your future endeavours ahead .. btw dun forget to keep in touch dink .. u know where to find me .. this cafe is open 24/7 for friends .. wakakakkakakaka .. enjoy dude n hev a safe trip back home! ^^ .. did u hear tat??? HOME man HOME! yiihaaaaaaaaa ... tekker mate .. *i hope u can read this before u go .. otherwise the whole thing will sound so stew-pid .. crap* .. oh yah, dun forget to update ur blog too dude .. hihihi .. n last but not least, this one is dedicated especially for ya .. Never Know by Jack Johnson .. hope it will give u strength n comfort .. ^^ .. MERDEKA! .. peace out .. me out now ~ cheers

P.S. to herrotzky: Say Hi to Poppy for me please! wakakkakakakkaa .. hev a good one!

fight the future, fight the pain ...

2006-05-21T20:27:00.000+07:00

~ Eventually this happened .. couldn't help it, u know, being reckless and careless on the field ... sighs .. i can't really write much for now .. i am scared .. frightened of the unbearable pain i am about to be put through ... i hope i can fight it .. it's kinda serious peeps .. perhaps the most serious so far in my life .. trust me .. but i'll smile anyways .. will surely get back to you guys with the details soon ... hev a good one y'all .. me out now ~ cheers

conversing with butterflies and the bees ...

2006-05-08T07:02:00.000+07:00

~ Another week is done .. pheww .. hope everybody is chillin' for the nite a'ite .. hihihi .. as for me, i had an awesome weekend .. tiring but it was all good y'all .. hahahahaa .. Went to watch M:I III today .. gotta give TomKat three thumbs up ... wakakakakkaa .. he was just perfect for the role, the conspiracy, the whole sex appeal thing *btw i am straight! this is a man-to-man thing called respect*, and the full-packed action stunts .. yeah yeah yeah .. i say it was worth my 13 bucks for sure .. LOL .. just kiddin' guys .. as long as a good company is around, everything is gooooood ... ^^ .. btw was introduced to this chinese BBQ house in the old China Town too .. i'll tell this much, if u want to save, then this is the right place for yaaa ... wakakakkaakkaka .. a super saver meal indeed .. can't beat this for sure .. LOL .. here it goes .. 3 kind of BBQ meat on rice (LARGE) costs u about 5 bucks .. plus if u speak chinese, then it's a brother-to-brother price deal as usual .. 4.50 for tat very same meal .. AND if u are lucky *enuf*, u might earn urself another hot bowl of soup .. FREE!!! .. damn chun lah! .. best deal i've heard so far in canada ... LOL .. wakakkakakaa .. there u go .. another damn cool place to visit in Toronto on my list .. yeah yeah yeah .. ;P .. *oh boy .. i'm going nuts here peeps .. so mind the language pal* ~

~ Right out the cinema, this sudden uneasy feeling strikes me .. i realized it's the end of my weekend already .. sighs .. not quiet ready yet to brave another stressful work week .. hihihi ... but a man got to do what a man's got to do .. hehehehe .. i'll be fine .. no worries .. being the easy-go-breezy kinda dude is definitely good thing for me .. hahahahahha .. at least it keeps me smiling .. hohoho .. n tat's wat counts for me .. ^^ .. i also realized that it's almost a year i've been working in canada .. in another month or so, it'll all come full circle .. sighs .. and tat marks another year in my life .. and of course, the end of my working visa too .... honestly i've been avoiding this subject from poisoning my thoughts throughout the past few months .. tho i know i am gonna have to deal with it sooner or later .. n sad to say, that fear is still here to stay .. playing tricks with my mind ... trying to break me down .. sighs .. and time is, once again, running out for me .. the clock is ticking as i am hitting this keyboard and as you are reading this whole psychotic post .. but we'll never have enuf time anyways .. to do what we want to do .. to achieve what we want to achieve .. we are always haunted .. by our dreams, our past, our future ... by time ... so we might as well take everything slow and let it slide ... hehehe .. smile and let it sail .. while we enjoy the beautiful view and the exotic islands we encouter along the way .. all i know is tat my whole situation is going to get complicated soon .. and i dont want to make expectations .. because i am not ready to be disappointed just yet .. i am preparing myself for the worst to come .. and hopefully, by then, i'll be ready with a game plan .. the master plan, watever it is .. so for now, i'll have to stay calm .. hihihi .. besides, i have better things to look forward to .. another grand convocation is just around the corner .. and there's gonna be more sunny days ahead too .. wakkakakkakakaa .. but i am so not looking forward to saying goodbyes to a few of my friends at the same time .. or perhaps i, myself, will be waving goodbye ~

~ Geezz i think i wrote too much this time .. and mostly crap .. hohohoo .. hope u guys aren't bored or asleep by my melancholic topix .. hehehehe .. was planning to talk about light stuff but i think i failed myself .. LOL .. eniwei i'll cut it out here peeps .. i'll leave u guys with this tune by The Perishers .. one cool song for the nite before heading to bed .. hope y'all have a good week ahead .. ^^ .. take it easy yach .. n take care as always .. peace out ..... me out now ~ cheers

P.S. Loads of congratz to Karel aka Kambing for landing the job! Have fun and enjoy!

dancing under the april's shower

2006-05-01T23:58:00.000+07:00

~ It's amazing how money grants us our mere existence and, more importantly, our own security in one too many ways .. each night we close our eyes, we try to take comfort knowing that tomorrow is going to be there and we pray that whatever problems to come, let them come and we hope that we have what it takes to overcome them ... we bend our backs 40 hours a week each week just to justify ends meet .. saving every penny we can for we not know what the future holds tomorrow .. once a while, we spend to reward ourselves for the efforts we invested so hard just to reassure our wandering hearts that we are doing the right thing we should be doing .. and we feel happy ... or are we really happy? ... the truth is that we are never happy ... coz we have never appreciate what we have and we crave for more .. as much as we try not to, we are what we are .. humans .. and like humans we shall live .. live to materialize that financial security we sought long before we are even here .. just because it runs in our blood .. our breed ... but at least we work for what we crave for, you may disagree .. yeah we do .. but are we all that fortunate? fortunate enough to feel rewarded for the things we do ... nope, we are not .. and we break down .. our world begins to shatter .. for justice is not served ... and we wonder why ... we suffer, we struggle, we endure .. hoping that tomorrow will be better .. and yet tomorrow never comes .. and we wonder why ... we suffer and we struggle even more .. but can we endure we ask .. can we survive on faith alone? ... i don't know .. we may think we can .. but our experiences make us think twice .. perhaps we should stop asking questions .. which i have already begun ... and to tell you the truth .. i am better off this way .. two boats can sail to the same destination; however, how each boat will get there is an entirely different story .. some people can get things easy in life, yet some people cannot .. everything in life is two-sided .. which brings about balance .. so for someone to be happy, some other one has to be sad .. it's just the way it is as sad as it may sound .. i believe we can live very simple lives .. but we make life itself more complicated at heart and in mind .. and when we want more than what we need, we simply suffer ........... me out now ~ cheers

We’re breaking and rebuilding and we’re growing, always guessing, never knowing

We’re shocking but we’re nothing

We’re just moments, we’re clever but we’re clueless

We’re just human, amusing but confusing

We’re trying, but where is this all leading?

We’ll never know ...

P.S. This song goes out especially to cookieapplegal .. hope u feel better soon ^^ .. and to all my friends struggling with problems of their own .. keep it simple peeps .. yeah yeah yeah .. last but not least .. to me and my own problems ;p .. hev a good one!

losing gravity ...

2006-04-20T07:09:00.000+07:00

~ Yellow peeps .. good to be back around here .. as always .. hihihii .. went back to ma crib in windsor last easter weekend ... i must say things have changed alot since everybody left .. at least, it's not the same anymore .. as i walked along the empty street of randolph, i felt a certain flashback streaming through my memory ... hehhehehe .. nevertheless this city never sleeps yo .. hahahahhaha .. there's always a bunch of easy-going hommies to make everything so much more enticing and wonderful ... despite the unfortunate timing .. ^^ .. met everybody who i planned seeing .. my bro n peeps under da same roof, Nato, Quenton, Winnie, Nancy n her beloved puppies, Harli, n Rendy .. wakakakaka ... i really enjoyed their company like always .. Had a refreshing, yet tiring game of football on the first day .. it really drained my entire energy for the rest of the weekend .. apparently i am still *recovering* from aches and bruises .. hahahhaha .. but it was all worth it .. my side (Rendy aka Mr. Samba, Sate aka The Living Dead, and me aka The Polar Bear) won 5-4 at the end of the day ... hahahahhahaa .. yeah yeah yeah .. ^^ .. Had plenty rounds of good laughter sessions at the Waku Waku as well .. hihihihi .. and not to forget to pay my respect to Sun Hong BBQ house during my visit too ... yihaaaaa ... now everything is complete .. LOL ... all n all it was definitely a break from everything about Toronto ... stressful work, boring life, and lonely days ... wakakakkakaka .. Btw i hope i didn't screw anyone's study plan for the finals during the weekend .. if i did, it's ok larr.. u can always take the course again rite? rite? rite? wakakkakakakakkakaa ~

~ Moving on to more serious matters now .. how can you hate someone you love and respect so much that having this thought even makes you feel sad n guilty? i still can't figure out how to react to this whole situation .. i feel so helpless on one end and yet i feel extremely angry on the other .. honestly i can't never think this through .... it's a choice she made long ago and now she just have to live with it ... it's sad really ........ i can only pray that he realizes his own mistakes before it's too late .. you can have it all in front of you and yet you are wandering around blindly into the wrong direction, hurting everybody else in your way .. especially she who cares for you .. sighs .. i hope i dont make the same mistake of my own ... and i hope you too .. Have a good one peeps .. me out now ~ cheers

P.S. Congratz to Jessica who finds herself a new job for the summer ... Have fun!

gazing upon the northern sky

2006-04-04T07:38:00.000+07:00

~ Murky sky shrouded over Toronto today ... the rain kept pouring with enough sunshine just to keep my moods lifted .. sighs .. March is over .. just like that .. Grateful for everything that carries me through up til now ... perhaps i'll be all the way across the globe rite now if things were to work out differently back then .. enjoying the simmering hot sun over my head in singapore .. hehehehe .. and the super good company, not to forget .. wakakakkaka .. The truth is i feel less afraid now .. some of that fear has subsided over time .. planting new strength and hopes in my heart .. but who knows what's the future made of ... just gotta keep my head up for the best .. and this one goes out to my friends: Kebo, Kambing, Pooch, Sue, and last but not least Cookieapplegal ... problems, problems, and problems .. hehehehe .. i know y'all having a hard time in the lion city .. but it's just part of a transition ... everyone of us will experience the same i-almost-lost-my-sanity chronicle sooner or later .. so dont worry about the harsh times because it will make u strong .. trust me .. and rest assured that i am always proud of u guys wherever life takes u ... hihihi .. remember why we fall? so that we can learn to pick ourselves up ... yeah yeah yeah .. ^^ .. keep up the good work guys .. and i hope this song will carry you through .. enjoy peeps .. me out now ~ cheers

the manic's prayers

2006-03-13T06:38:00.000+07:00

~ Never confuse fate with coincidence .. up until now, i still can't believe that i've got myself a job ... i am completely astonished with the fact that i am back working 5 days, 40 hours a week once again ... to be honest, i had lost hope by the end of january and was ready to pack my bags and leave ... One day before the interview, i was definitely eager ... tat is eager to get this s**t over with and move on .. coz i did screw my preliminary interview on the phone .. and pretty convinced that this whole motion was just a waste of my time and money .. Nonetheless i did go for the interview .. and things went surprisingly well ... One week training and my boss seemed to be content with my performance ... and here i am now ... still amazed upon this blessing .. or miracle .. or perhaps fate, itself, brought me here .. Alot of things happened in the last month (despite my boring cyle of time) ... good and bad .. which brings about balance in my life ... though i feel the bads tend to favour most of the time .. sighs ... Now that the sea is calm, it gives me time to reflect back in time and understand some of the things which i left behind .. i finally find out why i did get the job ... hehehe .. and this gives me meaning and purpose for me being here .. For once i was so friggin' scared and lost ... one time i felt out of this world and in another i felt the end is coming close ... so close that i can't even begin to describe that feeling ... losing faith is never a good thing .. but it happens all the time .. Yesterday i went to check out "Eight Below" ... alone as usual .. ^^ .. was actually reluctant to spend the money .. but wat the heck .. it's worth killing my time .. hahaha ... and the movie turned out awesome .. yeah yeah yeah ... it kinda gives me that much-needed inspirational boost .. to take chances for the things we care about despite not knowing how things will turn out at the end of the day ... after all, life is a mystery ... but on the contrary it raises the question: How far will you go to realize your dream? ... perhaps the question is: How far CAN you go? i think tat's more like it for me personally ... hihihi .. sometimes you have priorities in life .. things you just have to carry on your shoulders and take responsibilities for these things .. Being a man is knowing where you have to be ... *btw got this phrase from a cartoon show .. believe it or not!* ... and i know that my place is here .. at least for now ... hehehee ... coincidence or fate? i dunno .. but i hope i don't lose heart along this journey of mine .. me out now ~ cheers

oh no (without you)

2006-03-04T08:34:00.000+07:00

Oh no .. dropped to the ground
And i can't seem to get up
Paralyzed .. i can't breathe i can't feel alright
Cause i drown without you ...

Oh no .. lost my sight
When i could barely see the light
I see you .. I feel you close
But i'm lost without you ...

I .. know ..
That i can't make you stay
But i beg .. and i beg ..
I .. know ..
That i can't make you stay
But i beg .. and i beg for you
Just today .. just today .. just today

sunday memory lane

2006-02-21T09:10:00.000+07:00

~ Yooohoooo ... me back a'ite .. i must say i miss blogging soo darn bad ... hihihi .. been missing out alot these days .. especially on my blogpals' lives wherever they are .. sighs .. sorry mates .. time really flies ... soon Kebo will be flying out of brissy for good .. heading down to KL to rock those lost times with some of our old pals out in Negeri Malaya .. hohohoho .. hev a bloody f***in' good one mate ... salam deh buat anak2 yg masih nongkrong di Indah Villa .. LOL .. hihihi .. on another sad note, cookieapplegal is now back working in the Lion City .. sighs .. three weeks feels like three minutes .. how can i explain tat? but it sure felt like it was tat fast .. for real .. hohoho .. nevertheless we had a really great time here .. spent lots of money doing stuff tat need lots of money to enjoy .. LOL .. but it's all good yoo .. tho i feel somewhat guilty tat i spent so much money when i kinda need them badly these days .. wakakakakkakaka .. neway just wanna say i miss ur cooking dude .. maybe next time i'll post some of her home-made dishes she cooked for me during her stay .. hihihi .. n of cuz pictures courtesy of myself .. wakakakakakaka ... watelse now ... oh yeah ... Sue is already in the Lion City as well .. it's been a long first week for her there .. and from wat i heard, she's having a tough time adapting herself in the new environment .. but i am sure she'll find her way out like always ... hihihihi ^^ .. so good luck to her too ... soon everybody will flock to Singapore ... except for me .. hixs hixs hixs .. but no worries lah .. one day i'll crash there anyways ... wakakakakkakaka .. so no harm done ... To my hommies back in windsor .. how y'all doing back there? hope u guys are having the best time of ur life .. in school of cuz .. wakakakkakakkaa .. keep those books open and those pages turning since u know wat time it is now .. yupe, tat's rite .. it's midterm time!!! .. wakakakakaaa ... *crap! this is so lame* .. eniwei i ought to wish u gudlak too then ... hihihi .. btw Pooch got his first interview in Singapore as well last week .. i seriously hope it really went in his favours ... he deserves it more than anyone ... hihihi .. wakakakakakakaka .. so gudlak to you too bro ... and if and only if it didnt go ur way .. well, maybe it isn't the rite one for ya then .. we'll turn out just fine at the end of the day one way or another .. no matter what .. hihihi .. so hang in there buddy ... Hmmm .. i think i pretty much cover everything for this post .. anything about my life will be postponed indefinitely until further notice ... wakakakakaka .. let's just say i am waiting for now ... but will sure keep u guys posted ... hihihi .. a'ite then .. hev a great one peeps .. tekker n peace out .. me out now *damn! i have so many emails to reply to .. sighs* ~ cheers

another time another place ... maybe

2006-02-18T02:29:00.000+07:00

~ ... and now she has to leave on tat jetplane .... again ...... ~ cheers

over da rainbow across da universe

2006-02-04T09:02:00.000+07:00

~ Aloha people .. back again here i am .. hohoho .. been very lazy to update me blog lately .. perhaps i am getting used to the boring life of another un-m-ployed .. wakakakkaa .. but no worries .. me = still all smile .. big n wide .. yeehaaaaaaaaaaa ... hihihi .. there's no point to be sad n we should just live the moment each day .. tat's rite .. move forward n face the sun ... i learnt another important lesson in life tat i got from this very nice man i spoke with early this week .. which is that there is only one thing we have to prove to ourselves in this life .. n that is that we are happy with who we are .... sounds cool eh? u bet it does .. hahahahhahaha .. i hope i can be a wise man one day ... tat is what my dad has always taught me to be all along ... every now n then when he gets a chance to talk to me .. he'll say : " Jadi orang harus bijaksana " ... perhaps it should sound like this in english : " Be A Man .. " .. wakakkakakkaka .. *sorry Pete .. got to borrow the line for a sec* .. LOL ~

~ Well, things been sailing really sweet around here with the presence of si cookieapplegal .. wooohooooooo .. she keeps me happy and positive even though times are tough these days ... sighs .. but she's been there for me alot of times and i hope she'll be there from here onwards too .. kekekekkekeke .. nonetheless we've been eating out like two crazy pigs everyday since she came down to Toronto .. DEM! ... i think i've gained a few pounds olredi this past week .. crap .. but who can resist the temptations .. her cooking is awesome ... i cannot wait til her next menu pops up on the table .... wakakakkakakakka .. oh well, we both enjoy eating .. hihihi .. wat can i say ... ^^ .. enuf about food ... let's move on to my career slump ... sad to say, there's nothing new to share ... still thinking whether to stay or to leave .. but i will figure it out soon ... hihihi .. as odd as it sounds, i feel relaxed about the whole thing .. as if i have all the time in the world waiting for me .. which can't be true .. but i am cool ... or perhaps i am mistaking "relaxed" for my sense of hopelessness .. i wonder ... hmmmm ~

~ Eniwei i'd like thank Herrotzky for sharing her server with moi .. hihihii .. makasih dude .. u are da best dech .. ^^ ... so i guess this one is for u then ... by The All American Rejects .. it's tappie so i tot we can all enjoy it together ... all for one n one for all .. woooohooooooo .. before i go, a shout-out to my buddy, Kebo, wherever u are ... i know u are damn busy saving ur money rite at this very moment ... but it would be pleasant if we can catch up one of these days ... hihihii ... best of luck bro .. hihihi .. a'ite then peeps .. i guess i'm off again .. have a good one eh n peace out .. tekker y'all .. lots of love .. me out now ~ cheers

sleepless in willowdale ...

2006-01-23T01:11:00.000+07:00

~ Final : Man Utd 1 - Liverpool 0 ... wooohooooo .. time to celebrate people .. hahahhahaha .. time n time again, they twist the tale .. once again they have proven worthy of the challenge ... always capable of casting that magical spell on their opponents .. unbelievably superb header from Rio Ferdinand 1 minute after the official time definitely sent their rivals stunned and packing while Man Utd remains strong in second place, right behind Chelsea in the EPL .. and there is absolutely no question about that .. yeah yeah yeah .. sunday bloody sunday .. hihihi ~

~ Anyways it's been 12 days since i last checked in ... hihihi .. wat can i say .. things have been running pretty wild around here while i'm gone .. a lot of things have changed for the worse, if not otherwise .. hehehehe ... but as i said, bring it on pal! ... u think u've got me all figured out but actually u dont have any clue of what i'm capable of .. hihihi .. *evil grin mode is on* .. after much tot, i am especially made for this kind of conditions .. crush me down n i'll be back on my feet in no time ... wakakkakakakkaa .. enuf said now .. so u wonder : what's up? well, first off .. as some of u may have heard, i am once again an ACTIVE job seeker ... lost my job last thursday just like tat .. dun wanna elaborate on the details coz - let's just say - it's not worth ur time at all .. hahahaha .. *save u guys another painful ear torture here* ... all n all i was dismissed due to no fault of my own .. hihihi .. next up is the masterplan .. since i've been laid off, a lot of stuff have been boggling my mind .. i tried to push it away but desperation seems to overrule my body and soul .. so i can't help but to think about it all .. what should i do next in my agenda? i wish i can have the luxury of time .. but unfortunately time is all i need .. badly so to say .. hahahaha .. after spending much time contemplating about my situation and weighing the options on hands, i've came up with a single yet life-changing decision to make .. guess what the question is : should i stay or should i go? .. wakakakakkaa .. tat shouldn't take me long and hard to figure out now that i come to realize .. but heck, the time's gone ... sighs .. so far i still couldn't make my mind ... it's so darn tough, considering the things at stake .. i mean my decision will not only affect my personal life but the lives of the people around me as well .. with the amount of responsibility i carry, i can't just take a shot in the dark for this matter .. i seriously hope i have what it takes and i hope i will make the right choice at the end of the day .. ^^ .. *cross my fingers* .. in the mean time, i've got enuf on my plate for now ... n that is to look for a new job .. i've been sending out resumes all over Toronto this week and hopefully something comes back in the near future .. during this process, i realize that all one needs to get a job is continuous dedication .. sometimes i think i have sent enuf applications but the truth is it's never enuf .. especially if one lacks professional working experience like myself .. being a "green"-er is definitely a disadvantage .. and rarely, if not never, an employer will have the guts to hire a junior .. after all what they seek is immediate results 99% of the time .. sighs .. bottomline, all we (unexperienced jobseekers) need is just one chance to prove ourselves BUT it is extremely difficult to earn that one chance when the chances are that employers will toss your resumes off into the recycle bin as soon as the line reads "NO PROFESSIONAL EXPERIENCE" .. but i dun blame them .. tho sad to say this is the reality .. perhaps my version of it .. hehehe .. so some day when i come to a situation in which i have to recruit new employees, maybe i should remind myself of this .. that all we need is a shot .. in work, in relationship, and in life ... me out now ~ cheers

" ... So don't go away,
Say what you say,
Say that you'll stay,
Forever and a day,
In the time of my life,
Cause I need more time,
Yes, I need more time just to make things right ... "

DAMMIT = 4 more hours to go

2006-01-11T01:53:00.000+07:00

~ As much as i hate to say this, the truth is men are wimps when it comes to speaking up about the reality of their relationships ... recently two of my friends had to taste the bittery of relationship-flops and it happens so that both are victims of the same typical "oh-please-believe-me" bullshit given by their boyfriends .. amongst the pile of overly common craps often -if not always- used by boys to call it quit involve parental and religious issues ... i mean COME ON DUDE! who are u kiddin' mate?!? and i have to say it's amazing what kinds of crap we can pull off to say goodbye to a relationship .. take this as an example .. "i'm sorry but i don't think it's gonna work out between us coz we both share different faith in God .. i mean i don't go to church on sundays" .. see wat i'm talking about here? and how lame is this bull? so then why the heck did u even think about putting urself n ur partner into this whole mess right from the beginning, morons? *chill out man .. dun get all upset dude* .. maybe we boys should try to rehearse the line before actually giving it all out .. ask a friend perhaps .. sighs .. personally i think watever reasons u plan to say, please make it up so tat it doesn't sound way too stupid to our ears, let alone ur partner herself ... at least give her the respect tat she deserves by letting her know the situation whether it be u falling in love with anyother gal, u just need a break, or watever .. just give her the truth .. and maybe u both can try to fix the problems together or even give it another shot .. as naive as i can be, i say she still deserves to get the truth from you .. i know it seems impossible to serve the reality .. given the circumstance that u might just earn urself a hard slap on ur face .. wakakakakaa .. *trust me it hurts so darn bad .. LOL* .. but at least u did tell the truth and it really proves alot about urself and being responsible as a man .. hihihi .. nonetheless either way the vic is still no doubt ur partner .. eventually it's only time before she will discover it for herself and hate u as much at the end of it all .. sighs .. it ain't easy but i think she will feel somewhat relieved, finding out the truth from you ... ^^ .. but tat's no guarantee .. she might even stab u rite through ur heart on the spot .. wakakakakaa .. in this case, u might wanna use those hard-to-believe lies instead .. wakakakakaka .. bottom line: forget about sparing ur partner's feelings by any means in the breakup coz the damage has already been done .. after all, we ain't no saints .. so quit trying to be one .. me out now ~ cheers

oh no ...

2006-01-07T05:40:00.000+07:00

~ Goodness sake i miss blogging mate .. wakakakaka .. how long has it been? a week or so i guess .. well, not too long after all ... hihihi .. so wat's up with my life lately? errr .. i'm afraid there isn't much to write about .. NY's eve was blunt like never before .. no party no people no fun .. sighs .. in fact spent the entire holiday streak sleeping, eating, and breathing with no access watsoever to computers .. HAH! there u go .. the irony lies in the fact tat i do have access to the internet but i just dun have a computer .. CRAP! it's usually the other way round .. u know, no internet yet yes computer .. but my case is unique in its many own rights .. *watever* .. perhaps i should join forces with the Hanz .. he supplies the hardware while i supply the connection .. LOL .. then we can all enjoy the downloads .. wakakkakakaka .. eniwei it's just a tot which will never, in a zillion years, come true .. hihihi .. oh yes, there's this hillarious stunt which i pulled off on the first monday of 2006 .. it was a monday btw ... i think i mentioned tat, didnt i? *yes u did moron* .. oh well, thanx to my short-term memory lost ... hahaha .. eniwei it's one of those rare occasions when u just completely outwit yourself ... and in my case, things could have gone far worse .. it was an ordinary working day .. the first day of 2006 at work .. woohooo .. feeling normal if not otherwise .. took a fresh morning shower and i found myself standing on the rather-empty-for-a-monday-morning bus in no time .. apparently this wasn't enuf to stop my crazy mojo tat morning .. within 10 minutes or so, i got off the bus to make an interchange .. and so i waited there .. it seemed like there was no bus running north tat day after a long wait .. usually the bus will always be on time unless it was raining or snowing .. but tat monday was bloody clear .. and no later did i realized tat i wasn't gonna make it in time for work as i checked my watch striked 9:53am .. holy shit!@*&^%# .. while i continued my long awaited ride to come, i also came to realize tat i didn't see the other familiar faces around me .. and just before i began to sweat myself, i saw a figure in a distance and i knew tat he was one of the missing faces from the 25D .. boy, i was glad .. phew .. at least there's one ... hehehehehe .. "excuse me, did bus no 90 leave already?" asked a middle-eastern dude as he approached the bus schedule hanging on the outer wall of the bus shelter .. "Yeah i think so .. but i'm not sure myself coz i dont normally ride tat bus" i replied .. "Are you waiting for 25D?" he responded again .. "Yes" i nodded my head .. "That bus is not going to come .. Every bus follows the holiday schedule today .. and the next bus 90 will only arrive in another hour" ... conversation continued and he asked "Do you want to share a cab?" ... me thinking "Hang on .. let me call my friend first" ... then i spoke to James "... Is today holiday?" and he replied "Yes, i told you that last Friday right? ..." and there i was completely stunned by myself than ever before .. wat a shameful day to remember .. hohohoho .. but on the bright side, wat better way to begin the new year with such a classy act eh? wakakakakakkaka .. so much for a monday morning .. as i hung up my call, i simply smiled back at the mid-eastern dude and i said "i'm going home .. no work for me today" .. for a moment, i think the oxygen stopped flowing to his brain when he heard that ... his facial expression tells it all .. wakakakakakka .. eniwei here i am sitting by my office desk .. thinking what to do for yet another quiet weekend to come .. i hope it'll be alrite tho .. everything's gone up in flames .. wooohoooooo .. me out now ~ cheers

au revoir 2005

2005-12-28T07:01:00.000+07:00

~ I supposed this will mark my last entry for this year of 2005 ... for reason beyond my own hands .. so i am wondering now what should i write to close yet another chapter of my blunt life .. at least tat's how i would describe it for the last 3 months or so .. hihihi .. it's been pretty quite around here tho .. my best guess is tat people are still celebrating or perhaps lying still on their beds, recovering from too much tequila n booze .. or simply hang overs .. LOL .. hey, tat would be nice, wouldnt it? some liquors n party all nite long .. gosh it's been a while since i had tat ... glorious moments indeed .. hahahaha .. but to be honest, i'm not much of a drinker myself i should say .. in fact i am very very bad when it comes to drinking .. hahahaha .. i could remember back then when i used to rush down to the bathroom with my face looking like a steamed lobster, rest myself on the toilet bowl and literally cracking myself out ... sighs .. after a few shots ... n i seriously mean a few! .. shame on me .. crap .. eniwei, been rewinding back my tots on this year's happenings .. overall, i think i spent 1/2 of it having so much fun n the other half having no fun at all ... HAH! yeah tat's rite .. well, maybe a lil' more on the so-much-fun here n there .. hihihi .. but not much ... dammit! ... then this question pops out in my head: Is there anything different i wish things would have been now? *btw is tat a properly structured question at all?!? neway who cares* ... certainly my life! and i guess it didnt take me long to figure tat one out .. hahahaha .. perhaps i can re-phrase the question .. so how about: If i am given a chance to go back in time and change certain things this year, what would i change? Hmmm ... tick tick tick tick .. still need some time .. tick tick tick tick .. still need some time ... Oh for everyone's sake, I DUNNO! .. so tat's it? is tat the best i can come up with?!? hell yeah .. well prolly i wish i would have paid more attention to those ASP.Net programmings while working on my final year project in school .. coz if i did, i prolly could have landed myself a better job ... sighs .. but other than tat, none .. maybe there are waaaaay too many things i need to change for the better back then .. so many tat i can't even come up with any at all .. *see how crappy i sound* .. but when i come to think of it, i really didnt get myself across many situations involving life-changing decisions let alone having to make any in the first place .. again, maybe i've turned myself into a lunatic by saying these things .. but this is for real man .. is this wat it feels to be in a mid-life crisis .. coz i aint living past mid-life yet! or have i? crap .. but this year is certainly a pivotal point of my life .. besides turning 21 .. hahahahhaa .. it's my first year ever living outta my own hard-earned money ... o yeah to your surprises this shit is for real hommies .. well, kids like me u see have been pampered long enuf by my parents since the day i was born .. everything i need was brought to the table and all i have to do is ask and i shall be given .. well, not everything .. hahahahhahaa .. coz sometimes they decide not to .. since we cant afford it .. LOL .. but i aint saying my parents are rich .. trust me, we are not .. we are kinda half way between the two polars of the human race ... the middle class .. hahahahahhaha ... so yeah, i wish i would have been more independent on my own .. and not being spoon-fed all the time like babies .. i dun even have my own savings or at least a piggy bank let alone a real bank account at the age of 20 .. shame on me again! .. hihihihi .. and this time it's BIG shame on me! ... hahaha .. but i am not blaming my parents for this .. i am sure they have their best intentions when it comes to parenting ... as any other parents ... and i should blame myself instead .. i should have take control of my own life earlier ... which i didn't .. and i kinda regret it now .. the bad news is tat i am still myself even this very second .. crap .. hahahhahahaha .. n i dun think i will change anytime soon ... *see this is the problem of all my problems i'm telling y'all .. the mother of all problems* ... LOL .. so now tat i am standing up on my own feet, i finally know how hard it is to earn a living in this vicious cycle of life .. everyday is work, work, and more work .. and wat's worst is when u dun like ur work .. hahahahaa .. hang on! tat's not it .. the worst thing is when u dun like ur job but u cant quit the job .. yeah tat's more like it now .. hahahahaha .. trust me, never ever get urself into this kind of shit EVER! u can end up like me here .. babbling about useless things and not doing anything about it .. hihihi .. to be honest, i think i am the kind of guy who waits for things to unfold by itself .. as pathetic as it sound, tat is me .. y'all like tat? better not .. and the weirdest part of it is tat i can feel comfortable living like this .. u know waiting n all .. waiting for miracles to happen ... hahhahhahahaa .. does it happen? well, i guess i'll let my life decide on tat .. just kiddin ... hihihi .. i aint gonna live forever .. which means i can only wait so long ... there will come a time when i will have to be a man ... *hahahaha this reminds me of russell peters .. be a man! LOL* .. and start acting like one .. tat's rite, i am waiting for the moment to arrive and strike back .. seize the moment coz sometimes u only have urself one chance to do it all .. as for rite now, i'll let myself be a boxer fighting in the ring with the best fighter of all time, time itself ... and u bet i dun look so good rite now .. coz wat i've been doing so far is taking in punches, punches, n more punches .. there are cuts n bruises all over me ... i tried to punch back but wat i get is more blows to my face .. everytime i try, i fail .. so i didn't fight back ... simply coz i can't .. but i am waiting ... hoping tat it will come .. and if it doesn't, then i'll die waiting ... coz tat's just plain me ... as simple as tat .. hihihihi ... at this stage of my life, i believe i am still a baby just beginning to walk ... i'll fall again n again n again .. making mistakes all over .. but hey, tat's how u learn to survive ... by making more mistakes .. ^^ .. WOW! look how much shit i wrote today man .. hahahahhahahaha .. holy crap .. hihihhi .. so much for a new year's resolution .. wakakakkakaa .. eniwei, tomorrow's back to work again .. and this weekend is new year's eve ... and let me just get this out early before i am gone, HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006 y'all! hope u guys have a blast wherever u are! and my message to you is Let's Boogie Down! yeeeehaaaaaaaaa .... woop woop ... let's start the count down people! hmmm .. 4 days x 24 hours x 60 minutes x 60 seconds = hmmmm ... 345600 seconds to go starting tonite as the clock strikes 12 midnight here in markham .. woooohoooooo .. have a great one everyone! this year's been an awesome year despite certain things .. LOL .. but we can't help it, can we? but let's start fresh with a clean slate next year shall we? see u guys soon ... if not next year .. wakakkkakakakkaa .. btw this song is for every single one of u out there .. let's dance! peace out .. take care and me out now ~ cheers

home alone ...

2005-12-26T00:10:00.000+07:00

~ No white christmas this year in Toronto .. the rain apparently washes the snow away these couple adays .. hihihi .. so how's everybody feeling? hope things have been sailing smooth for u guys .. if it aint slick, then it's alrite .. no worries coz it's christmas .. wakakakaka .. just enjoy the season before u know it's over .. havent been writing much lately myself .. well, nothing's cooking around here .. u know me .. hahahahhaa .. friday nite i spent it on the teevee .. stayed up late til about 3.30 in the morning coz Home Alone 2 was rolling .. wakakakaka .. just for the record, i still think Home Alone 1&2 are the best christmas movies of all time .. hahahhahahahaa .. eniwei, here i am home alone on this marvellous day of the year .. watever .. Yesterday was christmas eve ... well, santa claus didnt make it to my chimney .. yet .. hihihi .. but i kinda lost faith in him since he never ever drops by on christmas .. or any other day for tat matter .. LOL .. well, maybe next time .. hahahahahaa .. but the good news is santa Hanz was there to substitute him .. wakakkakaka .. shenks for da comic strips dude .. if u managed to make it here .. LOL .. eniwei, my roommates and i had planned a lil hotpot/steamboat dinner last nite .. interestingly i tot we were going to have a lot of pork n beef ... but na dah .. surprisingly none of them turned up on the table ... instead it was mr. lamb who made it through the nite .. sighs .. quite disappointing ... but i'll have to deal with it ... lamb is better than no meat at all .. yaikzzzz .. neway we had 2 different kinds of soup, the red-firey szechuan style and the plain chicken stock soup .. obviously i am not a big fan of the spicy gourmet ... *so much for being an eligible indon dude* .. so my luck resides with the plain one .. or should i say the insipid one .. sighs .. it was literally tasteless just so u know ... hahahhahaha .. but i did try something new ... hihihi ... a raw egg .. Tiffany said it's really good .. n no body else dares to try it ... so i tot why not? n the next thing i know i drained my bowl and there u go, a raw egg down my throat n to my stomach .. wakakkakakakaka .. surprisingly it was ok .. in fact it's good .. hahahahaha .. but not too long after, someone said the magic word .. the avian flu virus spread ... DANG!@#$^& .. OMG! i forgot about it .. LOL .. heck, if i was going to die, at least i'll die happy, if not stupid ... content with the fact tat a raw egg is not tat bad ... wakakkakakakka .. *still stupid .. crap* .. after dinner, it's clean up time .. hihihi .. i bought a deck of playing cards the other day .. so the next thing i know, we were laughing our ass off n goofing around the table til about 2 am ... hahahahahhaha .. despite the age differences and backgrounds among us, we still had fun ... which is quite interesting ... hihihi .. plus sometimes we find it hard to understand each other due to the language barrier .. but it's all good yo .. after all, fun is a universal expression .. ^^ .. Merry Christmas n Happy Hanukkah to all u good good people ... me out now ~ cheers

a terrible loss ...

2005-12-24T11:32:00.000+07:00

~ Great condolences to my friend, Honey, and her family for the loss of a beloved father and a wonderful husband figure .. I hope you can be strong during this rough time .. All my prayers are here to carry you through ... and may peace be with you ~ cheers

do i belong here .. u ask

2005-12-23T20:19:00.000+07:00

~ Neh lagu buat yg lagi pada sedih ato hepi tapi patah hati ... wakakaka .. bingung2 lho .. LOL .. n please take comfort that i am not broken hearted n tat loe2 pada bakal better off pada akhirnya ... hahahahahahaha .. n dun forget the tissue papers eh .. u'll need tat .. woop woop .. joget joget joget .. yihaaaaa ... me out now ~ cheers

just for my mom

2005-12-22T20:04:00.000+07:00

MOTHER
By Unknown Author

I appreciate the many prayers
you've whispered during
the worst moments in my life,
and the many hopes for my success
in all that I dreamed of.

I appreciate the kind wishes
that would make me so happy and fulfilled,
and the gentle words of encouragement
that were meant to strengthen my quests.

I appreciate the moments of sorrow
you experienced during my failures,
and the little gestures of kindness
that always made me feel better.

I appreciate your acceptance,
your ability to understand,
and the sincere friendship
that always gave me such security.

I appreciate the wisdom
of all the lessons you taught,
and the meaning behind the words
"unconditional love."

I appreciate all you've done -
every word and gesture.
I know you've been the best there is -
a mother beyond all compare.

For all you've done ...
Thank you, Mom.
For all that you are ...
I love you.

Today Indonesia celebrates Mother's Day
So here's to my mother and all the wonderful mothers around the globe

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY

A hero, a warrior, and an angel all in one

~ This song is dedicated to my mom ~

grateful

2005-12-20T20:27:00.000+07:00

"People have said time and again that it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. But what they will probably never understand is how I'll always be a winner for having loved you." -- someone

~ Buset .. romanticnyeeeee .. wakakakakaka .. gw aje lumer .. LOL ~ cheers

tribute to da kings

2005-12-18T23:55:00.000+07:00

# Happy 22ND Birthday to Cheristian aka Mr. C aka The Boss aka Samseng #
&
~ Happy Birthday to Ngin Kar ~

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@ 648 Rosedale Avenue : Windsor, Canada
After our 2004 birthday dinner at Dynasty, it's cut-the-cake time .. WOOP WOOP
Btw this is Mr. C people ... hihihi
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~ Have a great one guys! Hope all ur wishes come true ^^ .. Happy Birthday ~ cheers

da chock full of choc box

2005-12-17T12:25:00.000+07:00

Heppi BIG FAT 23RD Birthday
2
Karel aka Sedot aka Kambing

May all ur wishes come true bro
&
Wish u all da best in ur future

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@ Sri Utama Boarding Home : Malaysia
Semesters end when no more laundry pick-up comes around; but we say we do it our way .. hihihi
Who Say We Ain't Geniuses Huh?
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PS : Sori, but it's the best i can find .. LOL

~ Aloha hommies ... it's been a while since i wrote anything of my own over here .. hihihi .. haven't been quite myself to be honest in these few days .. as usual, another surge of tidal waves came crushing down on my door this week .. sighs .. nevertheless, i am still hanging on .. pheeeww .. Yesterday was wonderful actually ... hihihi .. besides the lil' argument i had wif si apple gal .. but we sorted it out in no time .. wakakkakaka .. ^^ ... heavy snow storm was whirling across the GTA tat day .. i could still remember standing below a street lamp where i usually waited for my bus home on east beaver creek .. i can't quite believe tat it was literally pouring .. hahahhaha .. and the mere idea of a white christmas is still kinda exotic and surreal to myself, given my circumstances of having been exposed to this kind of conditions for almost 3 years now ... i mean, i come from a city where extreme heat and air-conditioners are prolly the two things u should get familiar with in case u are thinking for a ride .. hahaha ... but then, here i am .. i've been blessed to have had this experience of being part of a culture and an environment in a country of 4 seasons .. where u can have the taste of 4 altogether in one ... hihihihi .. winter, for one, represents warmth n love .. it's a season where families reunite and rejoice and exchange christmas presents .. LOL ... as for spring, it resembles the season of rebirth .. it's a time when all this ice melts and nature once again revive, bringing upon us a new force of life ... Summer definitely means fun with da sun ... everybody's jolly when the temperature begins to rise and it certainly is a perfect time for outdoor sports and leisure ... it's the season for t-shirts and short pants ... and not to forget, my comfy sandals .. hihihi .. And to bring everything back to full circle comes autumn, the season of colours ... it's absolutely gorgeous n stunning to see all the trees turn red, orange, yellow, or even purple .. hahahahhaha .. and once the leaves begin to fall, i'll find myself gasping at a sea of random wonders, if not colours .. hehehehhe .. if asked which of the 4 i love the most, i would have to say none of them really represents me ... without the company of my friends/families and the love of God ... afterall it's not the season tat makes it worth all my while, it's the people i spent it with ... ^^ .. and this reminds me of how much i have lost and sacrificed to gain wat i have now ... the truth is i miss my loved ones and i wish i could spend more time with them by their sides .. especially in this time of year .. sighs ... and i regret this forever more ........ Thank you CookieGal .. this one is for u .. me out now ~ cheers

here it comes ...

2005-12-14T20:46:00.000+07:00

^ Heppi 22ND Burpday to Andi aka The Beatles Boy ^

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@ The Osgoode Hall, Downtown Toronto : May 2005
Spent the day walking n camming with this handsum dude n the gank (invisible)
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~ Wishing u the very very very best of life n May all ur wishes come true a'ite .. hehehe ~ cheers

cursed ...

2005-12-14T07:55:00.000+07:00

~ Am i being tested? Why does it have to happen rite on this bloody friggin' day?!? Feel like smashing my head onto the walls .... n let me bleed to death ... Am i out of line?!? Damn rite i am! coz i am cursed ... so bad tat they even have to ruin today for me ... and after all, today's no big deal at all ... thanx alot for the surprise ..... FUCK ~

les 13-decembros

2005-12-13T20:08:00.000+07:00

@ Heppi 23RD B'day to Brian aka Pooch aka Sin Can @
&
% Heppi 21ST B'day to Inoedoshi aka Kutub aka Babi aka MeSelf %

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@ The Rogers Centre : Toronto Blue Jays VS. New York Yankees
The Jays won the game but lost the series
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~ We came, We soared, but We have yet to conquer .. wakakaka .. Cheers people ~

21 bubbles .. YAY!

2005-12-12T00:33:00.000+07:00

~ Lots of wishes for Anita aka Ms. Bubble on her 21st birthday .. May all ur dreams come true and all the best in ur future ... ^^ .. HAPPY BIG FAT BIRTHDAY DUDE! ... HAVE A BLAST IN JKT .. peace out ... me out now ~ cheers

anger management needed ...

2005-12-11T05:11:00.000+07:00

~ Sitting here on my bed with my guitar ... i wish i can talk with him .... n share the things i wish i can share with myself .. just a thought .. hihihi .. the truth is i have so many things in my head these couple days ... it's been rough lately and especially this week ... prolly u guys figured it out since "tat" post .. hahahhaha .. been seeking peace from wat i call "the bus therapy" ... and i think it's working somehow .. i feel like i can release all these burdens in the bus .. if it ever makes sense to u guys ... sitting there with my pal, the cd walkman ... hahahhaa .. listening to some music ... or perhaps reading the news ... well, not exactly ... i mean i hardly read the news .. instead i spent my time on the horoscopes, the weather outlook, the big headline aka the frontpage, some interesting columns, and last but not least, the celebrity gossips ... wakakakakkakakka .. they're pretty much my morning breakfast since i began my job .. eniwei back to the therapy .. u can find my different kinds of people aboard ... and they are pretty much random every single day, except for one or two regular-ees like myself .. hahaha .. but tat makes it fun .. it's like meeting new strangers everyday, who i think live a life not tat distinguished from mine ... and u can sort of categorize these people into distinctive clusters like the troubled ones, the desperate ones, the i-can't-make-the-date-line ones, the i-love-my-job ones (rarely), the wat-am-i-doing-here ones, the it's-just-another-day ones, the am-i-on-the-rite-bus ones .. and finally the i-hate-my-boss ones, which i think i am a big fan of .. hahahhahaa .. not surprisingly these clusters have a somewhat negative genre ... well, blame the working world for being such a pain in the ass .. and blame the writer of this script for being so negative about his life and for being such a loser ..... sighs .. but let's not sway from the original topic here .. i can seriously whine about my pathetic life n me for all i know .. but i'll spare u the torture .. maybe next time ... wakakkakakakka .. i mean seriously! .. hahahahaha .. eniwei, seeing these people allows me to reflect upon my past actions or ponder upon my life situations .. and as strange as it may sound, it kinda provides me with some sort of emotional/psychological state of peacefulness ... perhaps it's the long journey from/to home .. but i'm not really sure ... i guess knowing tat i am not alone having this dilemma and tat there are others out there still like u is one heck of a remedy for my soul .. at least it keeps me subtle and away from having my worst nightmares or creating them myself as far as these nightmares are concerned ... hihihi .. plus the long walk home out in the vicious evening blizzard gives me a spiritual inner strength and hope tat i can still and will be here tomorrow and the next and the next and the next ..... as i said to myself, bad things may come and go, but i am still here for more ....... and i dont intend to run, but rather to stay ... and tat's how i think i've managed to survive this far in this impetuous journey of mine ......... me out now ~ cheers

hepi birthday cousin

2005-12-09T20:12:00.000+07:00

~ Hereby wishing my cousin, WAWAN, a happy 21st birthday in Singapore .. ^^ .. may all ur wishes come true and all the best in your future! ... which i am sure is a bright one .. keep up the good work yach .. hihihi .. yeah yeah yeah .. me out now ~ cheers

HIP HIP HOOHAAHH .. HIP HIP HOOHAAHH

P.S. It's just the beginning of the b'day wishing chores .. wakakkakakakkaka .. peace out

disturbed ...

2005-12-08T08:55:00.000+07:00

~ Feeling very very very very very HATEFUL since 3pm today ... i am definitely disturbed .. n i can really use somebody or something as a punching bag rite here rite now .. seriously ..... so piss off .. me out now ~ cheers

ketika ...

2005-12-05T05:10:00.000+07:00

~ Baru aja nonton Arisan ... gw salut bener dech ma yg ini .. perfect abiz neh pelem ... ckckckck ... gk abis pikir gw .. pokoke perfect dech ... castingnye jg ok ok .. gk heran anak2 pada bilang bagus .. bahkan lebih bagus dr yg gw expect ... gw mesti jujur soalnya gw judge the book by the cover tentang ne pelem .. masih inget gw, waktu pertama kali liat ni pelem nongol di bioskop2 .. "Yah elah, ginian lagi ginian lagi .. basi dach" ... dan skrg gw arus telen ludah gw sendiri ... wakakkakkaka .. after all, gk ada yg perfect di idup ini .. n menurut gw, ini salah satu tema yg selalu dipamerkan dari berbagai macam pelem .. termasuk Arisan ini sendiri .. hihihii ... si mei2 di pelem ini ngingetin gw ma Ce Chenny banget .. rada mirip jg kayanya .. wakakakakkaa .. trus gw suka shot2 waktu mereka di kantor polisi ... gw selama ini gk pernah man yg namanya masuk kantor polda .. gilak .. keadaannya memank separah yg gw gk bs bayangin .. LOL .. dari perkosaan, narkoba sampe maling ayam tetangga jg ada kali .. lengkap de koleksinya ... hahahhahahaha ... tp justru itu yg menarik .. dr sini gw bs mikir berapa besar dari kehidupan kita ini sebenarnya berada dalam kendali kita sendiri .. mrk bilang masa depan kita semua tergantung pada diri kita sendiri .. tp apakah benar sebesar itu peran kita dalam perjalanan kita masing2? masalah bergilir dari satu sisi ke sisi yg laen, dari satu pihak ke pihak yg lain tanpa kita sadari .. kadang gw suka ngayal sendiri .. kalo misalnya gw gk d sini skrg, kira2 gw bakal ada di mana yah? gw bakal gmana dan segala macem dech ... wakkakaka .. emank kalo orang rada gelo kayak gw, suka mikir yg macem2 .. sampe2 makan malem aje lupa .. wakakkaka .. mungkin semua cerita kita uda ditentuin dengan berbagai macam akhir yg berbeda2 ... dan yg harus kita lakukan hanyalah memilih .. pilihan yg satu tentunya akan mengantar kita ke persinggahan yg berbeda dengan jika kita memilih yg lain .. sama seperti sebuah permainan catur ... dan demikian jg faktor keberuntungan ikut berperan dalam kehidupan ini .. dan gw percaya bener sama yg satu ini .. hihihi ... semua tergantung hoki ... gw jadi inget ma artikel d kompas.com di mana orang2 indo berbagi cerita2 mereka yg sedang merantau d negeri asing seperti diriku ini .. banyak dari mrk yg sukses dan berhasil .. dan tidak sedikit orang yg terpicu nalurinya untuk berjuang demi merasakan kepuasan yg sama ... walau demikian, tidak sedikit jg dr mrk yg kurang berhasil merasa iri dan sirik ... ada satu artikel dari jepang, if i can remember correctly .. dimana dia bercerita tentang keadaan orang2 indo di sana .. dan menurut dia, tidak semua orang bs sukses hanya dengan kerja keras dan tekun ... ada orang yg tiap hari membanting tulang hanya untuk sesuap nasi .. dan tidak peduli bagaimana kerasnya dan tekunnya dia bekerja, dia ngak pernah sukses .. gw jg gk kebayang gmana rasanya terpuruk dalam keadaan kayak gitu ... harapan pupus dan kekecewaan menimbun .. sebaliknya banyak jg orang kayak Paris Hilton yg gk pernah pusink dan kekurangan soal materi ... dan lebih enaknya lagi, gk usah susah2 bekerja untuk mendapatkan semua kelimpahan itu .. oh betapa ironisnya dunia ini .. hihihi ... dan semua ini kembali pada keberuntungan kita masing2 ... akan tetapi, pemikiran seperti ini naif juga man ... kalo emank bener begini, yah uda lah .. kita santei2 aja .. toh semua tergantung nasib .. wakakakakkaka .. lucu kan .. sampe sekarang gw jg gk tau mesti berpedoman di sisi yang mana ... tp yang gw tau, jgn pernah menyerah pada nasib dan pada diri kita sendiri .. tetaplah berusaha dan tetaplah berjuang walaupun semua hanya untuk sesuap nasi .. dan jangan pernah merasa iri akan kelimpahan orang lain .. karena gw yakin setiap orang memiliki kelebihannya masing2 .. sekecil apapun itu tp asal kita bahagia, itu sudah cukup ... dan semua tidak perlu dinilai dari segi materi ... seperti contohnya sebuah persahabatan dan sebuah keluarga cemara .......... Dedicated to my family, my cookieapplegal, and all my friends: i love u guys .. sekarang dan selamanya .. me out now ~ cheers

at the crack of dawn

2005-12-03T11:51:00.000+07:00

~ This week's been pretty random .. *THANK GOD!* .. kinda need tat break outta my way-too-static life motions .... like now, i am supposed to be in bed .. but then i wouldnt wanna miss out on my first friday nite in december .. wakakkakakkaa ... eniwei, speaking of early december, this weekend happens to be a very sad time, if not otherwise, for my close buddy Pooch who is leaving Canada for good to head back to Singapore ... yeah, tat's rite .. everybody's going Singapore .. sooner or later, we'll all be Mr. & Mrs. Kiasu .. wakakakkakakka .. i feel very happy for him tat things have finally settled down in the nick of time .. i'm sure he is too .. isn't tat rite bro? wakakakkakaa .. well, the good news is tat u still have less than 72 hours to knock urself out .. i wish i could be there to knock u out myself ... but i can't ... sob sob sob .. but i am sure u'll have a blast with the gank .. wooohoooooo .. ~

~ i've been thinking alot lately .. about stuff ... especially my work .. i've been working for almost 6 months already ... n i feel like i know alot better than when i first started out fresh .. i mean it was like "Dude, what the heck am i supposed to do here? Click this .. and then what?" ... but hey, there's always a first time for everything in life .. and so as this one ... eniwei, i am actually kinda happy with the job ... especially when i am in the mood for some serious damages .. wakakaka .. it just gives me tat i-want-more kinda feeling .. n it somehow resurrects myself from the dead, if u will ... LOL .. it makes me feel somehow content when i know what the hell i am doing ... i can still remember how i wished tat i'd never finished a project so tat i wouldnt be assigned a new one .. wakakakkaka .. the frustration tends to pile up and makes u do stupid things like this .. but now, the current kinda drifts in the other direction ... in fact, i beg for new projects as soon as i finished one ... simply bcoz i hate opening up old projects to fix bugs and some other crap .. however, i wouldnt say i want to stick to this job in the long term tho .. i guess it's more like a stepping stone .. u know, something temporary ... neway, enuf about the job itself .. what gets me really ticked off at times is the company tat i work for ... i dun even know whether it deserves to be a company in the first place when there are only 2 friggin' people working full time .. sighs .. n i wouldnt consider myself a full time either .. at least from my point of view .. first of all, i was never given a key to the front door up to this very second i'm writing this up .. they said tat i will be handed a key after i completed my probation time, which ended 2 months ago ... as a result, i am asked to skip work whenever my friend/manager wont be able to make it the next day .. like wat happened last friday .. plus i am only paid for the hours tat i put in .. no work = no pay .... even though it wasnt my fault, if i may put it this way ... in addition, i would have to stand outside the office if he arrived later than me, which is usually the case btw .. imagine waiting in this winter weather .. i mean, the person who holds the key should be the first person arriving at the office .. tat's just common sense .. *yeah rite, like i can stuff this into his brain* ... sighs .. but luckily, he's been turning up earlier than usual ... so it's good ... phew .. Next is the smoking problem .. man, i wish i could take tat cigarette n shove it up his ass .. ARGHHH!!! ... to be honest, i am pretty sensitive to smoke ... and i managed to confront him about his inconsiderate habit last month or so .. i sincerely told him to take his smoke outside the office .. n he agreed to tat .. i mean it's not like he doesnt know tat i dont smoke .. GOD! some people are just unbelievable ... when things are beginning to turn in my favor, it doesnt usually last long .. at least in my case .. since it began to snow around here, he's been taking his "break" back into the office .. and now, there are TWO people ... apparently he's been taking his galfriend to the office for i dont know watever reason ... i am not even sure if she's supposed to be there since she's not even working there .. i mean, can u keep this professional?!? .... sighs ... would u like it if i bring my galfriend in? i dun think so ..... so there u go ... crap ... wat should i do now? bring this up to the company owner? .. too bad the chances are tat he wouldnt even give it a damn .... simply bcoz he doesnt like me ... u can count on this .. n i am not making this up .. i dun need to explain ... but u know when someone doesnt like u around .. but i always try to be nice to him anyway .. coz i need this job ... as simple as tat .. n everything comes down to tat .. i could be yapping about all the complaints for all i care .. n it still wouldnt make a f***ing difference ... so just have to swallow it hard ... sighs ... after all, i am still laughing here .. wakakakakkakakka ... despite the things i talked about, i am still hoping for the best to come yet .. as always .. never lose hope .. ^^ .. hihihi .. alritey then .. u peeps have a good one yach .. btw, i havent received my pay-cheque yet and wont be getting one til about end of next week .. it's always like this ... late payments .. sighs .. me out now ~ cheers

"I don't fear death .. for death is only a state of transition .. but living without hope .. now, that's what i call a living hell"

start to end / end to start

2005-12-01T08:47:00.000+07:00

~ Yelloww mellow people ... reporting from the heart of my cozy room .. ouchhh! my arse is kinda numb these days .. spent too much time on these bloody chairs .. work see chair, home see chair, eat see chair, blog see chair .. n tat's pretty much wat i've got around here .. LOL .. eniwei, just wanna get this straight out in the open ... WELCOME TO DECEMBER-LAND everyone .. wakkakakakkaa .. u know, i just i tot i should do a sincere greeting for last son of daddy year .. hihihi ... soon everything will be over for this old pal ... n mommy time will give birth to a newborn baby year, who will later on turn to be a daddy year .... n the family tree grows ... wat a wonderful story .. well, now tat's done .. i guess i'll kick myself outta here ... wakakakkaka .. enjoy peeps .. me out now ~ cheers

the wash away

2005-11-28T08:14:00.000+07:00

~ Yo yo yo ... hihihi .. how is everybody doing? welcome to tonite's show and thank you for joining us here live at the MSG (My Square Garden) ... yeah i got tat rite .. wakakakkakaa ... wooohhh .. 3 days gone by just like tat .. not even a blink of an eye .. kekeke .. life's never been better tho .. friday's off, which means a super long weekend for me .. spent much of my time sitting on this bloody chair n tuning my eyes on screen the whole time .. i dun even know if i can still feel my arse now .. yaikzzz .. pretty bad huh? hohoho .. eniwei, good news folks .. finalle got meself a seat for the latest edition of the Harry Potter collection .. hihihi .. went down to check it out on friday .. God, u wouldnt believe how many kids were inside tat bloody room ... it's like an invasion .. apparently they were having some kind of school trip .. talk about great timing here ... so yeah, there i was sitting at the second last row coz the best seats have already been taken ... by the "others" .. wakakakkaka .. and once in a while, their teachers would shout their lungs out to keep 'em quiet .. tough job .. but i bet they luv it .. otherwise, there is no friggin' reason on earth they would be out there every single day hanging out with those lil' rascals ... can't imagine .. wakakkakaka .. anyways, da movie wasn't tat disappointing after all .. perhaps i didn't expect much outta it .. but it was definitely worth watching .. ^^ .. at least it was alot better than the previous sequel .. hohoho .. having said tat, i still wish a couple of changes tho .. i notice tat i am seeing this stupid Dombledore *check spelling plz* waayyyy toooo much in this movie .. just too much .. n tat leaves less rooms for the other characters like the professors and Hagrid ... plus i personally prefer the late Dombledore alot better than this one .. something's just not rite .. sighs .. btw speaking of appearance, i feel tat we are going to see less n less of everybody - referring to the earlier casts .. n more of Harry Potter himself ... *DOH!!!* .. n less of the 3 friends hanging out together ... venturing for answers n clues .. solving puzzles n not to forget, getting into troubles .. wakkakakaka .. ~

~ Seen "Love Actually" and "Cinderella Man" this weekend .. absolutely brilliant pieces of work .. the latter is truely a Rocky classic .. it is actually the third movie i like starring Russel Crowe in it .. superb man of character ... and he nailed it again this time .. hihihi .. OMG i am over-reacting here .. so let's cut the crap, shall we? sureee ... let see now .. hmm .. what can i talk about other than that? ............. nothing period .. how sad .. wakakakkaka .. but i think i've said enuf bout the movies .. hohohoho .. the rain has washed away the snow today .. n tomorrow it looks like it is going to rain again .. sighs .. the temperature is rising slightly in the next couple days .. *see this is wat u become when u sit too much in ur room n not have a social life .. the weather man* .. n tomorrow is back to work peeps .. feel like i get rid of everything about work during the past weekend .. woohhoooooo .. btw have u guys/gals gone shopping yet? i mean c'mon on here .. christmas is here .. n it's shopping time .. lalalalalalala .. SALE! SALE! SALE! .. spend urself out .. hihihi .. i never quite get used to the idea of christmas shopping just yet .. wakakakakkaka .. *WTF?!&@!&@%* ... i mean seriously ... for a guy, i think i can honestly say tat i like shopping ... surprise!!! .. wooohoooo ... the one thing tat i buy for christmas is prolly a christmas CD ... but then i'll always lose 'em now and then .. which means tat i will have to put my hands on a new one every year ... wakakkakakkakaka .. n tat my friends is my lil christmas shopping .. hihihi ... after all, christmas is my fave time of the year .. besides chinese new year n the real new year ... wooop woop .. all the parties n celebrations ... sighs .. it's all gone pretty much now .. wat's left out of it all are the sweet memories ... and i am pretty damn sure tat i'll be spending christmas alone in this same room on the same chair .. yeah yeah yeah ... hihihi ^^ .. but it's all good .. no plans as of yet .. perhaps something crazy will pop into my mind on the last minute .. who knows ... wakakkakaka ... anyways, managed to catch up with some of my buddies .. n me = glad to hear tat they are doing alrite .. hihihi .. man, i better rest early tonite .. so i guess i am done here ... u guys have a good one yooo ... nitey2 .. me out now ~ cheers

friday 12:47 am

2005-11-25T12:47:00.000+07:00

~ Walllooowww people .. hohoho .. surprise surprise .. i know i know .. it's crazy ain't it? it's really early friday n wat the heck am i doing up around this time? ^^ .. don't i have to work tomorrow? wakakakakaka .. thanxgiving? nope .. just an ordinary day off .. apparently my boss has an errand to attend to .. so he called it off official .. ahhuahhuahuhaua .. i decided not to waste today .. got plenty of movies sitting around my hard drive .. n here i am after watching "Janji Joni" .. ow boy, was it great or was it fantastic? well, both to be honest .. can't sleep rite now .. wakakakkaa .. all my pulses are raging in my veins .... n my eyes just won't shut .. wooohoooo .. feeling great actually .. n i am glad tat i am .. watever ... eniwei, this movie is just another indon flick ... but ... hehehehe ... i like it ... it could have been longer tho .. nevertheless, i luv it just the way it is rite now .. to be honest, i am beginning to like indon movies better than ever now ... i mean, maybe not all of 'em .. but at least from i've seen .. i say i'd give the majority a two-thumbs up .. kekekekkekee .. n it feels really good .. u know .. to talk about something u like about ur country .. wakakkakakaa .. i personally think wat appeals to me most about these movies is tat fact tat they are trying to serve u a dose of reality of life back in indon .. well, at least to the point at which u know they still exist ... hihihi .. n they are really straight up about these things .. coz they are wat they are ... so can't hide 'em .. it's simply our way of living .. kekekekeke .. which we all indulge in both subconsciously and self-consciously whether we like it or not in one way or another ... n wat's cool is tat i can find myself laughing at a scene whereby such situations are being portrayed .. and i kinda say to myself .. "Bravo, tat's just the way we do it" ... wakakakkakakakkaka .. good stuff ... hehehehe .. i must say this crazy idea of heading back to indon for good just kinda strike me rite after watching this movie .. i mean wat's holding me back here? WHAT? i've been running away from tat question again n again n again ... n yet i still couldn't find the answer ... or perhaps, i wouldn't wanna hate myself for answering it .. *the second one is more likely ;) .. trust me on this one* .. eniwei, at least i was truly inspired by this movie .. shenks to Herrotzky for ripping it ... wakakkakakakkaka .. good one dude .. ^^ ... anymore n u know wat to do .. LOL .. btw Happy Shenks-giving to all me frends in the USA ... kekekeke .. have a blast dech pokoke .. n enjoy da holidays .. woop woop .. alritey then .. off i go to wonderland ... hihihi ... have a good one hommies ... tekker ... me out now ~ cheers

Adam : "Jadi apa pekerjaan kamu?"
Joni : "Saya pengantar roll film"
Adam : "Dan kamu nganggap pekerjaan nganter film itu sebagai karir? ...."
Joni : "Kenapa nggak?"
Adam : "Woaahh kamu itu sebetulnya pintar kelihatannya ... tapi mengapa jadi under-achiever? Kamu bisa dapat kerjaan yang lebih bagus kalau kamu mau."
Joni : "Memangnya kriteria anda tentang pekerjaan yang lebih baik itu apa? Yang lebih banyak duitnya?"
Adam : "Bener kan?"
Joni : "Oh man, what the ... ? Lo tuh ngecewain gue. Buat seorang seniman, pikiran lo tuh terlalu dangkal."
Adam : "Jelaskan"
Joni : "Pekerjaan yang paling baik adalah pekerjaan dimana lo bisa menikmati pekerjaan itu."

sunday oh sunday

2005-11-21T06:44:00.000+07:00

~ Back full circle in a week ... sighs .. soo not looking forward to work .. give me a break will ya .. i'm just a kid ... yeah rite, one HUGE kiddo .. wakakakakkakaka .. eniwei, today was another great mobile-trip with da Pooch .. kekekekekekee .. spent the whole afternoon travelling in the city in his soon-to-be-sold CR-V .. woohooo .. i really enjoyed it .. i kinda needed tat tho ... hehehehe .. it's been a pleasure riding with you bro .. ^^ .. shenks for taking me out .. n it was quite a wonderful date .. wakakakakakkaka .. we went searching for travel agents in P-Mall .. he's looking for a ticket back home ... we found some good deals .. ^^ .. sweeet .. kekekeke .. but no Destiny STILL .. sighs .. then we headed straight to meet the prospective buyer .. a chinese lady ... they test-drove the car .. way too much .. wakkakakakkakaa .. there were like 3 people taking turns to test the vehicle .. woooohoooo .. in the end, they decided to think bout it ... in an hour later or so, they called back ... asking for a much lower price ... which is quite insane to me, given Pooch's offering price ... so nah da ... both ended up holding each other's ground ... hohoho .. n it's a matter of time only .. wakakkakaka ... before either one loses patience n decided to give in .. hehehehehhee ... but i still think it's a good price ... the best deal i've seen through the used car catalog ... hihihi .. plus the car's still in a reasonably good condition .. i mean, altho it's not my car, but i've been inside way too many times .. wakakkakakakaka .. *yeah rite* ... but honestly, if u take a good look at it, it seems like it's brand new .. seriously! ... eniwei, hopefully he'll find a buyer offering a good price for it ... patience bro patience ... btw this reminds me ... i like this phrase ... "Patience produces Hope" ... by Stephen (my room mate) ... funny guy .. wakakakkakaa .. Pooch n me kinda chat for a bit with him n they both got acquainted before leaving the house .. hohoho .. it was a good sunday after all .. really good one ... since hmmm .... dunno when .. hauhuahhuaha ~

~ Dunno how to explain this ... but i kinda felt sad .. knowing tat Pooch is selling his car .. tat car holds quite some everlasting memories to me ... hihihi .. imagine how much more it means to Pooch himself .. can't quite describe the feeling ... but it's there .. hehehehe .. basketball games, BBQ, movies, bowling, toronto ... ^^ ... it's been a good buddy ... hey, let's give it a name ... how bout The Pooch Mobile ??? wakkakakakkaka .. *lame i know but can't help it* .. ~

~ Ugh .. my stomach .. i dont feel really good .. must be the Cah Kwe Tiaw ala Singapore ... it's definitely asskicking .. sooo darn spicy .. i was sweating my arse off while eating .. wakakkakaa .. but hey, it was superb .. u can't get tat kinda kick anywhere else in Toronto .. and certainly not in Windsor .. wooohoooo .. u can actually taste the belacan mix yooo ... wakakkakaka .. bring u guys next time around k ... ;) ... in the mean time, tat's it for now ... wish me luck next week .. ^^ ... btw check out this tune .. fresh from me bro .. damn chun! .. enjoy guys .. me out now ~ cheers

jumping jesus ... holy crap

2005-11-20T08:18:00.000+07:00

~ What do u expect going to the cinema and looking at the showtimes of Harry Potter on its second premiere day here in Toronto? an XTRA LONG Q? WRONG! an XTRA SOLD-OUT SIGN NEXT TO IT!!!!! .. 12:00 12:30 3:15 3:40 SOLDOUT .... holy crap ... it was outrageously absurd ... i mean seriously ... all these toddlers were everywhere ......... big, small, fat, chubby, black, brown, white, dark-haired, blonde-haired, no hair, short, tall, not so tall, boy, girl and a hell lot of mommies, daddies, aunties, uncles, grandfathers, and grandmothers .... just simply crazy ... never seen a mall packed with kids, unless it's Harry Potter time .... i was prepared to be disappointed already .. but no chance .. so there i was standing outside the entrace .. i knew it was coming ... all thanx to 4Kids TV ... perhaps i could have made it for the 12pm show .. but i decided not to because i was tuning in for One Piece at 11:30 in my room ... n guess wat .. it didn't even show ... DAMN! i am soooooo darn close to losing it ... hate it when they changed the airing schedule of my fave anime series without my discretion ... wakakakkakakkaka .. *hey, who are you to them eh?!?* ... checked out the website n it turned up tat One Piece wasn't even lined up this weekend .... sighs ... eniwei, there goes my completely ruined saturday plan ... hihihi .. perhaps next weekend i'll get my chance ... ^^ .. hohohoho ~

~ Spent my entire morning applying for jobs on the net ... found a few and just finished sending out my resume rite before writing up this post .. hehehehehe .. crossing my finger now .. hopefully i'll get some response in the coming weeks ... ^^ .. This week marks the first week of snow here in markham ... it was quite bad .. traffic's getting xtremely slow n there was an accident on Steeles n Warden a few days ago .. apparently a man was lying still on the middle of the road .. a man was on the phone with the police i supposed .. no ambulance on the scene ... and two cars tat seemed to have hit each other during the incident .. n tat makes up the first day of winter .. imagine wat's to come ahead people ... i say we should all be more xtra careful .. including the drivers .. we had enuf of the gun violence olredi in the city .. wakakkakaka .. ~

~ Tomorrow's a day with the Pooch ... wooohooooo .. he's in town to meet an interested buyer for his for-sale CR-V .. hopefully this is it hombres ... ^^ .. I need to shop for groceries tomorrow too ... and some phone cards .. kekekkekeke .. dunno wat's the masterplan yet tho .. prolly some catching up with each other's life ... hehehhe .. o ya a lil' trip to chinatown perhaps .. boy it's been a while ... wakakakkakakaka .. eniwei hopefully it'll be fun n chilly .. yeah yeah yeah ~

~ Alritey people .. i guess me gonna head out for a break .. kinda hungry ... but the fridge is empty ... crap .. how bout some Destiny, ms.WB and mr.SC? wakakkakakkaka .. one day yooo .. ^^ .. btw still can't believe tat it's week #48 next in 2005 ... time really flies man ... another year, another responsibility ..... hihihi ... a'ite then .. y'all have a good one k .. adios amigos ... ariba ariba ariba .. me out now ~ cheers

give my friday back ...

2005-11-18T08:18:00.000+07:00

~ Boom Chaka Wakka ... hohoho ... just glad tat friday is back on my window .. phew .. work's been horribly hectic to be honest .. i can feel it has taken its toll on me ... kekekekeke .. but Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire hits Toronto TOMORROW .... wooohooooooo ... boy i am so friggin' xcited .... hehehehe .. it's getting really freezing down here ... the outside temperature drops as low as 4 degrees below zero ... crap ... eniwei i'm laughing by myself rite now ... lost my sanity watching Survivor .. wakkakakakakka ... a'ite hombres .. have a good one yoo .. happiness is a choice .. thanx Slim Shady for reminding me ... ^^ .. kekekekeke .. me out now ~ cheers

car for sale ... ^^

2005-11-17T09:03:00.000+07:00

~ On Sale: 2002 Honda CR-V EX in Toronto .. interested? comment me ~

cheers

just another ordinary post

2005-11-14T07:30:00.000+07:00

~ Aloha .. haven't been posting as usual this weekend .. hihihi .. i guess it's a break .. eniwei i am back now ... nothing's really happening in my life the past week or so ... just another ordinary week for another ordinary dude like me .. hauhuhahhauhuhahuua ... Work's fine .. well, not exactly .. a dateline is coming up this coming wednesday ... and i am pretty confident that i am not going to finish it on time .. crap .. i hate it when they handed me a project that's due like in 3 days .. unbelievable sometimes .. it's not like it's an easy thing to do .. programming really challenges your attention to details and what happens when you rushed through your code ... it crashes .. sighs ... and who gets the blame when it crashes .. the manager? NO .. the programmer DOUH!*@&$ ... sighs .. it makes me feel bad sometimes when i couldn't meet datelines .. perhaps i am the one who is just straight up slow .. at least it gets me thinking tat way ... but who cares .. no one's perfect .. the important thing is tat i give it a shot and i try ... n tat's all tat counts for me .. hihihi .. Weekend ... hmmm .. prolly u guys already know my weekly errands by now .. so dun bother asking coz i am doing your ears a huge favour here .. wakakakakakkaka .. i guess tat's pretty much it then .. o before i kick my arse off this post, a couple of shoutouts to my frends: Pooch, who is currently trapped in a very difficult situation; Herrotzky, who is having her life crisis over in Boston; and FumiZuki, who is having a tough time coping with her brand new status .. kekekekekee .. cheer up guys ... everything is not tat bad afterall if you look at it from a different angle ... eniwei maybe i won't understand u peeps situation .. but hang on .. ^^ ... just like wat i've been doing around here ... this one's for u guys .. Another Perfect Day by American Hi-Fi .. hihihi .. enjoy a'ite ... back to Big Daddy ... y'all have a nice one .. me out now ~ cheers

don't let the sun go down on me ..

2005-11-11T09:30:00.000+07:00

~ Honestly i am fried ... i can feel it in my steps .. and the chilly conditions are not helping alot either ... eyes are tired and heavy .... i know i could really use some good decent break ... but nah, gotta keep on moving ... hehehehehe .. but no worries, the weekend is coming soon .. phew .. alot to do tho ... ^^ ... sighs ... btw would like to wish my buddy, the Hanz, all the best in his FINALs .. show 'em my motto bro .. wakakakaka .. so this one is for you and all of my hombres wherever u are .. No Surprises by Radiohead ... sweet .. kekekkeke .. hmm, let's see wat else .. can't really think much rite now .. oh well, it snowed ... me out now ~ cheers

just for you ...

2005-11-07T12:00:00.000+07:00

~ Happy 6th Anniversary My Dear ~

"... Belai lembut jarimu
Sejuk tatap wajahmu
Hangat peluk janjimu
Anugerah terindah yang pernah kumiliki ..."

Thank you
For your understanding
For your patience
For your time
For your support
For your love
For making my world a better place
and
For being just you

Thank You

Yours Forever and Always,

someone who thinks you are the centre of his universe

terrific ...

2005-11-07T07:38:00.000+07:00

~ It's never been so bloody windy around here like today .. the trees were literally blown away .. it's like some hurricane is heading this way or some sort ... ekekkekekeke .. i can see the colourful maple leaves scattered under the trees standing along the both sides of the street .. as if they have been stripped off naked by the fury of the wind .. hauhuhahahhauhuaa .. so skinny and so old .. Well, it hasn't been all sunny and warm around here this weekend ... the dark clouds are moving in quickly across the open sky, hiding away the sunlight from hitting the surface of our land .. it's not a pretty picture i guess .... kinda sad ... but it's alrite .. the best thing to do at this kind of weather is to cover up urself under the blanket with the telly on while eating a bag of Lays .. or perhaps, cooking in the kitchen ... ahahhahahaha .. preparing a special dinner for u and the emptiness around ... hihihi .. on second thought, a hot bowl of indomie chicken noodle soup will do the job just fine for me actually .. wooohoooo ~

~ Me been having trouble sleeping lately .... in fact, it's so bad tat my eyes were partially swollen yesterday ... i can feel it tho .. but wasn't paying too much attention to it until Joyce told me tat my face looked somewhat different *hmm .. f***ed up to be more exact* ... so i figured it must be my panda eyes .. hauhuahuauauhaua .. so tat's why i decided to take an early rest yesterday nite ... but not tonite tho ... hehehehhehe ... ~

~ Yesterday, on the way back of my routine weekend journey ... i decided to try my luck again .. not at the casino of cuz .. hehehehhehee .. i decided to embark on another quest of finding a part time job ... kekekekekekeke .. i tot why not give it another shot ... this time it's a small chinese shopping complex just a few blocks away from my house .. lots of restaurants and all .. so i was hoping to bear some fruits at the end of the day .. so there i was, walking around .. trying to look for some openings ... found a few ... but to a certain degree, my hopes were crushed again ... well, no surprise .. it's part of the consequences living in a community where 90% of time people around here speak mandarin or cantonese ... as soon as i raised the question .. the first thing they threw back at me was "Can you speak mandarin or cantonese?" ... and tat my frends, pretty much ends the conversation ... dead end ... hihihi ... to be honest, it's always good to have at least some basic chinese if you are going to stay in canada ... or anywhere around the world for tat matter ... trust me, things will be so much easier for you ... and i mean a lot easier for you .. kekekekke .. but too bad, i don't .. sighs .. ~

~ Eniwei, MU won 1-0 over Chelsea this morning .. and tat ends Chelsea's undefeated winning streak ... kekekekkekeke .. in the end, i personally think both teams deserved to be applauded .. i mean it was a terrific terrific match at Old Trafford .. ^^ ... my heart was thumping real hard as the clock ticked towards the dying seconds .. and even harder when the officials decided to add 4 xtra minutes to the game .. but the red devils did just good ... they held on to the very last .. i guess they knew tat this win is very very crucial .. for them and for the fans .. woohhooooo .. all thanx to Roy Keane for his harsh comments over the team's lack of ambition, motivation, and commitment .. it must be really hard on him too ... i mean not being able to do sumthin' about his situation .. so yeah .. hail MU!!! .. woop woop ... we still believe ... yeah yeah yeah ~

~ Alritey .. i guess i'm all set for this week ... wish u guys a onederful week ahead .. be happy, be merry, and be cherry ... wakakkakakakaka .. things could have been worse .. so be grateful for wat u have .. cherish the things around u and hold 'em close to ur heart before knowing tat it's too late to do so ... hihihi ... well, tat's all folks .. have a good one .. me out now ~ cheers

dancing with wolves

2005-11-05T12:14:00.000+07:00

~ I have always been fascinated by the ancient indian tribes .. i'm not talking 'bout Indians from India here .. no offense tho .. but rather those you see often in a typical western cowboy movies where they ride manly on the back of their horses with feathers and headbands around their heads as well as a bow slinging around their bodies .. it always occurs to me tat their way of life is so complex, yet simple .. with lots of parties and sacred ritual ceremonies ... but most of all, their ancient believes which are so unbelievably natural ... the wind, the water, the fire, the earth, the sun, the moon, and the animals .. and they are extremely skilled in producing beautiful hand-crafted trinkets ... and i really love those stuff .. seriously .. and those old-grown tribe chiefs have always amazed me with their wisdom, respect, and values ... truely a great civilization indeed .. very hardworking and always act solid together as tribe no matter what happens ... it's one for all or nothing at all .. hihihi ... btw what the heck has gotten into me ... !@#$%&*^ ~

~ Must be the late hours and lack of sleeping these days ... couldn't sleep or maybe not willing to sleep just yet ... hehehehe .. but this week's not tat bad .. daily work is going alrite ... nothing big at the moment .. phew ... but still no part time job yet .... sighs .. at times i feel like i will find one ... but then again, things go the unexpected .. hihihi ... the same old story eh? hehehehe .. i know i know .. u guys are prolly sick n tired hearing it from me .. but hey, this is all i've got here ... imagine a life just like mine .. and u will never be more surprised ... wakakakkakaka .. Lots of wat-i-think-is-good movies out lately .. ranging from North Country, Saw II, Jarhead to Chicken Little .. hihihi ... too bad i am kinda short these days .. well, not exactly short .. just not the rite time to spend .. u know it's saving time .. i've been trying to curb my "sometimes" excessive spending habits lately ... u know cut here cut there .. wherever possible .. hihihi .. to be honest, i dun really *never* get out much around here ... spend most *all* of my time in my room besides buying weekly bus passes and groceries ... so i was thinking ... i dun really spend much here .. just basic necessities ... so little tat i even have to cut my food spendings in order to save ... FYI this is not a complaint or whining ... just feel like writing something down tonite .. hihihi ... so yeah, forget 'bout those movies .. for now .. ehehhehe ... perhaps i am saving myself a lil' something to do in my old days later on .. kekekekkekee .. when i can't even stand up properly on my own ... when my sight gets blur ... my hair turns gray .. and when the only thing to do is sit on the damn couch watching those movies ... and hopefully i dun have any hearing problems ... wakkakakakkaka .. but i am not going to miss Harry Potter (The Goblet of Fire) .. surprisingly, i have this awful feeling tat it's not going to be as wat i expected ... sighs .. but heck, i am going to watch tat movie one way or another .. hihihi ... btw more great movies are coming soon as well .. i sneaked into the Quicktime Movie Trailer site during work today ... high-speed connection and no boss around to supervise .. man is this awesome or wat ... wakakakkakaka .. among 'em which are worth mentioning include King Kong (opening Dec. 14) *woop woop .. found myself a birthday present olredi ... wakakakaka*, Cheaper By The Dozen 2, The Underworld Evolution, Match Point, and many more ... hihihi .. ~

~ Well, i guess this is enuf to get me going now .. to bed of course .. wakkakakakaka .. it's 1:25am rite now ... and i started writing this post at around 12:15am ... hihihi .. quite long but i enjoy it .. ^^ .. n shenks for reading 'em .. more coming up soon .. i hope so .. i will ... no worries ... hehehehe ... nitey people ... have urself a good one .. peace out .. me out now ~ cheers

BACK .. oh yeah ^^

2005-11-03T08:59:00.000+07:00

~ Just a quick one here hommies .. the NBA season is back in action baby .. oh yeah .. they're back ... wakakakkakakaka .. damn! i'm all fired up here .. let's go team .. St. Denis @ 6 .. as usual .. wakakakakakka .. man, it's all coming back now .. hihihi ... good times good times ... well, not so good for Pooch n Nato .... wakakakakkakaka .. painful memories er? hihihi .. btw Met Lebaran buat semua yg merayakan wherever u are ... ^^ .. mohon maaf lahir dan batin ... Ketupat plzzzzzz .. kekekekekkeke ... pake sayur labu + pete ... emank top cer dach ... wakakakakkaa .. a'ite peeps ... peace out yoo .. me out now ~ cheers

untitled ...

2005-10-31T07:11:00.000+07:00

~ Find myself laughing reading at this lil' closing message from Da Joker himself .. wakakakakka .. man, this guy just never stop .. hihihi .. ~

"Sorry forget to conggragruate all off the graduates,
send my best regards to Joice and family, and also for
Tata. As for u, boss, dont forget me if u have kan
tau, hehehehe. As usual the good friend is the friend
that ciak other friend, but the best one is the one
that let the friend ciak him or her, hehehehe"

Salam pcp

Kerman

~ Me = again disappointed .. hihihi .. my worst fear has revealed itself ... finallee ... sighs .. just when u think things are running a lil' smooth for you, sumthing *anything* just has to surface and halt it altogether .. crap .. but i kinda expected it ... just for the record here, i always have to slap myself *well, not really slap myself .. i mean .. "GET REAL dude!"* when things are running a lil' too well for a guy like me ... coz most of the time, there's got to be sumthin' tat jinx it sooner or later ... wakakakkakaka .. and as usual, to no one's surprise, it happens again this time ... well, everything in my life is uncertain .. in fact, in everybody's life .. so why so sad .. hehehe ... dun want to talk about it eniwei .. just let it go .. hauhuhahuahhua ... this weekend has been quite alrite .. New renters are occupying the empty rooms .. they just moved in today .. everybody seems nice ... which is kinda cool ... ^^.... well, there is this guy ... who lives across my room .. he's kinda funny man ... hahahahha .. seriously .. but he's friendly tho .. so yeah, things are ok around here ... hihihi .. But the bad part is I HAVE TO SHARE BATHROOM NOW!!! .. crap .. i hate sharing bathrooms with strangers .. kekekekeke ... i guess no more drum-beating again on the toilet bowl then this time around ... wakakkakakakaka .. shit ... btw if you peeps find i'm updating my blog like a stray of flying bullets .. well, pardon me madam/monsieur *i hope i got tat rite* ... but this is pretty much my source of entertainment besides MSN-ing, watching movies/telly, and cooking ... *a shoutout to Pooch: Keep the movie supply moving dude .. i'm running out here .. wakakakka* .. but to be honest, i kinda like it ... wat a simple life i happen to be living in ... wakakkakakka .. *yeah rite* .. Tomorrow's another working day .. let's see wat's in store next week for me ... hihihi .. i'll let u know soon k .. hehehehehe .. in the mean time, check out this tune ... a lil' reminder for me .. wakakakkaka .. take care hommies ... n keep it real .. ^^ .. me out now ~ cheers

freakee you ... wackee me .. LOL

2005-10-29T20:42:00.000+07:00

~ Saturday is the best day of the week .. wooohooooo ... me = had left tat sad sad feeling behind .. it's so over me .. for now .. ^^ .. like wat bubble said .. it's soo not like me .. i am the happy-go-not-so-lucky kinda dude ... wakakakkakakaka .. *SLAP ME AGAIN! PLZ! OUCH! tat hurts* .. Now let's see wat i've got in store these daze ... hmmm .. o yeah, got meself a new phone yesterday ... n wat's awesome is tat IT'S MY FIRST EVER NOKIA CELL!!!! wooooohooooo .. wooop wooop ... yeah baby yeah .. *trust me this is as noraq as i can be people .. so u know wat to do rite .. OUCH! AGAIN?!? OK OK* ... it's good to have a new companion ... hehehe .. but i do have to read up on the manual guide ... man i'm friggin' lost here .. u people must be thinking tat i'm a freak or sumthing .. but trust me, i'm not a cellphone-savvy kinda dude .. hihihi ... i think there are too many things a phone can offer you these daze ... well, blame the technology ... kekekeke ... neway i didn't buy one of those high-tech cellphone where you have all those sci-fi features .. *Dude, sci-fi?!? WTF?!?* hauhuahhuahhahuhua ... well, pardon my poor level of English description here .. wakakakka .. it seems tat i haven't been improving much since i was .. back in singapore ... huhauhauhahuua .. i dun think i was even improving a lot back then either .. just enuf for daily communication .. hohoho .. i guess blame all my indon frends .. BIG TIME! uahuhauhahuahhauhaua .. just kiddin' pals n buds .. hihihi .. but, wat kinda suck is the fact tat my indon is NOT improving any better either ... crap .. ask me to write a 500-word of proper indon composition .. prolly i'll end up writing a 1000-word of indon song lyrics .. ahuhhuahahuhahhaua ... shit! can i even get a decent job if i head back to indon now?!? i wonder .. hehehehehe ... neway let's cut the crap here .. hihihi .. coz i'm running kinda late ... ok, the plan for today is 1. buy bus pass, 2. look for part-time job @ the mall, 3. head back home n go grocery-shopping with Joyce n Joe, 4. no plan ... huahuahahhhuaa ... so there you go peeps ... my beautiful saturday ... FYI this weekend, there's gonna be plenty of sunshine and the temperature will slightly rise a bit .. YAY! i could use some warm weather to lighten things up ... especially my life n my feelings lately .... hihihi ^^ .. b4 i ciaoo, check this out yooo .. WAKAKAKAKKKAA .. again pardon my noraq-ness *btw if you are looking for this word in the dictionairee, forget it ... hohoho* ... well, i have to find something fun to entertain myself here .. so i tot why not ... uhauhauhauahhuaa .. *u bloody moron* ... have fun peeps .. feel the sunshine ... everything is gonna be alrite ... yeah yeah yeah .. me out now ~ cheers

== The Wackiest Me of Me ==

AM I OR AM I NOT .. ?

2005-10-28T07:29:00.000+07:00

~ Running low peeps ... haven't been sleeping all well these cold nites out here .. sighs .. is this the end-of-da-month syndrome i wonder .. when u are supposed to feel tired, confused, lost ... hopeless ... situations are different now than it was back then .. who could have thought it will end this way .. wait a minute .. this isn't the end .. but all i'm having rite now is false hope .. fake hopes ... sighs .. nevertheless it's still a hope ............... and hope i can bear through all the things to come ... good or bad ... hope is all i've got ... hang in there pal ... me out now ~ cheers

~ And I wouldn't wanna happen to you
cause I could never climb the
walls you'd walk through
and it's the smilling lies that always come
to make you feel that I'm the one for you ~

~ You pinned your hope on me like I'm all you find
but I wouldn't wanna happen to you this time ~

arumbaa arumbee arumboo

2005-10-26T08:14:00.000+07:00

~ It feels like it was just yesterday when i listened to "Wake Me Up When September Ends" by Green Day ... and now I am already singing "Goodbye My Sweet October" by me .. wakakakka .. yupe, another month gone like a blink of an eye .. ^^ ... Up next is November ... n u know wat they say about this month ?? it's the month of the rain .. kekeke ... so buy an umbrella if u dont have one yet .. hihihi .. n watch out for the cold too .. BBRRRRRR .. Haaachhooooo!?$#%@ .. i think i'm having one olredi .. crap ~

~ Before moving on, like to say HEPPI "RINALDIOUS" BIRTHDAY to my long-time frend, Rinaldi a.k.a The Captain ... wakakakkaka ... May all ur wishes come true .. n entenk jodoh dach .. kikiki ... 24 is old enuf to get married u know ... hauhuahhuuahhahuha .. just for laugh dude ... ^^ .. moga sukses dan sehat selalu yach bozzz ... sip sip sip ... cheers ~

~ Now tat's done .. back 2 business here .. if u have any down syndrome, pleaze see this DAMN CHUN! stuff here .... but u got to download it first .. it's around 65MeGz in size .. so take ur time err ... wakakkakakakka .. be prepared to laugh ur arse oFF!!! WARNING: NOT SUGGESTED FOR PEOPLE WITH HEART PROBLEMS. FRIENDLY DISCRETION IS ADVISED .. woooohoooo .. Geez my eyes are drowsy olredi .. got to take a rest now people .. sighs .. more to come next time k .. for now, tha tha hommies ... have a onederfull one ... me out now ~ cheers

it's dark again in here .. sighs

2005-10-24T07:58:00.000+07:00

~ Hi again .. hihihi .. nothing much left to do on this grayish sunday .. sighs .. just had me dinner ... did the dishes as usual .. some fruits ... then went on to Fumi Zuki's MSN space ... hehehehe .. was looking at those pix she posted there ... niceeeeee .. hehehehe .. one beautiful weekend in rewind .. hohoho .. dunno when will we get together again just like tat ... kikiki .. maybe one day .. i'm sure we will ... and when it comes, prolly we'll be some different people altogether ... some successful, some not so successful .. some happy, some not so happy ... some still the same, some not so the same .... huahuahuahuhahhauaa ... but hopefully we will still be the same old pals ... ^^ ... Moving on, i did buy my bus pass n submitted my resume + application to Starbucks .. hihihi .. hopefully they will contact me soon ... kekekeke .. but won't expect anything .. they say "If you don't want to be disappointed, then dun expect anything" ... and i think it's absolutely true .. hihihi ... just hope for the best to come ... hohoho .. Tomorrow's back to monday .. working days again ... hopefully things will flow smoothly this coming week ... yeah yeah yeah ... btw Bo, what are you up to dude? haven't heard from you again ... we seriously need some catching up to do here, u know ... hehehehe ... November's just round the corner peeps ... sighs .. wat's next on me agenda ??? let's seee ... NOTHING! .. kikiki ... but it's all good yooo .. me frends back in windsor will be busy with da finals .. or wherever they are ... end of semesters are lurking at you people .. hahahahha .. study hard yachh ... ^^ .. to be honest, i feel lucky to have this blog tho .... at least i can pour some of my thoughts n feelings n ramblings down here ... it doesn't really matter if people actually read it or not ... hehehe ... at least it keeps me accompanied here ... hohoho ... but shenks to those who always stay tune .. appreciate it alot ... ^^ ... neway here's sumthin' i owed KebHo ... hehehe .. sorry dude, it's long overdue .. hehehehe .. i've been "tagged" .. so i have to list 5 of my weirdest habits ...... check it out ... and this brings another week to a close ... n finally the rain actually stop pouring here in markham .. thank God! .. hohoho ... so to all my frends wherever you are ... tekker k ... be safe .. be cool ... n stay tat way .. yeah yeah yeah .. btw Halloween's next week ... BOOO!! .. tat should get you started ... kikiki .. me out now ~ cheers

== My 5-ive Weirdest Habits ==

1. Whenever I read my friends' comments on my blog, I always pretend I am them .. and so I used to talk/mimic their characters while actually reading it. I like to imagine them actually talking to me ..

2. I actually open my blog many many many times a day ... just waiting to see if people actually drop by ..... and i even leave the browser open during weekend (if i am not out of town) ... and occasionally refreshing the page over n over ..... weird enuf?

3. I like to smile by myself in front of a mirror .. but only in my room or bathroom .. sometimes it just feels good to smile ... u know, exercise your muscles .. or just plain practising my best smile .. just in case i bcome a covermodel .. *dream on buddy*

4. I "play" drums while sitting on the toilet bowl (not in public restrooms tho) ... imagine playing to be more exact .. as if there's a real drum in front of me ... shake my heads n go with the rythm ...

5. Most of the time, I need to read a sentence, any sentence, many many many many many times before moving on to the next one ... dunno why ... just plain sick .. wat's worse is tat sometimes i even need to spell out the characters one by one ... the same goes with writing ... it gets really frustrating when it gets bad ... seriously .... and there you go, now I am officially a FREAK! .. crap ... btw if you read this, then u know u've been tagged OK!

mad people said "GO RIKKO .."

2005-10-23T06:51:00.000+07:00

~ Crazy crazy crazy ... time really does fly ... kekeke .. it's been a week since last saturday .. da day when i broke dead my phone .. hohoho .. good times .. good frendz .. ^^ .. neway here goes me lonely saturday this week .. woop woop .. woke up @ 9 am ... *btw tat was the first time ever i woke up later than 8 while in markham .. so congratz me!* .. turned on me laptop .. i know si apple gal is waiting .. hohoho .. so talked with her using Skype .. apparently she's doing this freelance project .. good money man .. seriously .. GO APPLE! .. hehehe ... get rich soon yeee .. so i dun have to work anymore .. wakakkakakaka .. while chatting, i sent out a couple of emails for several job openings .. hopefully there soon be some response .. *cross me finger .. amien* .. o yeah forgot tat i did me laundry .. hehehee .. finished onlining around 10.30 or so .. went to shower ... then headed out .. walked in to Starbucks Coffee .. not to buy one ... but "Is there any part time vacancy here?" .. "Hmm .. I think we do" .. yihaaaaa .. hehehee ... gave me a form to complete .. "I'll be back tomorrow" ... hohoho .. so happy errr? .. kekekeke .. but dunno yet .. let u know the ending .. btw also walked in to Kelsey's and Boston Pizza .. got all the forms .. After tat, got on the bus to Pacific Mall .. mission was to find meself a new phone .. the salesperson's name is Vivian .. very persuasive somewhat .. DUUUHHH!!! ... hehehhee .. the first thing i asked was "What is the cheapest phone u've got?" .. wondering wat crosses her mind at tat moment ... neway, she gave me two Nokias .. can't remember the models .. after some tots, decided to go with the cheaper one .. hehehehe .. mission accomplished .. but hang on .. "Sorry, the Rogers system is down .. we can only do it on Monday" .. DARN! .. "But if u come back on Monday, u dun have to pay the 35 bux feee" .. on second thought ... YAY! .... so mission = 1/2 accomplished .. wakakkakaka .. almost .. ^^ .. then bought me self a Kecap Bango + a box of Indomie (Special Chicken Flavor) .. hohoho .. it was raining kinda heavy at tat time outside P-Mall .. but luckily brought me umbrella .. hihihi ... also bought a phone card .. then got on the bus home .. Arrived safely with a rumbling stomach .. hehehe ... Made myself two slices of toast ... yummy ... Went on to fill in the application forms ... took quite some time .. finished everything around 4 .. went on to do my second laundry .. *the first one was my bed sheets and jackets .. so there u go* ... O yeah had a chat with Brother Pooch, breakaway, and Ms. WB .. hihihi .. Was switching TV channels when i happened to stop on CityTV .. guess wat's playing .. BABY'S DAY OUT .. Man luv this movie .. *hey how old are you ah?!? .. dun care :p* .. At 6, went upstairs to cook dinner .. another day of Glico curry .. never been better .. wakakaka ... Once done, vacuumed my room carpet, took a shower n had dinner .. and now here i am ... downloading some indon music from IRC .... sweeeeet .. hehehe ... sighs ... wat a day .. Tomorrow's mission is bus pass .. and lots of ironing ... crap .. at least there's always something .. hihihi .. b4 i go, HAPPY FUN B'daY to my pwend Herrotzky in Boston! ... may all ur wishes come true .. ^^ ... n have an xtra onederful day a'ite .. hehehehhee .. n to all of you people ... have a good one .. as always .. me out now ~ cheers

reality bites back ... sighs

2005-10-21T08:13:00.000+07:00

~ Yelloooww comrades ... hihihihi .. it's getting extremely cold around here .. morning temperatures usually drop as low as 1 or 2 celcius .. shit .. and it's not even november yet .. wakakaka .. but me = still have to work ... sighs .. ^^ .. not complaining, just explaining .. hohoho .. phoned my mom this morning .... told her tat i broke my phone .. btw just for the record, if anyone of you wish *just wish* to contact me via phone ... FORGET IT before tat thought even crosses your mind! .. it's just impossible .. hixs hixs .. apparently i broke the antenna @ the Windsor Buffet dinner last saturday nite .. darn .. i must have sat on it while gobbling tat beef flank ... well, it's too bad n it's too late .. kekekeke .. perhaps it's time for my lil' companion to rest now ... ^^ .. hohoho ... so coming back to my mom ... yeah, she was apparently quite upset about it .. but i didn't mean it to happen .. of cuz, i should have been more careful .. hihihii .. so i guess it's all my fault after all .. DANG!%@!^?# .. going to check out some phones this weekend .. To be honest, i've got plenty on me mind .. not phones, THINGS TO DO! ... crap ... i am now officially in search of a part time job .. gotta have to work on weekends from now on .. sob sob .... *no more saturday morning cartoons .. NOOOOOO!!* ... plus i have to go Don Mills n buy bus pass for next week .. plus the usual routine: laundry + room service + ironing .. sighs .. plus groceries .. wow, there goes me weekend .. hihihi ... so yeah, anyone have any part time job ... let me know .. desperately in need ... ^^ .. damn, my eyes are tired .. got to rest now .. have a good one everyone .. me out now ~ cheers

congratz n welcome ... ^^

2005-10-20T08:48:00.000+07:00

~ Congratulations to Cici Chenny who safely delivered her baby today .. i guess this welcomes Baby Hailey to our world .. God bless their family .. ^^ .. yeah yeah yeah .. me out now ~ cheers

the end of a neverending story

2005-10-19T03:15:00.000+07:00

~ Here i am rite back in Markham all by myself ... sighs .. came back last nite from windsor with a really mellow heart ... can't help but shed a tear ... i really really really miss all my friends .. all those fun, giggles, laughters, jokes, food, drinks, stories, games, smiles ... i never am a big fan of goodbyes and i will never be .. i hate it so damn much for the mere fact that i always *well, most of the time* cry whenever parting with people who i've come to grow close with in my life .. *btw this is a confession i've been waiting to make for a really long time* .. as much as i can, i always try to hold it simply because it's sooo darn embarassing to burst in front of my crowd .. especially when you are a boy .. *crap* .. they say BOYS DON'T CRY .. but hell with it .. after all, i am still a friggin' living, breathing person with all the fragile emotions God has invested in me ... i can't even remember how many times my mom has reminded me to quit crying like a baby .. sighs .. sorry mom, but i am just sad/emotional .. for most of you, probably this is a new side of me u've never come to know all this while .. hihihi .. so consider yourself lucky .. wakakkakakakka .. and perhaps, this is one of my best talents, which only a few people (my family and si apple gal) know 'bout .. it's a secret ... :p .. neway enough about me pathetic habit .. let's move on to some other topic .. hopefully it's not as mellow as my feeling rite now ~

~ A weekend in windsor is never dry and never wasted ... it's always fun and happy .. filled with lots of love .. wakakakakkaa .. even when there is nothing to celebrate, we make things happen just for the sake of celebration .. how 'bout tat? .. to be short, feasting is our fave hobby ... ^^ .. but last weekend was an exceptional one .. besides the convocation party, it is finally time for some of my friends to depart back to Indonesia for good .. hixs hixs .. sob sob .. i will truly miss 'em for all the times we shared together .. so i wish Suriany and Adwin all the best in their lives .. may we meet again in the future and may the good wind always be with you ... ^^ .. it's been a real pleasure hanging out with you guys .. so shenks for the memories dudes .. to good health and to our friendship .. cheers .. *shit, dun burst now .. DANG!?$@^%#* ~

~ Perhaps wat makes me even sadder *does this word exist?!?* .. is the fact tat i dunno when will i be able to drop back in windsor again .. as far as i know, there's no more long weekends for the rest of the year from here onwards (Christmas is still too long) .. crap .. so maybe tat's the last celebration WITH EVERYBODY in it .. hixs hixs .. sighs .. they say "There's always a beginning to everything and there must be an ending to every beginning" .. tat's just the circle of life ... hihihi .. and one day .. one day, it will be time for my ending as well ... hohoho .. ~

~ The Toronto sky is so gloomy .. makes my heart even more mellow .. dark clouds moving slowly across the sad sky without a promising sign of the warm sunshine .. i guess, even God knows how i am all down and gloomy .. sighs .. leaves falling and withering as the chilly wind blows against my face .. making my steps harder each day as i walk out to catch my ride to work .. in the morning, the grasses are wet, following the cold, lonely rains drizzling last night ... and as i breathe in the fresh morning scent, often seen up in this sky is a flock of geese flying south, migrating away from the coming winter ...... and that's when i know that the fun summer is over and the shades of autumn is here to stay ...... hmmmmmmm .. wat a life ~

~ Tonite i'll be escorting Suriany and Adwin at the airport ... it is the last good thing to look forward to .. well, at least, in the near future .. *hope i don't burst into flames .. shit* .. in the mean time, i'll have to adapt back to my lonely habitat .. been having too much fun lately ... ^^ .. me out now ~ cheers

"Finally ... and this is important ... when a goose gets sick or is wounded by gunshot, and falls out of formation, two other geese fall out with that goose and follow it down to lend help and protection. They stay with the fallen goose until it is able to fly or until it dies, and only then do they launch out on their own, or with another formation to catch up with their group."

"If we have the sense of a goose, we will stand by each other like that."

... COMPLETE

2005-10-15T08:59:00.000+07:00

~ Beeeeeeeeeppppp ..... Checking status .... All systems are ready to rock n roll .... ~

mode: Fully Energized
(i say BRING IT ON baby)

This song is dedicated to Brian, Suriany, Adwin, Rikko, Cindy (Malaysian), Mustopo
Congratulations guys! You did it BIG TIME! ^^

~ cheers ~

... START

2005-10-14T19:09:00.000+07:00

~ All systems are shutting down in 5 ... 4 ... 3 ... 2 .... 1 ........ Beeeeeeeeeeeeep ~

mode: Hybernating ^^
(re-charging energy for the weekend)

~ cheers ~